Bad...
I felt bad, I had screwed up. Guilt... I felt guilt, about Texas, about my Mum and now about my Sister.
Realisation hit me; I had to walk because she took the car. It would give me time to think. I really didn't want to think...
I started walking...
"I love you" I blurted out.
She turned around looking at me with loving eyes.
"...I love you..."
She ran into my arms and kissed me passionately.
"I found this and I thought you should have it"
She handed me my baptism certificate.
Mark Blake….. that was me, the real me!
"You are the only thing in my life right now that makes sense"
She walked over to me and kissed me.
I was stood near my van and I saw Sienna come rushing over.
...
"Mark... Texas is dead"
My world came crashing down in that moment.
I was at my Dad's flat with Sienna, in the bedroom...
I was upset about everything... I couldn't take it anymore...
She sat on the bed and comforted me, my head resting on her chest.
I was broken out of my reminiscences by the realisation that I was nearly back, the Hollyoaks village sign in my sight. Starting to walk faster, I walked under the arch way that entranced into the village... I was back.
My reminiscences forgot for now. I headed for the pub which so happened to be where Sienna worked, I didn't know if I wanted to see her or not, my head and my heart where saying two different things. My head said to leave it but my heart was saying the complete opposite. Why does it have to be so complicated? I questioned to myself. I decided to follow my head which was probably the most sensible and safe option. I just wanted to get drunk again, it was barely noon but I didn't care, no, I wanted to forget, forget the look on Sienna's face when I said what I did, forget my life for a few hours…days...weeks...
I wanted to be alone.
...
I entered the pub...
No Sienna. I didn't know whether that was a good or bad thing...
Drink after drink after drink… I was nowhere near drunk.
Out of the corner or my eye I saw Darren walk in. I signed. I don't need this right now I thought to myself.
He walked my way...
"Hey mate" spoke Darren in a glum voice. "You look how I feel" he said.
"Yeah" I trailed off... I said some things to Sienna, she stormed off and now here I am" I looked up and saw Darren pull a face at me.
I was not in the mood...
"Drama Queen" I heard Darren mutter under his breath.
I slammed my glass down. "What is that supposed to mean?" I questioned.
"Well let's just say your sister isn't as sweet and innocent as she looks" He explained.
I felt a need to defend her...
I sighed "Yeah... well we all do things we regret" I said. I regretted a lot of things.
"She faked being pregnant, she drugged my wife, put my son at risk and she manipulated ME!" Darren was almost yelling by now.
Neither of use realised, Sienna had just walked in...