A/N: ch 10 is up!
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I am soooo excited 4 the next chap if gintama xD Kagura vs Kamui & gintoki vs Takasugi *fangirls*
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Umbrellas and Swords
Ch. 10: Reconciliation and secrets
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They were under a family-sized kotatsu in the Mimawarigumi compound.
An admiral nincompoop, a china girl, a bakufu dog, and a bakufu dog copy-cat.
Kagura slightly shifted towards Okita, passing small glances of accusation at her brother.
Kamui smiles.
Half-lidded, Okita's eyes were a duller shade of red. "So," he starts, "What's this?"
Nobume stared at them with bored eyes, "Reconciliation." She mutters.
Kagura sees the way her brother's hand is laced around her friend, and she realizes. A weight seems to be lifted off of her chest, and she lets out a small sigh of relief. She grasps Okita's hand, at the same time staring at her older brother.
It doesn't mean that she still forgives him.
Although he probably doesn't give a damn about that.
They stare at each other for a long time, up until where her eyes started to hurt.
She bites her lip and feels Okita's hand clenched tightly around hers'. "Alright."
Kagura gives her mate a slight look of fear as he untangled his hand from hers, his touch lingering, still burning her to the very bone. A good burn. Kamui watches them with a small glint in his eyes as Okita and Nobume left the room.
"You haven't told her yet." It was more of a statement than a question as the words pierced through the air like a knife.
And Okita knew that.
He opened an eye, the other closed. "What do you mean?"
Nobume narrowed her eyes dangerously. "Sooner or later she's going to know about what you did in the past five years." Her eyes retained a dangerous glow to them. "If you don't tell her now, you're going to regret it."
Okita exhaled.
He knew. He knew that. But he won't tell her. He won't tell her.
Ever.
He smiled bitterly. "And what is she going to do when she finds out?"
He wondered, imagined scenarios in his mind so many times before. Imagined the conversation he will never hold with her.
He still remembers. Remembers the desperate feeling of doing so many things to just get her out of his head.
Even if that included sleeping with numerous counts of women.
How stupid was he?
He felt something hard collide with his cheek, and doesn't flinch.
He never did.
Nobume's hand dropped to her side, "Kagura isn't like you." Her voice was dull, emotionless. But the numerous flickers of emotion defined just how annoyed she was.
Positioning her back against the tatami door again, Nobume closed her eyes.
They were sitting across from each other, observing each other.
Analyzing.
Kagura, tired of their staring contest, finally caves and sends him a tired look.
"I hate you."
He still smiled, unwilling.
Hesitant.
"I know." He lightly chirped.
She stared at him again, cursing under her breath at that damn perfect mask of his. Why couldn't he just cave once in a while? Placing her head on the wooden surface of the kotatsu, she let her hair cover her face. A very convenient use of hair.
Her voice lets words escape from her mouth. Words that she never thought she would get to ask him, "…Why didn't you come home?"
She still hated him.
For a fraction of a second, his smile drops, and he looks tired.
"The same reason why you left with our bald dad."
She pauses, "…But you never came back."
He smiles, Kagura can feel it, even if her head is on the table.
She hated him so much.
"Why did you decide to come back now?" She didn't mean to whisper, for her voice to sound broken, but if she didn't, she would've yelled. Yelled until her voice hurt, yelled until she drilled it into his head.
Yelled until he understood how many nights she spent, wondering if she was that much of a burden to him.
And he stayed silent. Her head refused to leave the table, so she traced imaginary circles on the wooden surface with her eyes. The answer he was about to give her didn't answer her previous one, but she didn't say anything.
It was enough.
"….I wanted to make sure that you were out of my life." He looked up at the ceiling. "Out of my way. Out of harm."
Her brother was stupid.
"Away from the "baka aniki" that couldn't give you anything."
And she listened, and she was glad that he left the room first.
Because she didn't want him to see her blurry eyes, nor the tears that trickled down her face as she furiously blinked.
Once she heard the tatami doors slide to a close, she kept her head on the table, uttering several curses.
"Baka aniki."
She knew that her baka aniki was close enough to hear her from behind the tatami door.
Okita Sougo didn't say anything when the older of the siblings exited the room. He just glanced at him, watching as Nobume looked up.
"So?" Her tone was bored, as if she was expecting a result.
His smile was back. "Reconciled." It was genuine.
With that, Okita turned around and opened the tatami door, seeing the full appearance of the china girl.
"You look like shit." He deadpanned, not saying anything about the tearstains all over her face, nor her puffy eyes.
She huffed, "I tripped and fell."
"…..Some fall." He grabbed her hand and pulled her up, walking past her stupid big brother. Not bothering to spare a glance, they walked out of the shinsengumi-copy compound in silence, comforted by each other's presence.
He wasn't ever going to let her go.
And that's why he won't ever tell her.
A/N: Another short chapter…..gah im so terrible xo gomenasai minna
Well, kamui and kagura had their mature talk…I guess. *cries anime tears* I couldn't find any other way to picture their talk without making them ooc TTATT although I think every chapter I write at least has 1 ooc character xD
The reason why okita doesn't tell Kagura is cuz he's afraid of denial & rejection. Yes, he has done incredibly stupid things in the past 5 years, ik. But Okita has very few precious people to him, and he's just trying to figure out the best way to keep his precious people close to him, hence, explaining his possessiveness over Kondo and Mitsuba.
Well, anyways, now u know okita's…secret? xD Hope you guys don't hate him (although I adore him xD)
Til next time~