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No more nightmares

Chapter 8

Contemplating you is like a dream
I never want to wake up from what I finally see
Perfect circles turn in orbit
Following a perfect path from your perfect hand

(Flyleaf)

BPOV

The first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was the contours of Edward's chest covered with a black tee. I was snuggled into his side, my arms wrapped around his waist. Edward's face was hidden in my auburn locks and one of his arms was draped over my side. I hadn't had one bad dream since he crawled in next to me.

Edward's breathing was steady and very deep. I could feel his warm breathing in my hair and it sent tingles down my spine.

My heart went into overdrive when I remembered him confessing that my life means more to him than anything else does. He basically said, in not so many words, that he's crazy about me and that I'm in his thoughts constantly. Plus, he didn't run away like I thought he would after he saw my wrists and realized that I'm a walking time bomb – just ready to explode any day now. He promised to help me and stand by me through everything. And he did just that last night when he comforted me after my nightmare.

He held me the entire night and I hadn't had a nightmare for the remainder of the night. I'm just so lucky that I was shipped off to come and live with Charlie where I've stumbled across Edward Cullen. The sexy Adonis who stole my heart by a simple glance. His piercing eyes caught my heart; hook, line and sinker.

"What's going through that sexy little head of yours?" his voice was lazy and hoarse while he spoke into my hair. He nestled his face deeper into my hair and inhaled deeply. I couldn't help but giggle.

"I was just thinking about your eyes" I smirked. He propped himself up on his elbow and rested his head on his fist.

"Really? What happened to my crazy fucking hair?" he smirked with millions of stars dancing in his vibrant eyes. I gasped at his beauty.

I slapped his shoulder.

"I'm torn between the two" I grinned while running my fingers through his thick bronze strands.

He chuckled lazily. I liked the sound of his laugh.

"Are my eyes just as fucking crazy?" he teased me. I smacked his shoulder again.

"No. Do you even realize how amazing your eyes are Edward? They remind me of windows; clear windows. Your eyes are so bright and expressive and so…so alive!" I whispered. "Your eyes have the power to look deep into my soul and…it scares me sometimes" I looked down, away from his scorching eyes.

"I've never heard a description like that about my eyes before. I've never experienced anyone describing my face or facial expressions the way you do…it's as if you took the time to write sonnets about every part of my body" he said seriously. The teasing tone in his voice was gone…for now.

"I just…I dunno, I love to explore your face and its expressions and sometimes I can think about a certain part for hours."

"Why do my eyes scare you?" he whispered while his finger trailed down my cheek, so tenderly that I wanted to cry from his gentleness. He treated me as if I was made of the finest porcelain.

"Only sometimes" I giggled before I added seriously, "I dunno, like I said before, it's almost like you can see all the way into my soul and I'm so scared you might see stuff you don't like"

"Bella, look at me" he ordered softly. I slowly raised my eyes to meet his gaze and I almost swallowed my tongue by the intensity in his emerald ogles.

"There's nothing on this earth that can make me dislike you or run away from you, nothing! Do you understand?" he asked.

"I think so" I replied. Edward cupped my face with his free hand and slowly leaned in. My heart started bouncing up and down in excitement. He was going to kiss me. I graced my tongue over my bottom lip and sucked my tongue back into my mouth, slowly parting my lips for his.

"Breakfast is…" Our heads shot to the door that flew open and I could feel the blood draining from my face and heating my cheeks all at the same time. A low groan escaped Edward's mouth as his hand dropped back to the mattress.

"Morning mom" he said and I cringed. This is Edward's mother? I haven't seen her because she and Dr. Cullen were out yesterday and I've only been in Forks a couple of days…but shit, Edward's mother was beautiful. Edward had her bronze hair and her green eyes.

She crossed her arms over her chest and clenched her jaw.

"This is Bella, Bella Swan" he said nervously and if the situation wasn't so serious I would have been in stitches by now from laughing my ass off. "This is my mother, Esme" he whispered to me

"Morning Bella" Esme smiled but she was clearly upset by something or someone.

"Morning Mrs. Cullen" I said with a trembling voice.

"Pfft, please call me Esme" she waved her hand.

"I'll talk to you later Edward" she said before she left the room.

"Are you in trouble?" I asked.

"No, we didn't do anything wrong" he said with a smile. Suddenly I felt very nervous and I just wanted to go home. I don't blame Esme for her reaction finding Edward and I in the same bed…if it was Charlie, Edward wouldn't be breathing right now. He would be on the way to the hospital with a few gunshot wounds to his chest probably ruining his perfect body. I smiled. Pretty lame Bella, thinking about his body in a serious situation like now.

"Your mother must think I'm a slut" I groaned and pulled the sheets over my head. Edward chuckled lowly before he pulled the sheets off of me.

"Don't ever think that and stop saying bad things about yourself" he chastised sweetly and I wanted to kiss him right then. He looked so sexy with his one eyebrow cocked; trying to be serious but his eyes once again gave him away. They were filled with amusement.

"I have to go home" I said after ogling his entire face once again.

"Running away from the shit you caused" he wiggled his eyebrows and I gasped before I roared in laughter.

"You're an ass" I smacked his arm.

"Why don't you get ready and I'll go drop you off" he suggested.

After I showered and got dressed, I went downstairs and had breakfast with the rest of the Cullen's. Alice gave me a smirk every once in a while and winked before she continued eating.

After breakfast I helped Alice clean up and do the dishes and then I said goodbye. Saying goodbye to Edward's mom was the worst. My cheeks burned when I looked into her beautiful green eyes.

"Goodbye Bella dear. Come back soon okay?" she said before embracing me in her arms. I almost cried right there. It felt so amazing to have motherly arms wrapped around my body.

"I will, thank you Esme" I said.

"I like your mother" I said on our way to my house.

"That's because you won't be meeting with her wrath tonight" he said and I couldn't decipher if he was being serious or teasing me again.

"Will it be that bad?" I asked.

He roared in laughter and I felt like kicking his ass if he wasn't behind the steering wheel right now.

"Bella my mother is the sweetest most compassionate person walking on this earth…sure she can be strict but she handles every situation with only fairness." He chuckled.

"Maybe she should smack you around tonight" I crossed my arms with a huff.

"You better watch your mouth Miss. Swan because I'm going to protect your virtue" he teased.

"Who says I have a virtue to protect?" I teased back. I roared in laughter when his eyes bulged out of their sockets and his jaw dropped.

"Urm, Esme will think you have a virtue to protect…I don't think I'll get into a lot of shit for lying" he said.

"Oh, silly Edward. You won't be lying" I smiled and his tense body relaxed immediately. I chuckled again.

My heart fell when he turned onto my street. I knew once he dropped me off, I would be alone in my room…alone with the memories. I'll sleep alone tonight with the same nightmares haunting me. Edward's presence wouldn't be anywhere near me and I'll think back again.

"Hey" he whispered and lifted my chin up. "What's wrong?"

"Urm, nothing. I have to go" I lied.

He sighed loudly and a deep frown formed on his forehead.

"I'll see you at school tomorrow morning" he whispered before he tenderly kissed my forehead.

I jumped out of the car and ran to the front door. Charlie was sitting at the kitchen table when I entered the house.

"Hey there Chief" I smiled.

His eyes widened and then his lips formed a huge smile.

"You're in a good mood." He smiled.

"I had a good time" I simply answered.

"The Cullen's are good people" he replied while sipping on his black coffee.

I poured myself a cup and sat across Charlie.

"Your mother called, again" he rolled his eyes.

"Yeah? What did she want?" I asked with a little less bitterness than the previous time Charlie told me she called.

"Your college applications came back and Dartmouth accepted you" he smiled. My heart started pounding.

"Really?" I asked excitedly.

"Yeah" he grinned. That would mean that Tony's came back as well. We filled them in together just before he died.

"I don't know if I can do this anymore" I sighed. The pain that ran through my heart was beyond excruciating.

"Bells, you can't keep putting your life on hold. Tony would want you to go and he would want you to be successful. You won't get another opportunity like this baby-girl" he whispered with tears filling his own eyes.

"Oh, dad, I miss him so much" I was in his arms before I even finished the sentence, sobbing my eyes out. His arms held onto me and his hands gently rubbed my back.

"Shh" he murmured. "I miss him too Bells" he said and I could hear the tears in his voice.

"I'll go to Dartmouth, Dad, for you." I choked out. "I'll make you proud"

"I'm already proud of you Bells" he sniffled.

"Thanks dad" I smiled with tear-filled eyes back at him and he smiled back.

"I don't wanna push you or anything Bells, but when are you going to call your mother?" he asked and my smile fell.

"I dunno, when I'm ready I guess" I said playing nervously with the hem off my shirt.

After our little chat I went to my room and my arms went around my torso on their own accord as if they knew I was going to fall apart in the coldness of my room.

I crawled onto my bed and hugged my knees tightly to my chest. I let my tears fall freely in the safety of my own room. I feel so incredibly lonely right now.

My phone vibrated, it was a message from Edward.

Pick you up for school tomorrow morning

I smiled, not only at his message but at my stupid heart for sprinting away by a simple text message from him.

See you in the morning

Are you okay?

With that question more tears streamed down my face. Shit, my eyes were like an overflowing river right now.

I'll be fine, thanx for asking.

Why don't I believe you? You should start trusting me more

I do trust you Edward I just don't want you to constantly worry about me.

I do worry about you Bella and I'll always worry when you are not with me…get used to it. Stop lying about your feelings, please.

Okay, I'm not fine, I've been crying since I walked through my dad's door. Happy?

Extremely, thank you. Why are you crying?

Can I tell you tomorrow?

Sure. Can't wait to see you again

Me too. See you tomorrow morning.

Just remember that I'm crazy about you okay? See you in the morning.

My heart tightened at the thought of Dartmouth. I won't see Edward for a long time…I don't even know what his plans are. How can everything have changed in just one week? Instead of me needing my brother so much, I now need Edward Cullen more. I need him to get over my brother's death. I need him to help me forget. I need him to help me feel alive again.

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