Light of The Sohmas'

Chapter 9: Spring Depression

Kagome looked out in the window. Another day, another quarter. The sakuras' flew passed her face. It was spring. It wasn't like she disliked Spring, but she find it hard not to feel depressed. She missed her friends back at Tokyo, along with what they did. Being with Kouga-kun and Inu Yasha-kun was never boring.

Holding her hand out the window, a small sakura landed on the palm of her hand. "Kagome-kun," she stood up straight and turned around. It was a girl with gray eyes with wavy brown hair. Her uniform is a blue sailor suit. If Kagome didn't know any better, the girl seems to be flustered. Eh? Is it that hot?

"Anou . . .Kagome-kun, i-if you don't have any business, would you," The girl looked down at her feet. Her eyes closed tightly, soon reopened as she blurted out. "Would you go on a date with me to the movies!"

Kagome winced. She started to feel sick in her stomach. Another one? Damn, I hate feeling this guilty. She gulped and gave a small smile. "I'm sorry, but I can't." Because I'm not a guy. The girl looked devastated. Kagome could've sworn she was about to cry. Instead, the girl smiled nervously, her eyes wavering.

"I-I understand."

Kagome watched sadly at the girl's back. This was the tenth girl she had to turn down! Couldn't these people see through her disguise? I suppose not. But they never actually asked me if I'm a guy or a girl. A small sighed escaped her lips as she looked down.

Before, at her old school, she could remember the fights she got with almost every guy at her school. They said that she was stealing their girl. Yeah, she always dress as a guy. Yet, no one ever noticed. Kagome almost vomit in front of those guys. This school is a bit more peaceful. So far, the only fights she gets into is with Kyo.

"Hey Kagome-kun." She smiled towards Sango. Kagome had barely get to see her childhood friend anymore. She was either busy with student council, sports, clubs, and volunteer work. The girl was used to calling Kagome "kun" since they were in school together. "Ah, it's a nice day isn't it?" Sango leaned against the window cell next to Kagome watching the sakura danced around the wind.

Kagoem snorted. "Nice as in boring? Yes." She looked towards Sango. "Oh, you finally have time for your friend eh?" Kagome asked sarcastically out of boredom.

A small giggle came from the girl. "I'm sorry Kagome-kun, I was caught up with other activities around the school," said Sango. "I'm going to have to go in a little while though, try not to be bored when I'm gone."

"And I'm not bored now?" Kagome shook her head. "I'm only joking. I usually fight whoever until the school day is over. It's somewhat a traditon back at my old school for me." Kagome looked up at the sky. "Along with senpai," Kagome sighed once more.

"Kagome-kun!" She jumped when Sango called out to her name. When she looked over to Sango, she had to step a bit to the side. The girl was grinning from ear to ear. "You still have a crush on Sesshoumaru-senpai don't you!" Sango pointed at Kagome accusingly.

She became flustered. "What! What the hell made you think that!" She was trying to regain her composure as she coughed to let her flush face calm down. "O-Of course I don't like senpai. I never did in the first place." Kagome blinked as Sango laughed.

"Right . . ." Sango whispered. Her smile slowly became a frown. "Is he well . . .um . .you know . . .awake?"

Kagome shook her head. "Not yet. He's still sleeping like a mutt." She sighed once more as she stared at the bottom.

"Oh, look at this Sango." Kagome pointed to the bottom at the cement trail that leads to another building of the school's property. The other girl looked down. "You see Tohru-san?"

Sango nodded. "What's so special about them?" Her eyes narrowed when they started to make Tohru back up from them. "Hey, what are they doing?" Sango was about to yell for them to stop, but Kagome pushed her back.

"Next, Uotana-san and Hanajima-san will come and threaten those three." Sango blinked in confusion. Then out of nowhere, the two came waltzing over glaring at the Yuki fanclub. The three didn't seem so afraid of Uotana-san, but seems to be deathly frighten of Hanajima-san. Kagome knew all this is going to happen. She smirked when Sango had a bewildered look.

The girl looked at Kagome, "How'd you guess?" '

"Ah," was her reply. "Being bored everyday that's how." Kagome said sarcastically.

Sango let out a little laugh. "Well, I got to go, it's nice talking to you Kagome," Sango turned around, "Chan."

Kagome glared murderously at Sango's retreating back who ran through the hallway and down the stairs. Heh.

"Anou, Kagome-kun." Kagome turned around with a rather blank expression. A small smile came to her lips. Another one? It was another girl. She recognize this girl to be in her home room class. Long, nice straight black hair, huge honey brown eyes, short about five foot one, wearing the sailor suit, and her name was Eriuki. "If you're not busy, do you want to hang out somewhere."

Same reply. "I'm sorry, I can't."

The girl furrowed her eyebrow. "B-But why?" Kagome didn't answer, but just gave out a small sigh. "You seem so distant from everyone else . . ." The girl trailed off.

Kagome just blinked. I am? "I am?" She voiced her thoughts out loud.

The girl suddenly looked up. "Yes! The only people you seem to hang out with is the Sohmas', Tohru-san, and often with Sango-san." Her voice dropped to a whisper. "I never see you make any new friends at all."

Kagome rubbed the back of her head nervously as the girl advance forward. "Kagome-kun, onegai, just once?"

"I'm sorry, I just can't."

Eriuki sighed and dropped her gaze to the ground. "You're so cold." Was the small whisper as she walked down the stairs turning her back to Kagome. For Kagome, she stood there frozen. A lump in her throat. I'm cold? She stared blankly with her mouth hanging open as the wind picked up and blew her low ponytail over her right shoulder.

He looked to his left at the chattering Tohru, then to his right at the silent Kagome. She seems to be more quiet than usual. A bit depressed also. Her shoulders were slagged as she dragged her foot. Kyo scratched his head in confusion. Yuki and Tohru seems to be talking about the spring festival, yet he expected Kagome to join in. Instead, she walked as if she was dead.

As they reached the house, he took off his shoe and went inside. Walking to his room, which isn't much, he caught the sad sigh that came from behind him. He felt very annoyed. He doesn't know why, but he knows he doesn't like it. "Oi-"

"Kyo, what would like for dinner? It's your choice this time." He blinked in surprise. When he looked over Tohru's shoulder, Kagome was already gone to her room.

"Err . . .Anything that doesn't have to do with leak, I'm fine with it." He answered.

Kagome took a deep breath and sighed as she went out of the balcony. Leaning against the rail, she looked far off into the mountain and through the forest. The wind blew her hair as it flew gently behind her. Her eyes glazed over as her mind overflowed with images.

Flashback Kagome, seven years old.

Kagome skipped over the rocks of the pond. Her braid over her left shoulder, wearing a blue yukata and brown sandals. Her smile was big since it's a perfect summer day. She skipped over the rocks to the long trail to get to the dojo.

"Kagome-chan, don't skip, you might fall in." She turned around and stuck her tongue out at the older Sesshoumaru. He was only two years older than her and already wiser than most. He shook his head and started walking over the pond. She grinned and started skipping around again.

She stopped when she saw a frog jump by. "Froggy!" She called out as it jumped through a separate rock that is away from the trail. She furrowed her eyebrow as she followed the frog's action.

"Kagome! What are you doing!" She looked at Sesshoumaru and pointed to the frog. "Come back here now! You could fall in baka!"

She glared at him, but continued. The smile was evident in her face, but it soon became of shock as she jumped upon another rock. She slipped and fell right into the pond. The pond was deep and she wasn't taught how to swim just yet. "Sesshoumaru-senpai! Sesshoumaru-senpai!"

"Kagome-chan!" She called out his name one last time as she started to fall deeper into the water. Her eyes began to drift close.

'Sesshoumaru-senpai . . .'

She felt sick. Suddenly a coughing fit erupted from her throat as she instantly sat up. "Kagome-chan." She opened her eyes and looked to the side and saw Sesshoumaru-senpai. He was in a white robe, his soft silver hair wet, golden eyes staring right at her, and a hand on her head. "Now you've done it." He grumbled.

She blinked as she felt her eyes weary. "What happened?" She asked. "What did I do? Why are you wet? Where is your other-"

"Shizuka ni Kagome-chan." She blinked and nodded.

He sighed as he pushed her down and tucked the blanket up to her chin. "You're such a baka." He told her. She wanted to protest, but he kept her quiet with a small warm, wet towel placing over her head. "You almost drowned in the pond, trying to catch an insignificant frog." He was using big words again.

Kagome coughed again. "You were lucky I was there or else you would've died." Kagome's eyes widen. That explain the reason why his hair is wet. "Because the pond wasn't quite clear, you caught a cold." He told her.

Kagome let out a small smile. "I'm . . ." Her voice was hoarsed, "Sorry."

"It's okay, as long as you're alright now."

Her smile widen a little. "I'm sorry that I worried you." Her eyes glazed over in confusion. His face flushed. Was he sick too?

"I . . .uh . . .have to . . .go now . . ." He seemed to be looking for words. "My otousan called . . .err . . .me earlier . . for something." He finished off lamely rushing out the shoji door and leaving her behind.

A small smile came to her lips. '. . .Thank you Sesshoumaru-senpai . . .'

End Flashback

"I can't believe I remembered that. It was a long time ago too." She whispered silently. I was really weaker than him too. She kicked herself mentally. She wasn't that weak anymore, and he's just a sleeping mutt in the hospital. A lump formed in her throat. I guess I really do miss him. Even his cold insults.

She turned around as she heard knocking. "Err . . .Come in?" She called out a bit unsure. When the door open, she was surprise to see Kyo there with that same scowl. It's like he's always angry at something.

"Dinner ready." She nodded, but could feel he needed to say something as they stared at each other.

"Well . . .is there anything else you need to say?"

"Anou . . .Well . . ."

Her stomach growled. "Oi! I'm hungry, lets go eat!"

Kagome took a bite of her tofu. The best food made by Tohru. She looked around only to see a tension in the air. It was around Tohru, Yuki and Kyo. They were really creeping her out. "Oi Tohru-san. This is great." She smiled, but gulped when Tohru smiled lifelessly, her eyes wavering as if tears were about to fall.

She looked at Yuki next. He was just chewing without any sense in it. His eyes were blank, but saddened. Then, she looked towards Kyo, who wasn't eating much like he usually would. This is creepy and weird. She thought. Kagome had never seen them like this before. Okay, probably I never seen them sad like this before.

Kagome looked towards Shigure with a frown. He looked at her and shook his head with a sigh. Yeah, he definitely know what's going on. So I'm the only one that is freakin' clueless?

"I need to go to work." Tohru said standing up. Kagome could see the older girl bit her lips as she dragged her feet. Once Tohru was gone, Kagome looked the two. Usually, one of them would get up and offer to take her, which is mostly Yuki.

"Anou . . ." they turned their lifeless eyes to her. "Isn't anyone going to offer to join her?" She regret those words that came out of her mouth. Yuki slammed his bowl on the low table and gave Kyo a cold glare. Kagome gulped even more when Kyo didn't do anything but stare at Yuki. It was strange because usually Kyo would stand up and start a fight. Kyo sighed and stood up.

"It's your fault Kyo." Yuki said in a harsh whispered.

Kyo clenched his fist. "I'm sorry for not feeling the same way towards her! Is that a problem!" He screamed in Yuki's face. Kagome took a salad from another bowl and started to chew really quickly. "I told you already, I used to feel that way towards her, but I love someone else!"

"Yeah, and broke her heart by saying you love-"

"Shut up you damn rat!" Yuki stopped and turned swiftly to the back door and went outside, slamming the shoji door in the process.

Kagome gulped. Kyo turned to her and she slowly looked up at him. "Err . . .What just happened?" She asked. Kagome blinked when his eyes glinted of some other emotion. She wasn't sure what it is, but it was still there. He looked at her strangely. "Anou . . .Is there something on my face?" She asked.

"You just shut your trap too!" He yelled at her. She was taken aback. "You're nothing but a nuisance! It's all your fault!" Kagome narrowed her eyes slightly as he ran out of the shoji door. Her lips started to twitch. A nuisance! She slammed her bowl on the low table.

"I'l show him! A nuisence am I! And what the hell does this have to do with me!" She screamed, frustrated as she ran out after the damn Kyo.

Shigure was left there looking at the low table. When did life get so complicated. Especially when it comes to the heart?

Kyo kept on running through the forest away from that damn Higurashi. She knows nothing with that innocent look. He remembered her eyes widen a bit with a small look of hurt when he accused her. He stopped short at a small pond.

He grumbled angrily as he seated himself on the grass, lying against a large rock. Closing his eyes, he recalled this evening.

Flash back

Kyo looked out at the blue, gray sky. He felt a peace overwhelm him. Spring seems to only be what calms the mood these days. He felt somewhat saddened at the fact that Kagome was depressed over something. He wasn't sure why even though it wasn't any of his business. Kyo found out something during the winter break. 'I fell out of love for Tohru-chan, and in love with Kagome-chan.'

"Kyo-kun." He sat up and looked towards Tohru as she climbed up the ladder.

"What's up?" He waved his hand at her. She smiled at him warmly, her usual warmth that always made his heart react. Yet now, he just see it as a friendly smile. She smile like that to everyone. Kyo was sure he had loved her. Her kind heart, warm smile, and strong-willed made him feel such emotion. He wasn't stupid; he also knew that Yuki felt the same. Yet now, it seems he started to see her as a friend and nothing else. It's strange that way.

"Nothing, I just wanted to tell you somthing." She gulped and looked up at him. He smiled and waited. Nothing can go wrong today.

Tohru crawled slowly towards him. He waited patiently for her to say something. "Kyo," she whispered when she was in front of him. She sat next to him. "I-I . . ." She gulped and closed her hand into a fist in front of her chest, her other hand on the roof top. "I always wanted to tell you this, but I was afraid."

"Tell me what?" He asked. He doesn't get it. Why was she so nervous all of a sudden? "Afraid? Is something wrong Tohru? Is someone threatening you?" His eyes furrowed.

The girl shook her head. "I-Iie, it's nothing like that, just that . . .I kept this secret for a long time now, I always wanted to tell you."

He caught a glimpse of violet hair next to the ladder. What ever it is, it must be big since the rat boy was eavesdropping. Tohru whispered something, but he didn't heard her. "Huh?"

She looked at him with this strange look in her eyes. "I love you Kyo." His eyes widen.

'This cannot be happening. Why now?'

He didn't know how to answer. What is he suppose to say, 'I used to love you, but ever since Kagome-chan came, I fell in love with her?' No, that would totally break Tohru. When did Tohru started to develop THOSE kind of feelings for him. He glanced over Tohru's shoulder only to see rat boy's head gone.

"Umm . . .I . . . ." He looked down until his bangs covered his eyes. "I'm sorry Tohru," he whispered hearing a small gasp from Tohru. "I love someone else." He looked at Tohru expectedly, but she just gave him a soft nervous smile.

"I-I understand." She whispered turning from him. He grabbed onto her shoulder. "Y-Yes?" Kyo could hear her voice breaking so he took his hand away.

"We-we're still friends right?" He really hoped so. She was the only one that actually made friends with him in the first place.

Tohru nodded furiously. "O-Of course Ky-Kyo-kun. We'll always stay friends." He looked at her worriedly as she whispered. "And nothing more I'm afraid."

He looked down guilty.

A small sigh came to his lips as he sat on the porch. He looked down on the trail. Looking up, he could see Kagome's chin. Of course, her room was right above his. He looked down at the apple in his hands. Standing up, he walked over to the door and left his room. 'Maybe I should tell her.'

As he closed his shoji door, he was face to face with rat boy. He doesn't know what to say to Yuki. So he said what he usually say. "What? You want to start a fight?"

"Iie," Kyo could see his clenched teeth. "Why?" He looked at Yuki confusion. What's he talking about?

"Huh?"

"Why don't you love Tohru?" He asked. Oh that. Kyo shook his head.

"She's all yours' rat boy." Kyo replied. "I'm not a baka you know, I know how you feel towards Tohru." He said tossing the apple in his hand and catching it again.

Yuki seethed in anger. "Are you saying that you're tossing her aside like an old doll and getting a new one?" The tone of Yuki's voice was one not to reply with.

"Iie! I wouldn't do that!" Kyo protested. "It isn't my fault that I love someone else."

Yuki glared at him. "How can you toss Honda-san aside, and love another?" Yuki narrowed his eyes.

"I'm not tossing her aside. It's just . . ." Kyo looked down at his feet feeling worst that ever. "I can't love her anymore than just a friend or an imoto."

Yuki grabbed on Kyo's neck collar angrily. Kyo looked away from Yuki's eyes. His stomach was really churning. "Your tossing her aside for a tramp you barely know!"

Kyo's eyes became angry. "Kagome's not a tramp!" He slapped his hand over his mouth quickly as his eyes widen.

A crash could be heard to their side. They looked towards the source and their eyes widen. Tohru was right there, wide eyes. "I-I'm sorry. I need to go to my room now." Tear poured from her eyes as she ran up the stairs straight to her room. Soon after, Yuki followed.

End Flashback

Nothing can go wrong my ass! Kyo slammed his fist angrily on the ground, his eyes still closed. How can I hurt Tohru that much?

"K'so!" He screamed.

"Gahh!"

Jeez . . .I finally updated! Oh yeah, I didn't want to continue after the Christmas somewhat episode. (writer's block, lol). I'm hella sorry for the long, long, LONG, LONG update. It was a very. very long wait. I won't be so surprise if you won't review, but PLEASE review!