ONE WEEK LATER
Walking up and kissing Kerry goodbye, Lawson goes to wrap his arms around her, pulling away from him "Don't". Looking at her, he reaches out and touches her face "What's wrong?"
Rubbing her hands over her face, she moves her hand everywhere "Everything" then rubbing her eyes "I'm tired Lawson, my first day back in 7 months, Its hard, I used to grab some toast and a coffee and run out the door, or take my time getting ready, now I have to breastfeed Chloe, make sure I have everything she needs, get her ready then drop her off at day care for the day. I'm too old for all this shit"
Looking at Kerry concern over his face "I'll get Chloe ready each day your working"
Giving him a half smile "I'm over it Lawson, my nipples are red and sore, I feel like a milking machine, this isn't how I imagined my life now"
Walking over and wrapping his arms around her, drawing him towards her, as he faces her, leaning down he gives her a gently quick kiss "I'll do what ever I can to help you, you know that" Seeing her nod "It will get easier, I'll drop Chloe off each day your working if I can"
Leaning against his chest "I'm not just not mother material"
Pulling her away from him, looking into her eyes "don't say that, you're a great mum, just because you want to go back to work, doesn't meant your not"
Kissing the top of her head "Want to drop Chloe off together and continue onto work, smiling at him "You'll be late"
Looking her in the eyes "That doesn't matter, you matter to me, I'll let Charlie know, they can send TR2 out until I get there"
Smiling gratefully at him "I love you Senior Sergeant Blake" Holding her gaze, "I love you Superintendent Vincent" before finding her lips hearing her mumble "We'll be much later"
Arriving at work, together Charlie reaches for Stella's hand, looking up at Charlie "You do know I think most people will have the same reaction as Kerry"
Shaking his head "Nah, I think Kerry's just smarter than others" then looking at her "Don't you dare tell her I said that"
Looking up at her boyfriend "What's it worth to you"
Leaning down he finds her lips, kissing her briefly before walking into base and letting go of her hand.
Hearing a voice behind her, Stella turns around seeing Christian there "Are you duffing him?"
Looking at Christian "You need to spend time away from your kids, duffing?"
Watching Charlie going out of sight, "you know what I mean Stel, since when are you back into guys"
Hearing Elliot's voice "who's Stella with?"
Groaning "You two need a life, and keep out of mine"
Walking away "for a while Christian" walking into the locker room.
Elliot looks at Christian before watching Stella retreating body "She and Michael had something going"
Nodding Christian can't help but stare at the com's room "Now she has Charlie"
Walking into the locker room, Christian sees Stella there "So spill Stella, how long have you and Charlie been going out for?"
Getting dressed "why do you want to know Christian, are you interested in him too"
Seeing Shannon giving her a curious look she mouths "later"
Looking up at Christian and Elliot, she doesn't notice Lochie coming in "If I tell you, will you just shut up"
Nodding "Ok we're going out" Seeing there eyes raise before Christian speaks "but isn't there rules" then glancing at Shannon "suppose not if Lawson and Shannon…"
Shannon Interrupts him bluntly "there is no Lawson and Shannon"
Looking at Shannon "was going to say went out together, so what gives"
Shannon looks at Christian "Ease up, why all the questions, and so interested"
Looking at Stella and Shannon shrugging "Just never thought Stella and Charlie"
Looking at them all and standing up "Yes we are together, the rules have changed that's all your finding out"
Lochie looking at Stella "Who changed the rules"
Shannon her voice bitter "The one person who can, who thinks she can do anything takes matters in her own hand, Kerry no doubt, so she can continue her relationship with Lawson and work here"
Walking into the locker room, Charlie looks around "What are you all still doing here, Lawson's going to be late, Shannon, you, Stella and Elliot in TR2, Lochie you and Christian in TR1, will call you when Lawson decides to show up"
Seeing everyone looking at him "what" then clapping his hands "cmon guys move"
Seeing Christian looking at him then Stella a smile creeping on his face, he glances at Stella.
Watching Charlie walk out of the locker room, Stella walks up to him pulling him aside "You owe me big time, I've just spend the last half an hour in the locker room, answering so many questions from nosey team members."
Hearing Shannon call out "Cmon Stella, your driving"
Walking into base a short time later, Kerry looks around, she had really missed it, walking away from Lawson, into the coms room, seeing Leon turn around "Welcome back Superintendent" Smiling at him, at least one person is happy, hearing him "Lochie, come back and pick up Lawson"
Hearing Charlie's voice she turns around "tell me everything that has happened" Looking at her "Sure Lawson has kept you up to date"
Rolling her eyes at him "Charlie if we're to work together, keep your comments to yourself, or I will have your writing parking tickets in Moe"
Laughing at her comment he follows her
Arriving back at base at the end of the shift the day quite uneventful, seeing Lawson undoing his shirt as he turns around "anyone want to go to the pub?" Seeing Christian, Elliot and Lochie nod, he turns to Stella "What about you and Charlie?"
Seeing her look at Shannon, "Don't know about Charlie, you'll have to ask him, I might come later"
Smiling gratefully at her friend, Shannon mouths "Thanks" Seeing the others walk out, she turns to Stella "sure you don't want to go to the pub?"
Smiling at her friend "I can go later, unless you want to go, we don't have to sit with the others?"
Looking up at Stella "deal, but if Kerry is there I'm out of there"
Nodding "Ok, but she probably has to pick up her daughter" seeing Shannon grimace at the mention of those words
Walking out of the locker room, Shannon hears her name called, knowing that voice anywhere, she ignores it, why does Kerry think she wants to speak to her or anything to do with her, she'll work with her and that's it,
Hearing her name louder "Shannon, wait" ignoring it still she keeps on walking
Watching Shannon ignore her, she isn't surprised, after calling out twice, the third time she calls out her voice firmer "Shannon, stop ignoring me calling you"
Turning around to face Kerry, it had been months since she had seen her, still it was too soon, the pain of her boss's betrayal still there, the image of them sleeping together here at Lawson's anywhere now, not going from her mind.
Looking up at her, her voice void of emotion "What do you want Kerry"
Her voice soft and gentle "I know you don't want me here Shannon"
Interrupting her, her voice bitter "You got that right"
Taking a deep breath, trying to remain calm "I'm here to stay Shannon whether you like it or not"
Her eyes narrowing at her boss "we'll see about that"
Raising her eyes at Shannon "Shannon, I'm sorry about what happened with Lawson, I never meant to hurt you or for any of this to happen, but it did and we both need to get on with it, we need to work together. I like you Shannon, and want you in this squad"
Glaring at Kerry "funny way of showing it, but I don't like you and wish you had stayed at HQ, better still why not just go back there"
Having enough of Shannon's behaviour her voice now firm "Shannon, I am here to stay, there is nothing you can do about it, so grow up. Shit happens in life, you get over it and move on"
Her voice full of hatred, anger "we'll see"
Walking into the locker room, Shannon throws the chair against the wall, need to vent her anger, hatred, tipping her locker over, she moves onto Lawson's. Sitting down a short time later, her head on her hands trying to blink back the tears that are threatening to spill, why why does it still hurt, why did he choose her, why did it happen.
Hearing noises coming from the locker room, Kerry runs down, seeing Shannon sitting on the table with her head in her hands, walking in quietly, she sits down next to her, putting her arm around her shoulder, knowing she is the last person she wants to see.
Looking around "Feel better?", Not even looking at Kerry, "I'll clean it up"
Her voice soft and gently "I'm sorry Shannon, I really am, I never meant to hurt you, or for any of this to happen, I never planned on any of it, not to sleep with Lawson, definitely not to become pregnant, this wasn't what I wanted to happen, this isn't how I thought things would be" rubbing her arm "I want you in this team Shannon, I don't want for you to feel the need to leave"
Looking up at Kerry, her eyes red from crying "I know, I think that is why it hurts, so much, that if Lawson did love me, if we were truly happy together, then he would never of cheated on me, he wouldn't of wanted to sleep with you, its easier to blame you, than admit the truth or realise I never saw it coming"
Giving her a half smile, she looks up seeing Stella standing at the door, nodding to her, she gets up, walking away
Looking around the locker room, Stella looks at Shannon "Geez, what happened?" Looking up at her friend "want to help me clean it up" smiling at her friend "The quicker we do that, the quicker we can go to the pub" then seeing her locker standing "at least you left my locker alone"
Giving a short laugh "did I, must mean I like you" Laughing at Shannon and looking around "cmon, we're going to be here all night if we don't hurry"
Smiling gratefully at her friend, Shannon looks up, seeing Kerry hop in her car, she knows it isn't her fault, still doesn't stop it hurting.