Chapter Ten

Evemiliana – Lmfao. Ah dunno, really about why Ah decided to make her dad the Toiletnator. It was just an idea. The reason that Siera is going to Wally's mother's parents' house is because Rachel sent Siera to watch him as well. She used to be a Kids Next Door operative too, but she's thirteen now. Yeah, Ah know. Majorly out of character, by far, but oh well, Rachel will still be around :D

Disclaimer: Ah claim no own-age of this, so Ah'm sorry :D

(A/N: As Ah was writing this, Ah was listening to Come What May from Moulin Rouge, so this is where the whole chapter came from. This chapter is a little longer than most of my other chapters, but Ah can guarantee it's worth the read. Oh and this is fast forwarding, because Ah don't want to keep writing him as a twelve year old xD)

A cold shudder ran down Wally's spine and a scream escaped his lips before he could stop it. His dreams – his nightmares – had ended the same way again, just like they have since the day he left Cleveland. He had been in Tennessee with his grandparents for the last year, and yet, he still had the same dreams, over and over. His grandmother had finally stopped coming in to see if he was okay every night. It just wasn't worth it, and he knew it.

Wally sighed and stood up. He changed into clothes that were half-decent, for Wally's cousin, Siera Beatles was coming to stay with the grandparents for a while. Why she was going to Wally's grandparents, Wally was not sure of, because Siera was Lou's daughter and not related to Wally's mom at all, but whatever. Wally climbed down the stairs, his eyes filled with hollowness on the outside, but anyone who really knew him, would know there was sorrow in those deep green eyes.

Wally stopped at the bottom stair and waited. He knew Siera would be there any moment. And if she could read his mind, Siera was at the door and knocked on it. He sighed and looked around, not knowing where anyone was, that is, until he heard his grandmother's voice, "Wally! Dear, can you get the door for your cousin?"

Wally blinked at Grandma Madison and nodded solemnly and walked to the door. He opened it and was instantly attacked by Siera Beatles. Wally groaned and yanked his older cousin off him. "Get off meh! You know Ah don't lioke hugs." Only if you were Kuki, because only Kuki is allowed to hug meh. And Wally actually believed that. Ever since he left Cleveland, he hadn't let anyone touch him for any reason. The only person he ever let him give a half-decent hug, was always Kuki, and it always would be here.

Siera rolled her eyes at her younger cousin, "Well isn't someone a bit grumpy this morning. Woke up on the wrong side of the bed, Wallabee?" The blond girl was almost just as bad as Hoagie with those lame kind of jokes, only, she called him Wallabee, and that always annoyed Wally. It annoyed him when his parents did it, and it annoyed him now. No one was going to change that, not even after his mother was dead and gone. It's just how he was.

Wally snarled at her and muttered a, "Fuck off," under his breath, before turning back upstairs and ignoring his grandmother complaint about him being rude to his own flesh and blood. He didn't care why should he? His father's side of the family has only brought pain to him recently. So he didn't really like his own family at the moment. Then again, who did Wally like anymore?

Wally dragged his body carelessly up to his room and slammed his door shut. Just those thoughts of Kuki killed him. He had tried to put her behind him, he really did, but how was it possible for him to forget her, when everything around him reminded him of her? It was completely impossible for him to forget Kuki. Ah will love you….He picked up the picture of him and her off his night stand and sighed, until my dying day.

Death.

Wally wasn't completely insane. He didn't think about suicide, he just couldn't see himself in hell, it just didn't match. He didn't deserve to go to Hell, did he? Or did he? Wally couldn't lie; he hasn't been all peaches and cream for the last year. He's thirteen now, so his friends have probably been decommissioned, so they probably forgot all about him long ago. And that thought honestly scared the crud out of Wallabee Beatles.

So what was he supposed to do? Just keep waiting for the day to return? Or would he just have to go on living his life in the shadows like how he imagined it would be like? Be in the shadows, hiding, for the rest of his life? That's how he saw his life to be, and it probably would turn out that way, unless he did something about it. But Wally wouldn't do anything. He's thirteen, he doesn't care, and the only thing that he ever really did care, has probably forgotten all about him. So what was he going to do?

Just before he could answer his own question, his door opened and in came Siera, and it looked like she wanted to talk. When Siera looked like she wanted to talk, it meant she was serious and that she meant business. Awh, fucking fantastic, Ah have to deal with her now? Ughh. Wally groaned silently and stared at her. "Wally, we need to talk."

Wally groaned at her and couldn't help, but suppress a glare at her. "What do you want, Siera? Can't you see Ah'm busy?" Wally wasn't in the mood for his cousin's antics, and he defiantly was in no mood to deal with the fact she was going to try to make him feel better. Oh, the girl could be as happy as can be, but if others aren't happy, she makes them act happy by her annoying constant talking.

Siera rolled her eyes at him, "Don't' give me any of that lip, Wallabee Beatles! Now, Ah'm here to talk about you. Tell me, what's the matter? Maybe, if you let me, Ah can try to make you feel better. You just gotta let me in, Wallz."

Wally stood up – unknowing that he had sat on his bed – and stormed up to her, poking his finger right in her stomach, just not hard enough to hut her. "No! You have no rioght, to come into here and demand to know what's going on! There is nothing wrong, Siera! You can't change the past, Ah can't change the past, so do me a favor, pack your bags and just leave, because Ah don't need you here. Ah don't need your help, and Ah defiantly don't want it. Ah don't want anyone's help. Understand?"

Wally ignored the hurt and anger in his cousin's eyes as she spat angrily at him, "You're so heartless, Wally! You've been lioke this since you cruddy left Cleveland! Oh and don't even ask me how Ah know, your grandmother told me. She notices the little things too, Wally! You think you're so smart, so clever, well there is nothing smart about hiding! Stop being so afraid, and be a man, Wally. You're thirteen! You're not a kid anymore! So stop acting lioke one!" With that said – well, screamed – Siera turned and stormed out of Wally's room.

Wally collapsed to the floor in an instant and picked up the Rainbow Monkey that had been under his bed for the last year – which now, had a picture of Kuki on its stomach – and let out a sigh of content. "You don't even know the half of it, Siera. It's just not that easy."

The next morning, Wally got up, walked downstairs and out of the house without a word. It was about four thirty am in the morning, so no one was up, naturally anyways. The only one who was usually up at that time was his grandfather, and his grandfather still didn't care what Wally did, so the old man didn't say anything to him when he left the house. As Wally left the house, he looked up at the sky and narrowed his emerald eyes at it. It almost seemed as if he had never seen the sky before. It seemed…so different. So dark. Just like his heart.

Wally sighed and shook his head as the sky began to drizzle rain. He slid his orange hood over his head and continued on through to wherever he was going. After about ten minutes, Wally stopped at a cliff and stared out across the horizon. The sun was just barely rising as he stood outside. And across the horizon, some many, many miles away, Wally knew was Cleveland. The place that started and ended it all, the place where Wally left his heart behind. He left his heart in Cleveland, and no one had the decency to get it back for him – nor did he really care. She can keep it, Ah don't want it.

The person Wally had secured his heart to was none other than Kuki Sanban.

Wally sighed again and sat down at the edge of the cliff, just staring across it. He felt so empty, so hollow. There was nothing inside of Wally except his own misery and heartache. He picked up a leaf – in the shape of a heart – and placed it in his palm. He blew it off his hand softly, whispering one thing under his breath, "Kuki." And as if God could hear him, the wind picked up and blew the heart-shaped leaf and carried it off into the horizon.

Just as Wally was about to stand up and leave, he heard someone behind him and looked up to see Siera. She had seen everything, and Wally could tell just by the look in her eyes. "You really miss her, don't you, Wally?"

Wally turned back around and let Siera sit beside him. He sighed softly and continued to stare off into the distance, almost as if he were waiting for something – anything – to happen, and yet, nothing did, so he spoke up, "You have no idea, Siera. You really don't." And he knew she wouldn't understand, because she had never had to live without the one she loved, and he knew she didn't lose her family and get blamed for it, so she couldn't understand – at all. No one would ever understand.

"No, Ah don't Wally, and Ah only wish Ah could, but Ah know that Ah can't. You don't deserve this." Siera let out a sigh and patted his back softly. "You'll see her again someday, sport, Ah'm sure of it, just never give up hope." Without looking, Wally knew she was smiling – it was in her voice. It was completely impossible to hear a smile, but only a Beatles family member can change the way they talk, just by simply smiling.

Wally looked up at her and turned back around, before he could let her look deeper into him and let out another soft sigh, "If only you were here to say that when Ah first arrived. It mioght have been some use to me then, but now, there is no such thing as hope, not for me. Ah've completely given up." With that being said, Wally stood up and ran off towards the house without another word to Siera, leaving her in the dust and something to think over during breakfast.

(A/N: Ah did warn you all about Wally's vocab, didn't Ah? Well, lioke Ah said, Wally has a very strong vocab, and this is only the beginning. Anyways, hope ya lioked. Oh and since Wally is a year older than planned now, Siera isn't thirteen, she's fourteen. Ehehe, oh and next chapter, Wally will be another year older, and yes, Siera is going to be staying with Wally's grandparents and him until he leaves off to Cleveland. So you'll be hearing more of her soon :P)