Sarah and I had been fighting once again. I told her that I had to leave. She got furious.

"Why can't you just spend a little bit more time with your son, for once in your life?" Sarah shouted.

"We need the money!" I shouted back.

"So you mean that the money is more important than your family? Do you even know how much that Jim is looking up to you?"

I went silence. I didn't know what to say.

"Listen, I didn't ask for this. Okay? I didn't ask to get a son or even a family!" I was shouting.

I knew that I had hit a soft spot. Sarah was pregnant in a very early age, but she stilled wanted the baby. Of course I had been okay with it at the start, but as soon I got a spacer, I began to regret what I had chosen. Not that I hate my life, son and wife. Not at all! I love them very much. But it's difficult to stay with your family, when you have to run a business in the space.

"Well you asked me to marry you! And you agreed to keep the baby!" Sarah was crying. The whole room went silence. I suddenly felt bad about what I said.

"Sarah I… I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that… I just…"

"You didn't thought about, what you were saying." She finished. I sighed. There was absolutely no turning back in this. "Your ship is here." She suddenly whispered when she looked out at the window.

I looked out, and saw that some of my crewmates were on the bridges and waited for me. I looked back at Sarah.

"Why, can't you just see that there is something that is more important than money?"

I moved closer to hug her, but she just pushed me away. I didn't blame her.

"I'll come back." I then said.

"Last time you said that, we didn't saw you for a half year. Jim was waiting outside every night, just to see if you came back and say that you were proud of him. But you never did. You never did give your son any attention. Only when he was very little. But now is like, that you don't care about him… how do you think it feel for a boy in that ages?"

"Maybe I just should leave and never come back huh? That would be better for everyone I hear!" I was angry. She couldn't just stand there and lecture me about to be a good parent. When she worked at the Inn day and night, not paying attention to Jim either!

"Yes maybe!" She shouted back.

"Fine. Goodbye Sarah. And pray to god, that you won't see me again, to make your life miserable!"

"The only life you are ruining is yours. Remember it's your choice if you ever come back, it's your choice, if you never see your son growing up, it's your choice if you don't even gonna pay any attention to him. Remember that! That's your choice!" I saw the tears running down on her cheek. She was angry but sad. I didn't say a word, after her speech.

"Goodbye Sarah." Was the last thing I said, and then I walked out of the door and slammed it behind me. As I was on my way to the ship, I saw Sarah at the window; she was sitting on a chair and was crying. I gave one glance at a window on the top of the Inn. Right into Jim's room.

He would be better off without me. I thought and began to walk again. I didn't cry on my way. But suddenly I heard a little boy voice behind me. I didn't turn around, because I already knew who it was.

"Dad! Come back please! Dad wait!" Shouted Jim after me, but still I didn't turned around, and just as I got on board and it sailed away. I heard Jim shouting one last time.

"Dad don't leave! DAAAAAAAAAAAAD!" I could hear he was crying. Suddenly I felt something soft and wet on my cheek, and I realized that I was crying… think, even a hard man like me, could cry?

I knew I would regret if I turned around, so I waited to we were a little further out into the space. As I turned around, I saw Sarah holding our son. She tried to get him away from the edge of the bridge. My heart sank… was this really what I wanted? Was this really my choice?

The only think I knew, was that this voyage is going to be a long journey…. So I'll have plenty of time to figure out what I want. I just hope that they would be able to forgive me, and that Sarah would take me back…

I have been thinking, what might had happen before Jim work up, to see his father leave. And what Leland must had been thinking about. So here is what has going on in Leland's mind. (my version). do you think it's bad? I kinda like it though. XD