Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters used in this story. Stephenie Meyer owns them all (lucky). I am just having some fun and gathering entertainment from them.

A/N…Song for this Chapter: If You're not the One by Daniel Bedingfield…listen here…

http://www(dot)youtube(dot)com/watch?v=wYeiyp3x8pQ

A/N…I also do not own the band Social Distortion…when I introduced James and the title of his band a couple chapters back…I knew the name sounded familiar but I really did not even realize they were a real band until a reader pointed it out in a review. I looked them up and listened to their music and I did remember the band from back in the day…so I must have had it in the back of my mind. So…I do like the name and I had my heart set on it…so I will keep it but I do not own it or make any money from the name.

Also, two of the songs talked about in here are Wanted by Jesse James and 99 Times by Kate Voegele. Now before any of you mention this, I realize that James and Alex did not really write these songs. For fictional purposes ONLY…in this story…they wrote them! Bella won't be singing them in this chapter but she will be singing them in a later one.

One last note. If you would like to see the wedding attire for people in the wedding you can go to my picture website and click on New Moon Tavern.

http://picasaweb(dot)google(dot)com/edwardandbellabelong2gether

Chapter 10

BPOV

December 2008

It broke my heart…but I knew that Edward wasn't ready. He wasn't ready to see that we were perfect for each other. Nor was he ready to see that he was in no way responsible for his mother's death. The other thing he wasn't ready for…to realize that…he loves me. I know that he does. I can feel it in my heart.

Maybe he would never be ready. I meant everything I told him. I was not going to get my hopes up any longer with him. I am focusing on my babies and that is all. If he wants us…he's going to have to come and get us.

He seemed hesitant when I walked him to the door. Then Alex had to come up with that date crap. Edward actually looked…pissed. What the hell was Alex doing?

As Edward was walking out to my truck Alex leaned in and whispered, "Looks like lover boy is a little pissed! Let's give him a show." And then he tickled me causing me to giggle as he wrapped his arms around me.

I shut the door and broke out of his arms. "Spill Alex! What the hell was that? What date and why did you pull that crap?"

He just looked at me smugly. "He deserved it and you know it!"

"Really? Well mister…what would James think about this little date of ours hunh?" I asked him playfully.

He started blushing and looking at me sheepishly. Why are gay guys such girls?

Yes…Alex is gay. I am the only one who knows this. His father Mack…well he's a sweetheart…but he is also one of those guys that is very rugged and manly. Alex is petrified to find out his father's reaction to his sexual orientation.

I have known since we were fifteen years old and I threw myself at him ridiculously because I had the biggest crush on him. He informed me then…that I wasn't his…type.

Now he had finally found the love of his life…in the form of James Miller…lead singer of Social Distortion.

"Well Alex? Are you just going to stand there and blush or do you have something to say for yourself?"

"Actually…James sent me over here…so it's all good Bellsy!"

"Would you please not call me that? I am not your pet dog!"

He ruffled my hair, "Aw but you're as cute as one!" He said it in tone as if he were speaking to a little baby or a puppy.

He was kind of irritating me.

"Then get to the point Alex Walex." I knew it was childish. But that was what I called him when we were little. We would play rhyming games with our names. He was Alex Walex and Alexis was Alexis BoBexis. Yes we were juvenile. Sue us!

He glared at me for using that name. I raised my eyebrow and said, "Well? Why did James send you over here?"

"He thought maybe I would have better luck talking you into singing the songs he wrote. He has talked to your dad about Social Distortion playing at New Moon on the next rock night."

"That's tomorrow. You expect me to learn these two songs by tomorrow?" I asked skeptically.

"Have you even looked at them Bells?"

"No…I've kind of had a lot going on Alex! You know this!"

"Yeah…Dad told me about the fallout with you and Charlie tonight. That's the other reason why I came by. Are you alright?"

"No I'm not! Do you know what is going on with him? What did Mack tell you?" I asked sounding hopeful.

He shook his head. "Dad told me he doesn't know what's going on with Charlie, Bells. I'm sorry. But let's look at the songs. I think it will cheer you up. They are so good…I promise. I can totally see you singing them. James and I actually wrote them together…with you in mind…to sing them. They have you written all over them…"

I stopped him. "Alright…you've buttered me up enough. No one likes a brown noser!"

The songs were amazing…Alex was right. Charlie really wanted me to do this. But I couldn't help but wonder if whatever was going on with his…health was his reason behind pushing me to sing with Social Distortion.

Was he trying to make sure I would be cared for if something went wrong with him?

Still…as I read the songs…I found myself wanting to perform them. The first one…made me feel sexy and wanted…just reading the words. It was kind of ironic because that was the name of the song, Wanted. In a nut shell, it talked about all of the feelings I had for Edward…physically and how I wanted him to want me back.

The second song was called 99 Times. It was a song that kind of reminded me of a lot of feelings I had towards Edward. I guess I could probably be reminded of Edward by just about any song if I tried hard enough.

"Alright Alex…tell James…I will do the songs. I can't promise I will record them with the band but I will sing them when Social Distortion performs on a rock night at New Moon. However, I will not do it tomorrow! There is too much going on right now with my dad and Jasper's wedding. I want to be able to rehearse them a lot so they are perfect. I will sing them…in January. How does that work for you?"

"Wait, Bells? What about your teaching internship? It starts in January. Won't you be too busy?"

The truth was…I was thinking about dropping out of school. If something was wrong with my dad, he was going to need help. Honestly, I'm not sure if my heart was ever in it anyway…I wanted to be different and didn't want my life to be ruled by the tavern like everyone else in the family.

But who was I kidding? That place was our life. It was our home away from home. I knew it was in my blood more than Jasper and Rose's. They didn't feel the music and the atmosphere there like I did.

This was not even mentioning the fact that I would soon be a single mother…with twins. There were just a lot of things I needed to think about before deciding whether or not I would be completing that internship.

"You let me worry about that. What do you say?"

"We can live with that. James will be pleased. I like that we have to wait…it will give me time to prepare and get used to playing with the band," he said quietly.

"Wait! You're playing with Social Distortion?" I asked.

"Yeah…I just started."

Alex had been a really good guitar player but he lacked confidence in himself as an artist. I guess James was making him more confident. Good for them. But, Mack was not going to like this. He had this dream of his son playing in the band with him and my dad. Alex always told him no.

"Alex! Your dad is going to kill you! He tried getting you to play with him for years and you kept saying no! He will be more pissed about that than he will be to find out you are gay!"

"I don't agree with you on that one Bells. Do you need some company or is it alright if I leave?"

"Yeah…you can go play with your boy toy…I'm fine. I have a date with some Ben and Jerry's 'everything But the' ice cream and 27 Dresses."

"Oh Bells! Why are you torturing yourself watching that movie again?"

He knew I watched that movie all the time…dreaming of my knight in shining armor. He also knew that I have been watching it even more than I had before…now that Edward was around frequently. I couldn't help it; I wanted Edward to be my Kevin.

I shrugged my shoulders, "I can't help it Alex." I was trying to fight the tears away as he hugged me.

He kissed my forehead and said, "Everything will be alright Bella. Take care of those babies."

I nodded, "Tell James I said hey…give him a hug for me."

"Sure thing."

Just like that…I was all alone.

EPOV

December 2008

I was simply a fucking idiot. There was no other word for how dumb I was! I was so insensitive to ask Bella that question about having dates in her truck…and then to just sit there and not say a damn word while she basically laid her heart out on the line for me.

I made my way back to the tavern. The place was still busy. When I went inside, I found Rose at the bar and asked her what she wanted me to do the rest of the night. She looked pissed to see me.

"What are you doing back here Edward?"

"Bella told me to leave."

"What did you do that made her tell you to leave?"

"It doesn't matter…I just want to work my shift and not talk about it. Now what would you like me to do?"

"I would like for you to stop hurting my sister and stop fucking this up! But I guess that is too much to ask for. Just go clean some tables and take some orders. Oh and stay out of my sight the rest of the night!"

It was a long night after that. About closing time, I noticed Alex come in to talk to his dad. I decided to go have a little chat with him.

"Alex…can I talk to you?"

"Sure…I guess," he said hesitantly.

"How was the…date?"

"I don't think that's any of your business."

I ran my hands through my hair and sighed, "You're probably right…but I just…need to know."

"Hmm…why do you think that is?" He asked inquisitively.

"What do you mean?" I had no idea what he was getting at with this.

"I mean…why are you so concerned with how Bella's dates turn out?"

"I don't know…I just am. Never mind, I don't care. I'm going to bed now. See ya later."

He chuckled, "Whatever…keep telling yourself that man." I started to walk back to the office. "Oh and Edward?" Alex called to me.

"Yeah?" I turned and asked him.

"Isn't Bella a fabulous kisser? Mmmm…so good!"

With that, he turned on his heels and left the tavern. It was a damn good thing he did too, because now I couldn't kill him!

I walked back and entered the office. Charlie was there packing up for the night. "Hey Edward. How are you?"

"Fine, I suppose."

He just nodded. I should probably tell him before he hears it somewhere else. "Bella and I talked tonight."

"Good, I know she was upset when she left."

"Yeah and about that. Whatever is going on with you…you should tell her. She loves you so much and is very worried about you."

"I will…I'm just not ready yet."

"Well, you better get ready…fast…your daughter is very head strong."

He chuckled, "You're not telling me anything I don't know, kid."

"She told me to get our divorce papers drawn up."

He looked shocked. "Really? Hunh…what did you do to make her say that?"

I was getting frustrated. "Look…I don't know what all of you are trying to pull…but it's not going to work. Bella and I are just not meant to be. I don't know why you guys can't see that. The divorce is going to happen. Then she can go off and find some decent and wonderful guy to be her husband and a father to her babies."

He nodded. "Alright. Have a good night Edward."

That's all he was going to say to me? He wasn't going to hit me? A part of me wanted him to beat the hell out of me! It is what I deserved.

I threw myself down on the couch…or should I say my brand new bed?

I needed to think…I needed to sleep. Sleep would not come to me. I tossed and turned while lying there…thinking.

I needed to hear her voice. I picked up my cell phone and dialed her number.

"Hello?" She answered groggily.

"Bella?"

"Yeah. Who is this?"

Great…she doesn't even recognize the sound of my voice.

"It's Edward."

"Oh…what do you want?"

"Did I wake you?" I asked her. I felt like an idiot as soon as the words left my mouth.

"Umm…yeah. Of course you woke me…it's like one in the morning Edward."

I guess a part of me was hoping that she was lying awake thinking of me like I was her.

"Right…I guess I didn't pay attention to the time. I apologize for that."

"What do you want?" She asked irritated. Shit! Why did I call her? I needed a good reason.

"I um…just wanted to…make sure your dad got home okay. Yeah, did he make it home safely?"

"Edward…you are full of crap. That is not why you called me at one in the morning!"

"Fine, I wanted to know how your evening was…after I left."

There, I said it. Of course I did not tell her the entire truth. I failed to mention the part where I didn't think I would be able to sleep without hearing her voice.

"It was great Edward. Can I go back to sleep now?"

"SO…you enjoyed yourself…with Alex?"

"Yes…I had a very nice time," she said softly.

"That's…good. I'll let you go back to sleep now. I guess I'll see you tomorrow?"

"Yes. Good night Edward."

"Night Bella."

I felt empty when she hung up the phone. I wanted her to come back. What did this mean? I had no idea but what I did know…was that Bella's face was the last thing I saw before I fell asleep that night…and every night after this one.

December 24, 2008: Alice and Jasper's Wedding

Today my sister was marrying the love of her life. She had been so stressed and panicked over everything for this day being absolutely perfect.

Jasper reluctantly agreed to allow me to be one of his groomsmen. Charlie was his best man. The order that followed after that for his groomsmen was...Alex, Emmett, and then me.

Bella was Alice's maid of honor. Rose and two of Alice's friends were bridesmaids. Jasper explained to me that he really didn't want me in the wedding but he was doing it for my sister. She wanted me in the wedding.

I still had no idea what to do about Bella and the babies. I couldn't bring myself to tell her that I thought about her all the time…even in my dreams.

We had been spending time together because I had been driving her around everywhere. During these moments we got to know each other…but it was more like a friendship. It wasn't anything romantic…like I wanted. At least I think that's what I want. I don't know.

Why the hell can't I get my shit together? Why must I be so confused all the time?

It seemed like the wedding went by in the blink of an eye. My sister looked stunning in her wedding gown. But nothing could prepare me for how beautiful Bella looked in her classy, black, maid of honor dress. When I saw her…I couldn't breathe. What really terrified me was that I had a brief vision of her walking towards me in a beautiful white, wedding dress.

I could not take my eyes off her as my sister and Jasper said their vows to each other. Bella only glanced at me once. She spent most of the time looking at Charlie with tears in her eyes.

Things between them had been tense. He still hadn't told her about whatever was going on with him and it was frustrating her to no end. She had been keeping herself occupied with rehearsing the songs with Social Distortion along with helping my sister plan the wedding.

I guess she had another doctor's appointment as well. I wasn't tricked into going to that one and I didn't know about it until after the fact. I probably wouldn't have gone anyway.

The reception was beautiful. Alice hired a DJ since she and Jasper could not agree on a live band. Alice wanted more rock and pop type music from Social Distortion, while Jasper wanted Charlie's band to play their country music.

After the toasts were made, it was time for the father-daughter dance. Alice and my father twirled around the dance floor with grace and ease.

I saw Charlie go over and ask Bella to dance. I hoped this went well for her.

BPOV

December 24, 2008

I looked up from where I was sitting to see my father standing in front of me. "Bell, can I have this dance sweetie?"

"Sure," I told him.

"You look really pretty sweetheart," he told me once we were out on the floor.

I smiled, "Thanks Dad. You look pretty handsome yourself!"

He chuckled. I glanced over to a table full of guests and said, "I see you brought Tanya as your date."

"I did. Are you okay with that?"

I nodded. "I am. I'm sorry I was being such a bitch about her Dad. Pregnancy hormones you know?" I was now about eleven and a half weeks along and the mood swings seemed to be getting worse. There were also…other urges…that were really affecting my body. Urges that were unable to be met due to my…single status.

He laughed and nodded. "Yes, I do know. I remember how your mother was with all three of you."

"Well…anyway, she seems very…nice."

"She is. Bell, I need to talk to you."

"Oh god, Dad…are you going to do this here? Seriously? I've been trying to get you to talk to me for several weeks and you're going to do this now?"

"I have to Bella…I need to get it out…now or I may never go through with telling you."

I was going to hold in the tears for as long as possible. I wanted to know what I was dealing with first.

"I'm sorry I lied to you that day Bell, but you already knew that I did."

I shook my head yes.

"I had Carlisle run some tests on me. I wanted him to do it instead of that other doctor. I'm so sorry I didn't tell you sooner Bella. I swear I was just trying to protect you."

I was getting frustrated.

"Just tell me Dad!"

"Isabella, I have testicular cancer. I am going to be starting chemotherapy soon and I am going to need your love and support baby girl, so please don't be mad at me."

The tears were spilling over now…there was no stopping them. He said the C word. Cancer.

Oh God. Please not my daddy.

My dad kissed my eyes like he used to do when I was upset as a child. He would always 'kiss the tears away' he would say.

"Wh…what…are your chances?" I stuttered.

"Carlisle seems to think they are pretty good…we were able to catch it early, he thinks."

"He thinks? He thinks! That is unacceptable! He is brilliant! He needs to KNOW not think!"

I felt like I was going to hyperventilate. "See Bell, this is why I didn't want to tell you. Freaking out is not good for my grandchildren or for you. Please calm down sweetheart."

I started taking deep calming breaths. "I am calm Dad." I wiped the tears from my eyes. "I'm fine…I promise."

He hugged me tight. "I love you my little Bell. You can bet your ass I am going to fight this! It will be the fight of my life but I will survive…please don't doubt that!"

"I love you too Daddy…and I will be there for you…by your side…every step of the way. Do Rose and Jasper know?"

He shook his head no. "I wanted to tell you first."

I smiled brightly at him. All three of them always treated me like a child. He had no idea how much it meant to me that he trusted me with this information first.

"Thank you Dad! That means so much to me."

He kissed my forehead. I noticed Tanya watching us. "Dad? Why don't you go ask Tanya to dance? She is your date you know?"

His face broke out into a huge grin. "Are you sure you don't mind?"

"I am sure…I don't mind. Go get her!"

I found myself smiling as he walked to Tanya. I felt better knowing what was going on with him. It wasn't what I wanted to hear but knowing felt good.

I felt a presence behind me. The pulse of electricity and longing that I felt, told me right away who it was.

Edward.

I turned and saw him smiling slightly. "May I have this dance Bella?"

"I don't know if that is such a good idea Edward."

"Why not?"

Because my pregnancy hormones are making me horny as hell and I might jump you on the dance floor.

I didn't say that of course…but it's what I was thinking.

"I just…don't."

He gently led me back to the dance floor. "Too bad…you're dancing with me."

"How did the talk go with your dad just now," he asked once we started dancing.

"It was good. I know what is going on now anyway."

"And?" He asked, waiting.

"My dad has testicular cancer. Carlisle thinks they caught it early enough but he is going to have to have chemo and fight his ass off. I will be with him through all of it."

"Of course you will." He pulled me close to him and kissed my forehead. "I am so very sorry Bella…you don't deserve all that you have had to endure."

He twirled me around and I found myself having a good time with him. I saw Alice go up to the DJ. She whispered something in his ear and then grinned, looking over at Edward and me.

We heard the DJ's voice say, "This song goes out to Edward and Bella…from Alice and Jasper, the happy couple."

Then I heard the song start.

Oh shit…she…did…not…

That meddling little pixie!

Daniel Beddingfield's If You're Not the One started playing. I couldn't place the look in Edward's eyes. I saw longing, lust…love? Could it be true? No…I couldn't allow myself to go down that road with him again.

He pulled me close to him. "I can't believe she played…this…song," he said.

I nodded into his chest in agreement.

I was starting to feel overwhelming urges from being this close to him. I could feel his…need pressed against my stomach.

It startled me at first. "Sorry," he said as light blush tinted his cheeks. "I am a man though…and having you this close…does things to my lower anatomy. Again, I'm sorry."

"It's okay…you don't hear me complaining do you?" I said flirtatiously.

Where the hell did that come from?

Abort Bella! What the hell are you thinking? This is Edward! He has broken your heart and will continue to break it if you let him. Change the subject you idiot!

"So…did you get those divorce papers drawn up yet?"

"Um…no…I've been kind of busy you know?"

I nodded, "Yeah…I know."

Please…I could only hope he was stalling with the divorce on purpose.

As the song came to an end, the DJ took a break. There was no music now but we were still dancing and looking at each other.

Charlie walked by us and said, "Hey Bells…um…do you mind if I uh…spend the night…at Tanya's…to talk?"

I was laughing. I couldn't believe my father was asking my permission to go have sex. He was too funny!

"Sure Dad, you go on to Tanya's…and have a nice…talk!"

We stopped dancing and made our way over to Alice and Jasper to say goodbye as they embarked on their honeymoon.

Jasper hugged me tightly to him, "I love ya Bells…don't get into any trouble while I am gone."

"I won't and I love you too. Be careful and have fun! I want to have a honeymoon niece or nephew so you better get started!"

"Yes ma'am," he said as he saluted me.

We said our goodbyes to Alice and then Edward and I were left standing there together. I was formulating a plan in my head…and with Charlie being gone for the night…it would be…perfect.

I was going to be brave, bold, and sexy. I could do this. I was really horny. Technically, he was my husband. He used me to fulfill his urges…why couldn't I do the same?

Because you aren't a heartless bastard like he is, my conscience told me.

But I could do this…I could be ballsy Bella and get exactly what I wanted…and what I wanted right now…was Edward Cullen to take me home and ravish me.

Yes, I was letting my hormones rule my behavior. It would be simple. I would take him home and get him to have sex with me. He would be easy to seduce. All I wanted was sex. I was going to treat him the way he treated me. I just needed a release from him…that's all. I could do this.

"Edward…take me home please," I said to him as seductively as possible.

He looked shocked. He nodded and said, "Sure…I'll run you home. I need to get back to my place and get some sleep anyway. I'm pretty tired."

Hmmm…you have no idea what I have planned for you buddy.