Shawn was practically banging on the bathroom door but I didn't want to open the door at all.
"Come on Lucas, open the door. You can't stay in there in there forever" Shawn was begging me to unlock the bathroom door but I couldn't do that. I was just leaning against the bathroom door.
"Your dad is gone and I can assure you that your mother isn't here" Shawn kept telling me and I just pulled my knees closer to my chest. My mind was filled with flashbacks and I heard footsteps moving away from the door. My phone rang and I answered it without looking at the caller ID.
"Lucas" I heard my mom voice and I didn't say anything.
"Lucas please say something" Mom demanded me.
"What do you want" I stated to her harshly.
"Look, I know that your father struck you" Mom told me and I sighed while I stared at myself in the mirror.
"And" I said to her and Mom just sighed at me.
"What did you do to make him upset" Mom asked me and I shook my head before hanging up on Mom. I shook my head while I examined every mark on my body, every bruise that I had, every burn mark that would never go away. I fell to my knees covering my eyes. Did I deserve everything that happened to me? Someone was banging on the bathroom door and I unlocked the bathroom door.
I opened the bathroom door to see Shawn and Mr. Matthews standing there.
"Lucas" Mr. Matthews stated to me and the tears were still falling onto my cheeks. I don't know what possessed me but I ran into Shawn. Shawn hugged me and I felt Mr. Matthews put his hand on my shoulder. My phone rang once more but I didn't want to answer it. Mr. Matthews picked up my phone and looked at it.
"It's your mother" Mr. Matthews handed me my phone and I shook my head.
"I don't want to talk to her" I looked down at my hands.
"Cory, can you give me and Lucas some time alone" Shawn asked Mr. Matthews and Mr. Matthews just nodded.
"Okay, now explain to me what happened to cause you not to want to talk to your mother" Shawn asked me while we just sat on the bathroom floor.
"Is it my fault that my dad smacked me around" I turned towards Shawn and Shawn looked shocked at my expression.
"No, you didn't do anything wrong and your dad had no right to touch you or hit you at any point" Shawn put his hands on my shoulders. I looked down at my hands.
"When I was little I was the most annoying person I had ever met maybe that's why my dad would hurt me. Maybe he wasn't abusing me maybe he was just punishing me" I exclaimed and I was about to leave when Shawn stopped me.
"Listen to me, your dad wasn't punishing you he was abusing you, slapping and causing bruises is abuse okay Lucas" Shawn grabbed my shoulders and I fell to the floor sobbing now full on sobbing and Shawn pulled me into a hug. I looked back up and there stood Riley with Maya. I pulled away from Shawn wiping my tears away.
"Sorry, crying is the for the weak" I mumbled out loud and Shawn shook his head.
"I'll leave you guys to talk and maybe Riles and Maya you can convince Lucas that it's not his fault" Shawn told us and left the room probably to go hang out with Mr. Matthews in the living room.
"Lucas, are you okay" Riley asked me while we walked back to her bedroom and Maya was following behind us. I was putting my head in my hands and I was shaking my head.
"I can't help but think I deserved it, being hit by my father" I confessed to both girls. Maya opened her mouth and shook her head.
"It's not your fault" Maya patted me on my shoulder and I looked down at my lap.
"You can't keep blaming yourself" Maya told me and I just sighed.
"You need to forgive yourself" Maya stated to me and I just stared at her but Riley held a smile on her face.
"You need to listen to what Maya is saying Lucas. What your parents did to you is not your fault" Riley gave me a soft smile and I just shook my head. I stared at her and Maya. I started fumbling with my hands. Riley eyes were soft and I could tell she was worried about me and to be honest I don't know if I was okay or not.
"Riles, Maya" I called out to their names and both girls looked up at me with a small smile.
"I can't remember something" I confessed to both girls. Maya looked actually worried and Riley was frowning.
"What don't you remember Lucas" Maya asked me and I just looked down at my lap.
"Lucas tell us, we can help you" Riley advised me.
"I get these flashbacks of my childhood, bad flashbacks" I stated to them and Riley was holding my hand and I sighed once more.
"These flashbacks consist of my father" I felt sick to my stomach because I didn't want to say those words ever but I knew I needed to tell somebody and somehow I knew that Maya and Riley wouldn't judge me for this.
"You look like you going to be sick" Maya pointed out to me and I just nodded.
"In these flashbacks my dad is putting back on his clothes" I blurted out to Maya and Riley. Maya seemed to get what I was saying quickly and covered her mouth. Riley looked somewhat clueless for about five minutes then she got it.
"We have to tell my dad or my Uncle Shawn" Riley jumped up from the window sill.
"No, I don't even know if these flashbacks are actually real or not" I confessed to Riley.