A/N: will never own skins. ;p
Thank you so much for still reading this fic. ;) I hope we'll make it together until the end. I won't deny the fact that I'm a bit proud of myself because I've reached this far. Lol. Sorry. I never thought that I can continue this. Thanks for the encouragement. It keeps me going. Spanishlily, best motivator. And to tiffythetitan, sexyacer and funny djyxa, thank you. Djyxa, your comment made me laugh so effin hard. lol
Watching Slumdog Millionaire for the… I don't know how many times. Lol. Any good movies on your mind pipz? Okay, no more talking. ;p
Errors are all mine and obviously there's a lot. Please bear with me because my eyes are really drooping now. sorry. Thanks again.
CHAPTER TEN
Naomi's POV
It was against my fucking will to leave my wife just like that, I mean, I left without any reason to say to her. Of fucking course, I am guilty about it. But even if I have a valid reason to spill, how sure I am that she will understand me? It just came up and I need to go back here in NY as soon as possible if I don't want that gym instructor to follow me in London where my precious wife is living. It will create a very hard to explain situation to Emily. I know she was a bit mad at me before I traveled my arse back here in NY. She was treating me as if we were back in our old days like totally ignoring me. It was fucking excruciating. The night before my flight, I tried; I mean I tried finishing what we've started before annoying Effy interrupted us but she gave me deadly glares that made me a bit terrified. I cannot even cuddle her to sleep because she would usually turn her back against me not allowing me to steal some kisses from her tight lips or land my arms around her small body. I was a bit… frustrated.
I am making myself a good comforting coffee which I wish will resemble the taste of Emily's own blend when a slender arms snake around my waist from my behind and placing some uncomfortable kisses on my bare neck down to my shoulder. I close my eyes trying to endure the feeling of those scratchy kisses.
"Morning babe." She whispered in my left ear before turning me around and crashed her disaffect lips against mine. "I've missed you." She will never get tired saying those words again and again. I can feel my ears bursting out some blood because of those words in repeat mode.
"Sophia…" after attacking my lips, she made her way down to my collar bone and there she practically bit my skin before sucking it hard. "Stop it." I gently pushed her away from me but her possessive arms are still on my waist.
"Why?" Confusions are everywhere on her longing face. "What changed?"
"I'm married." I placed my left hand between us for her to have a great view of my wedding ring.
She snorted and soon enough let out a crazy chuckle. "I know… so?" she pulled me hard against her body and went back nipping on my bare neck. "That was the plan right?"
"Soph…" I wanted this to stop. This isn't a good idea to replace my frustrations with pleasure. By just letting her touch my skin makes me so darn guilty, how much more if I will let her fuck me? "We need to stop. This…" I opened my hands and made a gesture stating 'us'. "This is over." She halted on what she's doing. She grabbed my hands and directed me towards the couch. She pushed me hard that I ended up slamming my back against the arm rest. She harshly pulled my shirt up then straddled me.
"Nothing's going to be over between us, Naomi." She attacks my lips again and I can feel her sharp teeth biting the side of my lower lip making me wince from pain. "You're mine."
"Sophia please, stop it." I pushed her again away from me but this time without any tenderness. She found herself at the other end of the couch whilst I grabbed my shirt and put it back on. I'm staying at her apartment and I've been here for the past 9 days trying to sort things out between us. Nothing happened between us so my conscience is still intact. She was trying to get into my knickers the first day I got here but I was not really in the mood or should I say, I will never get my libido go up high if she's not my wife. We didn't talk about my marriage or anything but I am sure she saw my wedding ring. We just went out clubbing and spent most of our time in a bar sharing a drink with Frederick. Honestly speaking, I miss those times not that I can say, I miss us because there was no us at the first place. And I think, I'm overstaying here plus I haven't got any message from Emily. I am sick worried about her and she didn't answer any of my calls. "I'm going back to London tomorrow."
She stands up and looks at me eagerly. "Soph-"
A heavy hand landed on my left cheek. She slapped me. Hard. I can feel my cheek went numb and a rusty taste of blood spreading all over my tongue because I think, there's a cut at the side of my inner lip when my teeth brushed against the soft muscle. I didn't dare looking at her after that loud strike, I guess, I deserve it. I can see in my peripheral vision that she's smirking. She took a step and leaves a kiss on my flush cheek then made her way to my ear.
"No one will desire you as much as I do, Naomi. You are still the same fat person we know no matter how slim you are now. You're mine." Her breathe makes me sick. "And I'll win you back." She ran her tongue against my terrified skin like a maniac. She called me fat. It makes me want to punch her. Seriously.
"I doubt it." those were the only words I can say. She smiled frantically as if she went bollocks. "I'm married and no, I will never file a divorce."
"Oh. That is so sweet babe. Our little fat Naomi here is having her confidence back." She pokes my temple trying to let me absorb all the things that she said and she might say. "Let's see if how you would manage that assurance if you'll see me in London one of these days." After that, she walked out of the door. "Lock the door when you leave."
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Emily's POV
It's been almost two weeks since the last time I saw Naomi. She actually texted me and called me like five times roughly every day. But no, she will never get any response from me. If she knows how to leave London on her own without any words as an explanation then she should go back here on her own as well without any words from me. That would make us even. But I will not lie about missing her presence inside the house. I was used to wake up so fucking early to prepare her breakfast and even she left me alone here, I am still waking up early just for nothing. I will usually just lie down and glance at her space in our bed. I will end up curling my body into a fetal position because as much as I don't want to admit it, I'm missing her so badly that it's darn fucking prickly to feel.
I can feel my phone vibrating from my trouser's pocket. I tossed it out and check if it is my dear wife but to my disappointment, it was annoying Effy. Okay, I am really hoping to read Naomi's name on my phone though I'm acting a hard-to-get-wife. My point is, she should tell me everything or maybe not everything but at least something that can enlighten me when it comes to our shared life now. We're married so technically we ought to share everything to each other.
Join us later? Ef
Where? Em
Bar. Kay will be there. Ef
Its weekend so I think no harm will be done if I'll go out with them. I smiled.
Sure. Text me the location then. Em
After few seconds, Effy sent the address and I told her I'll meet them up around 9 in the evening. She also told me to bring our friends. No worries with them because I spared a time before explaining what happened and why I am married now. They totally understand and promised me that they will not spill anything about our secret because if Naomi finds it out, goodbye everything. After a couple of minutes, Cook texted me that they will see us in the bar later because I think he will go there with JJ, Panda and Thomas.
It's still early like 5 o'clock in the afternoon so instead of wasting my time waiting for the night to come, I made myself productive. I changed our bed sheets, organized Naomi's books and files, a bit of cleaning in the kitchen area and I went to the supermarket to buy some stocks for our hungry fridge and cabinet. After grabbing the stuff from the supermarket, I went home straight. I still have an hour and half to prepare myself. I went to the bathroom to take a good warm shower and relax. Another day will be over without Naomi's presence. Should I get used to it? Is she still going back here? What do I need to expect from her? There's a lot of question in my mind right now. Where should I stand in her life?
I'm quite satisfied on what I am wearing right now, black skinny jeans, loose dark grey top and a pair of black vans. I'm not really mourning with these dark colored clothes I'm on, right? Most of the time, I tied my hair into a messy bun so now, for a change, I let it down. I smiled at my own reflection at the mirror, not that bad.
I grabbed my keys and securely lock the door before I hailed a cab that will take me to the bar that Effy told me earlier. After 15 minutes of turning left and right, we finally stopped in front of Club 7 bar. It looks very classy and exclusive, I can say. I handed 10 quid to the cab driver then I hopped out to meet a mental Cook outside the pub.
"Emilioman!" he's walking towards me with a huge gesture of his open arms. "How 'bout some bone crushing hug red?" he's still the same Cook that wears a charming grin on his face. We shared a hug for a brief moment.
"Hi Emily." JJ waves his hand after seeing me being freed from Cook's manly embrace.
"Hello J." I shifted my gaze to Panda and Thomas few meters behind Cook. "Hi Panda, Hello Thomas."
"Nice to see you, Emily." Thomas smiles at me widely as usually.
"Blimey Emsy poop. You look like you're going to a black party." I softly chuckle at my friend's comment. "You supposed to wear rainbow colors right since you're gay?" she asked innocently.
"Not my color Panda." We walk towards the door where there are two huge men guarding the entrance. They look at us like we are some fucking minors. No, we're not. We're 18.
"Name?" I heard Cook shouted our names pretty excited. We can practically hear the loud enticing music from where we are right now. "Sorry, you are not listed here kiddos."
"I think you're fookin' wrong man." Cook said. "Name is James Cook, these are my friends and they're with me."
"No James Cook here." He checked again the list. "Or any of you."
"It's okay, they're with me." I heard Effy's cold voice behind us. When I turned around, my sister is with her smiling like a lunatic cartoon character whilst their hands are intertwined. "You really can't find your name there, Cook. I reserved it under Emily's name." the two bouncers cleared the way to let us in. I think they pretty knew who Effy is.
"But the fookin' giant said that our names are not there." He let out a fag and lit it. "Care to share babe?" he will never stop waggling his eyebrows. He got a glare from my bitch of a sister after flirting with Katie's girlfriend.
"Under Emily Fitch-Campbell, I mean." I'm sure that my face is really flush right now. I am still not used hearing other people addressing me Mrs. Campbell. Effy smirks at me then Katie hugs me as if we didn't see each other for fucking years. "Sound so formal, yes?" I shook my head and smiled.
After we walked inside the bar, we easily spotted the reserved space for us with 2 comfortable couches and a glass table, Cook hurriedly went to the counter to grab us some shots. Panda sat between Thomas and JJ at the other couch whilst I, Katie and Effy are on the other one. I saw Cook doing the airwolf whilst carrying the shots back to our space.
"One tequila, two tequila and fookin' drop!" he shouted. "Let's go fookin' mental!" he just took his share of shots. "My dick needs to get damp tonight so enjoy fellas!" after that, he disappeared. He will never change.
I don't know if how long I've been here because laughing with my friends made me lost track of the time. When I'm with them, all I can care about is the happy memories I can get from being with crazy people like them. It's all worth it.
"Emily, we will just go outside for fresh air. Be right back yeah?" JJ said before standing up followed by Panda and Thomas. I smiled at them then I grabbed another shot and took a full gulp of it.
I saw Effy leaned in closer to my sister's ear and whispered something. Katie smiled and gave Effy a soft kiss.
"Emsy, just gonna have a spliff outside yeah? Effy will still be here." She turned to me and smiled. I saw her walking out the door.
"Any news from my wife Eff?" I took another shot. I'm honestly tipsy now. "Is she still alive or do I need to mourn for her now?" there you go again, the irritating smirk on her face.
"I think she called you many times Ems." I snorted. "Why didn't you answer?"
"If she knows how to leave without any acceptable fucking reason to say to me then why should I answer her messages and calls?" I look at her seriously. "I don't have any idea Effy." It's a bit serious topic now not that I'm quite drunk or what.
"Fancy seeing you here, babe." A familiar voice reached my ears. I look around and I saw Ashley standing behind me looking so sexy as ever. "Do you have a minute?"
"For what?" I harshly asked. Effy knows her, not personally but Katie mentioned her many times to her.
"I've missed you. I just want to talk." She said.
"I'll just a grab another drink Ems. Suit yourself, whoever you are. You have a minute." Effy said before making her way to the counter. "Be right back."
Ashley sat beside me. She took my hand and intertwined it with hers. "Babe, I still love you. Please, we can work this out." I look at her amusingly. "I know you still love me."
"Ashley, can't you feel or see the rings I have around my finger? I'm married." No matter what I say to her, she will never accept the fact that we're over. There will be no us. I know I was a bit harsh but I don't want to make it more difficult for the both us. Our break up pained me as well but I need to move on because I'm married to someone else. "There will be no us."
"No, that's not true. I know you still love me." She's pleading. She still believes I love her. I actually don't know if I was really in love with her or I just enjoyed her company too much that I thought I loved her. I shook my head. This is going nowhere. "Kiss me then. Prove me wrong."
"What?" I asked in disbelief. "Are you fucking insane? I will not do that. I will never cheat on my wife."
"Your paper wife! It was a forced marriage babe." She tried hugging me but I avoided her. "Just kiss me, one last time." I look at her again. One last time. It's meaningless anyway. After that, she'll stop hoping that I will be back. I leaned in and captured her lips. It was warm but not intoxicating unlike Naomi's. I know I just need to prove her fucking wrong about me still longing for her reason I agreed to kiss her one last time, but my mind is really blurry right now that I let her deepen the kiss. The worse thing is, I'm kissing her back like sending the signals that she was right all along, that she is still right up until now that I still love her.
"So…" I froze. I can smell Naomi's faded Armani code perfume everywhere. I broke the kiss only to see her fierce blue orbs boring into my own. "Was she a good kisser, my dear wife?" I swallowed hard. I swear, I was a bit drunk back few seconds ago but when I saw Naomi standing in front of us crossing her arms, it's like someone showered me with melted ice.
"Who the fuck are you, bitch?" Ashley said. "Come on babe, let's get out of here." She grabbed my hand and pulled me up.
"Ashley, my decision is final. It didn't change anything." I pulled my hand away from her grip. "She's my wife." She shifted her gaze from me to Naomi.
"You kissed me." woah! Hold it. She pleaded and I was hoping that it will stop her after I gave her what she wants. "I know you still love me, Emily."
"Get the fuck out of here, you slag!" Naomi shouted. I saw Effy behind Naomi with no apparent reactions. She knew that Naomi will be here reason why Katie went out earlier. No one told me that Naomi will be home today. "If you're not going to move a muscle from where you are right now you skank, I'll call David and Sam to pick you up here and throw you outside." David and Sam, I think those huge men we saw earlier outside.
Ashley grabbed her bag. "She'll be mine again, you fucking snake." She walked past Naomi and straightly went outside. There's an awkward moment of silence after Ashley left. We're not looking at each other and fuck me; I will never dare look at her.
"I'll go ahead, Eff." She spun her heels to the door's direction. "Nice show by the way, babe."
"Naomi." She halted but she didn't turn around to face me. I need to say something. "I can explain." My voice became a lot huskier.
"Save it." She will never spare a chance to hear me out. She continued walking until she disappeared from my sight. That's the time tears fell down from my eyes.
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