A/N: So did I answer your questions DragonPhoenix48? Lemme know. :) So here's the next chapter! It's the longest one I wrote i think... Enjoy!
Is it over? Chap 9
Beca had no idea what was happening. All she could think about was what Jesse said:
"I wanted to move on, but I moved on with the wrong person. You are certainly not the girl I loved or love."
Love. The girl he loves. There's someone in his heart, but it's not Ellie. It's someone else. It's her. She just knew it. It's Beca Mitchell. She was in his heart. Beca was fighting back a smile at that thought. Don't get your hopes up Bec, she warned herself. She looked up, the first thing she saw was his beautiful face. Jesse's face. He was staring at her. She could feel her heartbeat's pace picking up. She was about to explode. He approached her. Soon, their faces were mere inches apart.
"Beca," Jesse said gently.
"Hm?"
"I was an asshole. The way I treated you. I wasn't myself. I was stressed because I caught you kissing Luke and I-"
"Wait you saw that?"
"Yea. So I was stressed out by that and I thought sleeping with Ellie would make things even because you were cheating on me so I chea-"
"Jesse I didn't cheat on you. Luke came to me that day and told me he loved me. But I rejected him. Then you know what happened. I never thought of cheating on you Jesse. You were my everything, the only boy I ever let in. It hurt me when we broke up. I thought you got sick of me and started fooling around with other girls."
"Oh."
Jesse felt guilty all of a sudden, he was so messed up.
"I'm sorry Bec. I should have asked you what happened before I... You know. I was mad at you and a complete idiot to think sleeping with a girl would solve my problems Beca, I hope you understand."
"I understand."
"Good. I dated someone else because I wanted to move on with life. I thought that if I dated someone who loves me and I love back, I would forget about you. But I never thought about the fact that the person I love,"
Beca stared at him. He stared back with his puppy dog eyes. She gulped.
"is you. I love you, Beca Mitchell."
There he said it. He said what she wanted to hear. Without realizing, he leaned forward and closed the gap between them. Beca was shocked by his actions. The kiss was... Sweet, and longing. But she felt unsafe. She pushed him back. Jesse looked at her in disappointment. The rest of her friends were pretty shocked by her reaction too. They thought she wanted it. Apparently she didn't.
"What's wrong?" Jesse asked with concern. He lifted up her chin and she had to shake his hand off her.
"I can't." Beca answered apologetically.
"Why not? I know I was a jerk but at least give me a chance?"
Chloe rised from her seat to answer, "She's scared Jesse. Scared as hell."
"Thanks Chloe." Beca said sarcastically. It was kinda funny how she could still be so sarcastic when things had gotten so out of hand.
"What are you afraid of? Tell me."
Beca thought carefully about that question. She was afraid of many things. Her future with Jesse, what if it doesn't turn out well? Falling in love, what if Jesse broke up with her again? She wouldn't be able to take it. Her aca-children she may have with Jesse, what if they got a divorce? She didn't want her kids to have a childhood like hers. But all of her problems had one thing in common: Jesse.
"You." Beca replied.
"What?" Jesse asked in disbelief.
"I'm scared of you. I'm scared of falling in love with you Jesse. I don't want to get hurt by you anymore. I had enough of that."
"I won't hurt you again."
"I can't depend on that."
Jesse looked at her with sadness in his eyes, rejected.
"I'm sorry."
Beca turned away and was preparing to leave. As she walked towards the door, she heard a beautiful singing voice:
If you ever leave me baby,
Leave some morphine at my door. (She stopped in her tracks.)
'Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
To realize what we used to have,
We don't have it anymore.
There's no religion that could save me
No matter how long my knees are on the floor
So keep in mind all the sacrifices I'm makin'
Will keep you by my side
Will keep you from walkin' out the door. (She turned around as soon as the Trebles started vocalizing.)
Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same, if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...
I'll never be your mother's favorite
Your daddy can't even look me in the eye
Oooh if I was in their shoes, I'd be doing the same thing
Sayin there goes my little girl
Walkin' with that treblesome guy (He and his lame puns. Beca couldn't help but laugh. Jesse walked towards her.)
But they're just afraid of something they can't understand
Oooh well little darlin' watch me change their minds
Yeah for you I'll try I'll try I'll try I'll try
I'll pick up these broken pieces 'til I'm bleeding
If that'll make you mine (Beca started tearing up. She was touched. Beca Mitchell was touched.)
Cause there'll be no sunlight
If I lose you, baby
There'll be no clear skies
If I lose you, baby
Just like the clouds
My eyes will do the same if you walk away
Everyday it will rain, rain, rain...
Don't you say, goodbye, don't you say, goodbye,
I'll pick up these broken pieces till I'm bleeding,
if that'll make it right.
Cuz there'll be no sunlight, if I lose you baby. (He grabbed her wrists and looked into her blue eyes.)
There'll be no clear skies, if I lose you baby.
Just like the clouds my eyes would do the same,
If you walk away, everyday it will rain, rain, rain.
The Trebles stopped vocalizing and Jesse stopped singing as well. The whole room was silent. Everyone was now staring at them. Beca didn't know how to react. Jesse was so sweet, he moved her. At that moment she didn't care about her worries at all. She only thought about one thing: She loves Jesse. She pulled him close and kissed him lovingly. Suddenly there were 'whoopings' and wolf whistles filling the church. Beca swore she had heard Fat Amy screaming some rather inappropriate sexual comments. And something about kicking Ellie's ass or something. Oh heck care. They broke apart for a minute and they looked into each others eyes, both filled with love.
"I love you too dork."
That was all he heard before he leaned in for another soft kiss.