Chapter 10

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Stiles:

It was the day after the pancake fiasco and I really stopped to think about all those texts that they had sent. Why would they just send all those things so randomly?

Were they dead?! Are they dying… I should go check up on them… just to make sure they weren't in like danger… you know, because I am a concerned citizen. Yeah that's why.

I grabbed my phone and sent a text to Derek telling him that I was stopping by and quickly grabbed my keys. I was worried, I needed them to be okay and if I was being completely honest I just missed them.

I got into my beat up blue jeep that I loved so much and began down the familiar road to the hale house.

No one could prove if I ended up speeding the whole drive…

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When I arrived I was greeted with Derek leaning on the pillars attached to the house and my first thought was that he looked like shit. Instead of his usual leaning which as usually done to show the world how cocky he could be this time it just looked as if it was the only thing keeping him up. Dark bags hung from his eyes and the usual tan texture to his face was pale and sickly.

To me this is not what an alpha should look like. I never thought I would miss Derek's over the top bravo but in this moment I craved it. I needed to know what the hell happened and right now because if this is what Derek, an alpha, looked like then the betas would be even worse. I raced up to him.

My eyes widened but I refrained from touching him, I was still mad you know. The way he looked made me want to break down and scream. He was DEREK HALE. He couldn't be hurt, injured, or killed. He was invincible, and right now he looked as if he was going to topple over from his own weight. Derek's faced twisted into a pain filled smirk and for some reason that made me happy. At least he was still Derek.

As soon as my smile came it faded and my eyes flashed before going into the house. I was with Kile; I shouldn't get butterflies just from seeing his stupid face. But a part of me… more like all of me was telling my whole being that it was okay, that this is what it was supposed to be like.

"Where are…" my words were stopped abruptly as I entered the den where the whole pack was holed up. I began to examine the pack and just as Derek they each had bags under their eyes and sickly paled skin. It was enough to make me tear up.

"Hey batman." Erica laughed out quietly as if it pained her to see me. I felt the way they looked… run down. I looked to Isaac and my eyes went wide and flashed purple out of anger. Out of everyone he looked the worse. His usual sunny smile was long gone and replaced with a frown; eyes were lost of the usual blue muster and were replaced with gray blobs. His eyes had heavy bags that reached low beyond what was acceptable as if he hadn't slept in days. Isaacs's body language was dropped as if he couldn't be bothered to give a damn. As soon as our eyes met he perked up a bit and allowed himself a small smile.

"Come to make me into a fur coat?" he said and I laughed past the pain at the old promise I had made him. I walked up to him and kneeled, I looked into his eyes and examined his body.

"What happened?" I asked and looked back at Derek who was sitting down in his recliner.

"I have no idea what you mean stiles." He stated simply and closed his eyes. In the brief moment I have been here he already looked a bit better, which I found weird but that wasn't my first question that is rattling around in my brain at the moment.

"Derek," I pressed out through my teeth, I wanted answers.

"stiles?" he said calmly as if he were stalling.

"DEREK!"

"What stiles?! He was starting to get agrivated which seemed to bring back the usual muster in skin and his eyes snapped open to look at me.

"what the fuck happen to you guys?!" I was beyond angry at this point but at the same time I had missed bickering with him.

"What do you want me to say stiles? That you being gone has taken its toll on me? On us? That it affects Isaac and me more because we need you and depended on you? That we are sorry and need you back?" he said all at once and I was to shell shocked to even talk… I had noticed that he looked a lot worse than the betas but refused to say anything about it. He depended on me, now that was something new… probably just for research. I looked around the room and took a deep breath. In the half hour I had been here they looked drastically better. Color was returning to their faces and instead of zombies people became visible.

I wasn't going to even acknowledge what he had said but I was going to help. I got up from my kneeling position and raced around the house, knowing exactly where all the pillows and blankets would be. Judging by their appearance they would only make it through one movie if they were lucky so I grabbed the closest Disney movie, which happened to be Aladdin… one of my personal favorites.

This did not mean I by any means forgave them… it just meant that I didn't want them to die, and if I was being honest with myself I was breaking without them. I had gotten so little sleep it was sad. Besides it was a Sunday and my dad was home, meaning I had plenty of time to kill. So it was benefiting me… right?

I entered the den carrying more blankets than humanly possible and laying them on the ground neatly arranging the many pillows onto the nest of blankets. From there I put in the movie and turned on the TV. I plopped down right in the middle and laid there for a few seconds and then looked up the pack.

Everyone was staring at me with a strange look. I looked up at Scott, who had been strongly quiet the whole time, and caught him looking at me with an apologetic look. He missed me, I could tell.

"Well I am not going to stay here forever and am certainly not watching this by myself. Get your asses down here." I said and smiled. They were down in record speed and I laughed as they all tried to position just right so they were as close as physically possible. I was between Isaac and Derek with Scott squeezing in at my legs. The smile that covered my face felt so easy that I had almost forgotten what that felt like.

Soon I was crushed with the impending thought that this wasn't real, none of it was real. They just needed me and would leave me in the dirt as soon as I wasn't useful… its not real.

"This doesn't mean I forgive you… I just don't want you to die. So don't go off getting these ideas that we are friends again." I said and I could see the pain in their auras… I felt bad but at the same time I was just to tired to care. They had hurt me and it would take time and effort for them to fix their wrongs.

"Okay stiles… we will fix it okay, we will find a way to show you that we have changed and that we love you." Scott piped up quietly and soon the rest was history. I tried to pay attention but I was just so damn tired it became hard. I closed my eyes and began to drift off into a dreamless sleep.

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I was woken up by laughter in my ears. Warmth enveloped my body and I was just so comfortable. For the first time in over a week I was comfortable. My fae seemed to be happily humming like it was so happy just to be happy again, and that's when I felt something nuzzle into my neck. On instinct I quickly got up and turned around to see Derek on my side and his sleepy eyes just waking up.

When he realized what he had done he jerked back and rubbed the sleep from his eyes. I, along with my fae, was upset but I wouldn't admit that out loud. I cleared my throat and looked around the room at each member of the group. They all seemed rejuvenated but not at full capacity. Scott and Isaac looked a lot better and Derek seemed as if he could stand without toppling over.

I was happy but I needed to leave… I needed to go or I was afraid I might just stay and forgive them here and now with no regard of myself.

"well… um I got to go… its late and um… my dad and yeah I am just going to head out." I said awkwardly and managed to get up with minimal self-inflicted injury.

"Wait stiles… why the rush?" this time it was Lydia and I couldn't help but swallow down the pain in my chest. She wanted me to stay… Lydia wanted me to stay. But I just couldn't. I couldn't do that to myself, not anymore.

"Like I said, this did not, by any means, make us friends. I just didn't need your death on my hands ok?" I said coldly, against my will. My fae seemed to thrash in anger at its counterpart. My whole life it has felt as if it morphed into one but at this moment they have never been so separate.

I didn't need to read their auras to tell they were hurt and I rushed to the door and out to my car, only to be followed by Mr. Alpha himself.

"Stiles wait!" He said before coming to a stop in front of me.

"Look Derek I just need to go." I said before looking directly at him.

"I know… look stiles I just want to tell you that… we do miss you and we are going to show you that we deserve you in our lives ok?"

"Okay Derek…I believe you. I do but I just… I need to go." And with that I opened the door to my jeep and took off down the road, trying to forget the look on Derek's face as I sped off in the preserve.

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When I got home I plopped down on my couch and rubbed my face with my hands. Those guys looked like shit… they did miss me. But for how long will it last. But they could die without me spending time with them… right? I mean would it be so bad just to take a few hours of my day…

It was for their own good…

Yeah.

I grabbed my phone and texted each member of the pack minus Derrek and agreed to all the activity's they had previously asked me to do. I told each one of them that this was so they didn't die and again that we aren't friends. I told them a day and a time. Then I looked over dares contact and felt a brief pang of sadness… I missed him so much but not at all in a friend kind of way… I texted him that we needed to hang out sometime and just left it at that.

After I had tossed my phone onto the table and closed my eyes the sheriff walked into the house.

"Stiles I'm home!" My dad shouted, probably thinking I was in my room. "Oh, you're right here want to go have dinner with your old man he laughed and I smiled at him. Some father one on one time was just what the doctor ordered. I nodded and grabbed my coat before we headed out the door.

"Thanks dad." I mumbled and he smiled at me as we headed to the cruiser.

I had a long week ahead of me starting with watching a movie with good old Scotty.

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