A/N: Next installment, thoughts please!
Chapter 10
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Sam stormed into Sonny's house and instantly changed her attitude as she came face to face with her sisters who were playing on the living room floor happily. Kristina looked up as her sister entered the room and grinned and ran over to her for a hug.
"Sam, Mommy told us that we were all going to live with Daddy when she wakes up. Isn't that cool? Do you want to share a room?"
Sam leaned down and picked up her sister and squeezed her to herself, "Why don't we talk about sharing rooms later and you tell me what you two are doing?"
Kristina struggled and stood up as she pulled her sister over to where she had setup a mini playpen for the two of them, "We were just playing Barbie's until Daddy comes home from the hospital. He wanted to hold Mommy's hand while she went to sleep, and then he said we could all make something in the kitchen. Do you think Daddy has popcorn?"
Sam smiled as she looked at her sister who was busy accommodating herself to her new surroundings and picked up her sister Molly who was giggling happily in her baby chair while her eyes never left her older sister. Sam put her on her hip as she thought over the events of this morning.
Flashback
Sam looked at Jason with tears in her eyes, "Jason, you knew? You knew that Carly had faked her death and you didn't tell Sonny? You don't know what that would've done to the relationship between my mother and Sonny? They could've been happy." Jason flinched at the anger he heard in her voice but focused on his convictions, "Carly told me that Sonny had just had a fling with Alexis and he didn't feel anything for her. I even asked Sonny if he felt more than friendship for Alexis but he always wrote it off as a mistake he said he should've never gotten involved with her. Looking back on it now, I know he was just avoiding the issue, he loved Alexis and I think if they had, had a real chance they could've been happy together. I know Sonny would've at least. They really got each other. I had always been Sonny's right man but when I first came back, I always noticed that he was over at Alexis's, he asked for her opinions, he asked for her thoughts, he trusted her and when that was gone he started making mistakes. Stupid ones, ones that cost him a lot."
Sam felt the tears start to well in her eyes, "My mother was right then? She could've destroyed Carly's relationship with Sonny if she chose to. I once said that she was a control-freak, but she had all of the control in the relationship but she let Sonny have what he said he wanted."
Jason looked at her in confusion, "What are you talking about Sam?"
Sam scowled as she sipped from her water, "Alexis knew all along that Carly had faked her death but she kept quiet because Sonny said that he loved Carly. She didn't want to get into the middle of their relationship if she wasn't meant for him. If she had fought then Sonny would've learned the truth."
Jason sighed and said, "I knew that Alexis had the connections to uncover Carly's scheme but I always thought that she hadn't bothered otherwise she would've blown her out of the water when she had the chance."
Sam rolled her eyes as she reached for her purse when the phone started ringing. She checked the caller ID and then looked at Jason in question, "It's the hospital." Jason shrugged and she flipped the phone open and spoke softly,"Hello?" End of Flashback
Sam was being called and she looked down as her sister Kristina continued to pull on her leg trying to corner her attention. Sam looked down and said, "What's going on Kristina?"
Kristina pointed to Molly and said, "She's sleepy Sam. Are you going to put her to bed now?"
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Sonny had walked out of the hospital room after an hour. He had stayed by Alexis's side even after the doctor assured him she was sleeping soundly. He had just found her again and she was now his and he didn't want to be parted from her, even while she was asleep. He couldn't focus on anything other than her whispered words of love as she fell asleep. The amount of trust that she had placed in him made him stumble out of the room on weak legs. As he fell against the door in exhaustion he had to prepare himself to go home and see the faces of Alexis's daughters, all three of them and see Alexis in each of their glances and not fight the urge to cry.
He had already steeled his emotions and started walking towards the elevators when his cell phone rang, "Corinthos."
"Sonny its Carly. I need to see you, it's important."
Sonny sighed in disbelief as he spoke into the phone, "Carly, can this wait? I'm exhausted and I just want to go home and see my girls."
Carly smirked from the other end of the phone and he could hear it transmitted through her voice, "Yea I heard about your impromptu marriage to Alexis and I guess congrats are in order. That's actually why I'm calling, it's about Sam. This can't wait; I'll be waiting for you at Jax's."
Sonny opened his mouth to ask for time when the dial tone rung in his ear and he knew that she had hung up the phone in his face. He shook his head in exasperation as he realizes that Carly wasn't going to let this go, she wanted to discuss his marriage to Alexis and she wanted to do it at Jax's house. This was going to be fun.
He exhaled a deep breath and pressed the down button on the elevator as he waited to go hear another list of complaints launched against him for marrying Alexis without anyone's knowledge.
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Sonny tapped his foot as he waited impatiently at Jax's door for Carly to arrive and explain to him what could have possibly been so important that she felt that she needed to take time away from him visiting with the girls. Carly opened the door with a flourish and stepped back and allowed him entry into the penthouse.
Jax was already sitting on the couch with a firm smirk fixed on his face, "Sit Corinthos."
Sonny refused to rise to the bait especially since Alexis still considered Candyboy a friend. He didn't know why but she considered him to be someone that she still trusted as a friend and a confidante. He looked back to see Carly fidgeting with her robe as she bit on her bottom lip. He sighed in exhaustion as he waited for the latest to be dumped into his lap.
Carly crossed across the room and sat next to Jax. It was almost as if she was expecting him to protect her from whatever came out of her mouth, "Sonny, Sam came by to see me today. She wanted me to help her breakup you and Alexis since I had done it successfully before."
Sonny outwardly flinched as he focused on words that Carly uttered, "Sam was here. Why would you care if I was with Alexis or not? And what did she mean about you have done it before?"
Jax squeezes her hand and Sonny realized that whatever Carly's about to confess will change his life and not necessarily for the better, "Sonny, I knew that you and Alexis slept together. I knew it so after I realized that I couldn't find comfort in Zander's arms I decided to make you pay. What I'm about to say will probably cause a rift in our relationship but you needed to know the truth, because Sam cares about Alexis. I truly believe that in her mind she thinks that all she is doing is protecting her mother and sisters."
Sonny scowled as he heard Carly's defense of Sam but he refuses to acknowledge the fact that she was sticking up for her, "What did you do Carly? What made Sam think you were a good candidate to turn to in keeping Alexis and me apart?"
Carly flinched at the anger in his tone but he refused to apologize, not when so many lives were at stake. All of which had become dear to him in such a short period of time. "Maybe because it had worked before, maybe because when I did it the last time, I got away with it and wasn't confronted with my actions until today."
He didn't understand but he was starting to get a sinking feeling in his stomach, one that led him to believe that their relationship will never be the same, "Carly, what did you do?"
Jax who had been uncharacteristically silent during the whole exchange cleared his throat and spoke for Carly who was afraid of his temper if her cowering behind Jax was any indication, "Carly faked her death Sonny. She saw you and Alexis having sex that night and plotted her death to make you pay and then once she returned she embezzled money from the club to try to get Alexis's old law firm to take her back. She also frequently, from what she has just confessed tried to run Alexis out of town, out of your life and out of her way."
As he listened to Jax calmly explain Carly's actions, Sonny started to feel the rage threatening to launch him out of the chair and wrap his arms around her neck as he spat out, "Why Carly? Why did you go through all of this?"
Carly flinched back from the tone in his voice and spoke softly, "Alexis was everything that I never was in your life. I always complained that she had your trust, something I was never privy to, and she got your time and affection. You never gave me the consideration that you gave her, you did it all for her and I knew when I saw that you two had slept together if I didn't do something drastic to win you back, then all was lost so I staged my death."
Sonny jumped to his feet and was ready to grab her when Jax stands up and stares him in the eye, "Look Corinthos, the only reason that she's telling you all of this is because she's apologetic for her actions. She didn't even have to tell you but when Sam came here she thought the best thing to do was to tell you the truth. So this is the truth, now deal with it."
Sonny was so furious that he considered sending a punch Jax's way when he closed his eyes and exhale deep, cleansing breaths and stepped back. He backed up until he felt the end of the chair shape his legs as he fell back into the chair, "How did Sam find out? This happened almost 5 years ago and you were never repentant enough to come forward and tell me the truth so why now?"
Carly cleared her throat, "I don't know if I would've ever told you but, Sam knew. At first, I thought Jason had confessed….,"
She let her voice trail off as she realized what she just spoke and Sonny picked up on it immediately, "Jason? Jason knew?"
Carly nodded as she looked down, "He helped keep it a secret when you asked him to search into my whereabouts. I begged, cried and pleaded with him to keep the secret from you and he agreed."
Sonny starts to feel sick to his stomach with the betrayal that he was slowly uncovering, "Jason knew and you knew but how did Sam know if you didn't tell her?"
Jax cleared his throat and spoke and dealt Sonny another blow with his words, "Alexis knew. She never trusted Carly and she didn't trust her story so she had the investigator find out her whereabouts. She was going to tell you when you came to her and told her that you never stopped loving Carly, so she stepped back and let the man that she loved have what he wanted, Carly."
Carly wouldn't stare him in the eyes as Jax spoke the words that had left him cold inside. Alexis had known and had once again shown him the true meaning of the word love. She was amazing. He stood up as Jax was eyeing him warily and made his way over to the door.
Sonny exhaled a deep breath as his hand hovered over the doorknob, he turned back to her and said, "Don't come within fifty feet of me for the next month otherwise I might be tempted to hit you. I have suffered abuses at the hands of men and women my whole life but what you did Carly, what you and my best friend Jason did doesn't have a name. I can't believe that the people who claimed to love me the most would treat me like this."
As he opened the door Carly stood up and said, "Fine Sonny, you can go ahead and play the innocent victim in all of this but the only, the only reason that Jason kept quiet was because he asked you for your feelings about Alexis and you told him that she was a mistake. If she was such a mistake, what does it matter 5 years later what we did? You ask yourself Sonny, who was in denial?"
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Sonny had Max drive him around for hours with no idea of a destination. He didn't know how he was going to be able to process everything that had just been thrown at him. He had been betrayed by the people closest to him and the woman that he loved and hurt had sacrificed everything because he foolishly told her he wanted Carly. He told her that he never stopped loving Carly and she took that to mean that even if Carly had faked her death that she would never be as important to him as Carly was. He was confused, he didn't know whether to cry in frustration or rage at Jason and Carly in anger.
He looked up when he noticed that the car had arrived at the warehouse. Sonny looked to Max who shrugged and let him out of the car. He walked into his office and closed the door behind him his hand hovering over the doorknob, hesitant to be alone with his disturbing thoughts. His thoughts were going to get him or someone else killed. He had been staring at the clock for thirty minutes when the door opened and Jason walked in.
He leaned against the shut door and spoke, "You know."
Sonny leaned back in his chair and met his response with a glare. Jason walked forward and said, "You know what transpired 5 years ago and you're upset. I can understand that but it's in the past Sonny, let it go."
He jumped up and was grateful that Jason was a male because it doesn't stop him from pounding on him if he feels like it, "Let it go? Let it go! Carly put me, her mother and her son through hell all because she was upset that Alexis and I made love. Do you understand how crazy that is?"
Jason smirked and said, "Do you know this is the first time that you ever admitted that when you and Alexis had sex, it was making love? Each time I asked you, you told me it was a mistake; it was an error in judgment one thing that you wished you could erase. You never told me that it was anything other than a mistake to you and now because you learned the truth you want to romanticize and make it out to seem like you had made love with her all those years ago."
Sonny starts to seethe because in the back of his mind Jason's making sense, he didn't want to face his culpability in the situation, "I loved her Jason. I loved her and I could've been with her if it wasn't for…"
Jason cut him off as he spoke, "Don't try to blame this on Carly, Sonny. What she did was wrong, there's no excuse for it, I agree but if for one moment I actually thought that you loved Alexis I would've been the first to tell you. You hid your feelings for her so well that I didn't know if Carly was telling the truth or not. She should've meant more to you than a quick lay but that's never how you said it, you let everyone believe that she was a mistake, hell she learned to believe it and now you know. She knew and she sacrificed her happiness to let you believe that Carly had come back from the dead, why are you so angry about this?"
Sonny fell back against his desk as he spoke through short, clipped tones, "I loved her, and I didn't think I was good enough for her. I had always felt like an inferior standing next to her, it was one thing that this inferior man became her friend but it was quite another that me being this inferior could become her lover and something significant in her life. I took my place and was just her friend for so long until that night when I became her lover and I promised her that everything was going to be okay. I finally for the first time in our relationship felt like her equal and then the morning came and I realized that my inferiority was coming to bite me in the ass, because Carly was missing. I was always superior alongside Carly but not Alexis and when I realized that Carly was missing and that she had probably seen us together the inferiority complex that I always felt came back in full force, if I had just stayed in my place Michael wouldn't have lost his mother and I would've still had my friend. When Carly came prancing into her own funeral I felt like God was setting things right with the world, I had strove for something that was out of my reach and had paid the penalty but I had another chance to make things right. I was going to accept that my life was going to be alongside Carly and no one else. Now, now I found out that my assumptions were just that assumptions and the woman that I loved, that I hurt paid the price for my stupidity. I don't know how to accept this, I can't just pretend that everything's okay."
Jason sat down in front of him and said, "I'm sorry for what it's worth Sonny. I know that you probably don't take my apology for anything other than me speaking but I needed you to know that it was never my intention to hurt you or Alexis. I was trying to protect Michael's family all of it."
Sonny flinches and closes his eyes, he wasn't ready to acknowledge Jason's words for truth so he nodded and didn't move until he heard the door close behind him letting Sonny know that he left.
He called Max into the room and said, "Come on there's somewhere I have to be."
Dude, my poor Sonny, but I needed to whoop up on him while Alexis is sleeping so when she awakens, her prince is perfect for her
Also, I'm not sure if Sonny found out all this info before or not because I stopped watching in 2002 so if I'm redundant, I apologize.