Ch.9 Half Past Crazy Prt.2

School is dragging by but thank goodness today is our last day. Then two full weeks of freedom.

I have not seen Jake, but then again he did tell me I wouldn't until tomorrow, but I have only talked to him once, and a couple of short text. Charlie has been asking if everything was ok. Honestly, what can I say? I don't know if everything is ok, and with each passing day, I feel him distancing himself from me even more. I couldn't concentrate at all today; by the time lunch rolled around, I was barely holding it together.

I got my tray of food, and sat down. Everyone was laughing and talking about what they were going to be doing over break, all I could think about it impending doom.

"Bella are you ok, you don't look so good," Angela said sitting beside me.

"I'm ok, thanks," I told her. "Are you sure?" "Yea" I said getting up to dump my uneaten tray. I had to get out of there; I could feel the tears starting to fall. I have been able to hold it together until now, but it is just too much. I went to the bathroom so I could hide and let myself cry it out.

I heard the door open, so I made sure my stall was locked and pulled my legs up so no one would see me.

"Bella, are you in here" I heard Angela ask. I debated on whether to answer or not. Finally, I opened my stall and walked out. She just pulled me into a hug. "Bella what's wrong?"

"Oh Ang, its Jake" Did you guys break up?" she asked.

"NO, it's just something is going on and he wont talk to me. It feels like he's pushing me away, and I don't know what to do." I told her, while a fresh batch of traitorous tears fell down my cheeks. "I've barely seen him in the last few weeks, and only a couple of calls and text. He is supposed to come over tomorrow but I just feel like everything is spiraling out of my control.

" Shh, shh.. Bella it is going to be ok. Just talk to Jake when he goes to your house. I'm sure everything will work out the way it's supposed to," she told me, still wrapped in her arms.

"You're right, I just need to make him talk to me, and everything will be fine." I said aloud, but mostly to myself. "Feel better now?" she asked.

"Yea, I do. Thank you Ang. "I told her smiling.

The rest of the day went by and when I got home, I did feel better. I still felt like gloom and doom but at least I had a plan. I would talk to Jake and find out what was going on.

I went to bed , feeling anxious about Jake coming over the next day, but hopeful that we could get back on track and be 'Jake and Bells' again.

I was standing on first beach, waiting for Jake to meet me. I kept looking around but could not see him anywhere. I felt uneasiness in the pit of my stomach. I looked down the beach and saw a figure coming closer, I could not tell who or what it was, and it was still too far away. I started calling Jakes name. Jake, Jake.. Where are you? I was nearing paranoia.

The figure just kept getting closer. Finally, I looked up and saw it was Jacob, my Jake.

"Jake, where have you been, I've been so worried." I tried to walk to him, but I could not move.

So I stood there waiting for Jake to reach me. The closer he got, the more I could see. He was not smiling my smile. He had Sam's mask on his face. He stopped and looked at me, and then he turned around and started walking the way he came. I was calling his name, but he would not turn around, he would not answer me. JAKE! I yelled. He turned to look at me then faded in the air.

In his place stood a solid white wolf, I did not recognize the wolf, but the eye were so full of wisdom. The wolf just stared at me for a long minute then bowed its head and it too disappeared into thin air.

I woke up sweating… again. I have been having this same dream for weeks, but never has a white wolf appeared.

I decided to go downstairs and make some breakfast. Charlie was already sitting at the table drinking his coffee. "Morning Bells" "Morning Dad" I said

"You have plans today?" he asked me, but we both knew he was really asking if I was going to see Jake.

"Yea Jake is coming over sometime today," I told him.

"Good, Good"

"Well I'm working late tonight. Leave a note if you leave ok" "sure dad"

" Oh Bells, if you're going to need anything for the dinner at Billy's better pick it up today, they're calling for sleet tomorrow" he called walking out the door.

Wonderful I thought. .

I decided to text Jake and find out what time he was coming over, so I would know when to leave for the store.

What time R U coming over?-B

Not sure-J

I need to go to the store, so can you give me an idea of wht time? - B

"Ill come now, and go with u-J

Xoxo-B

I went upstairs to get ready, I took time to make sure my clothes matched I don't know why I never had before, it just seemed important. I don't know.

I do need crazy pills I thought for the hundredth time this week.

I had been downstairs for about 10 minutes when I heard the knock at the door, getting up to answer it I felt nervous, which made me feel stupid. It was only Jake.

"Hi Jake" I said standing on my tippy toes to reach his lips. He pecked my lips so lightly I was not sure I felt them. "Come on in" I said standing aside so he could get through the door.

"You want to watch a movie?" I asked him.

"I thought you had to go to the store?" he said looking around, as if he had never been here before.

"Uh I do, but I don't have to go this minute. I want to spend some time with you, I've missed you Jake," I told him.

"Why don't we go to the store, then we can watch a movie when we get back" he said.

"Ok, that works" I grabbed my purse and keys and walked out with Jake.

"We can take the rabbit.' he told me.

The ride to the store was quiet, and not the usual comfortable quiet Jake and I have always enjoyed. I could almost taste the tension in the air; it crackled and popped around us. I was so lost in thought I did not even realize we had parked until Jake nudged me.

I hurried through the store picking up the items I would need and quickly paid.

The drive home was the same, unbearable silence.

Pulling up into my drive, my nerves were shot and I could feel my heart hammering in my chest, and if I could feel it, I knew Jake could hear it.

After putting everything away and getting Jake and me drinks, we went into the living room. "What do you want to watch?" Jake asked.

"Jake I want to talk first ok," I said looking at him. "Alright"

"Please tell me what's going on, it feels like you are trying to distance yourself from me, and I don't know why. What did I do?"

"Bella you didn't do anything. I have just been so busy. Patrols are kicking my ass, and then taking care of my dad, plus school. It is just a lot right now. "He told me.

"Jake you've said all that before, and if you need to spend more time sleeping or at home I get that, but you don't return my phone calls either. How am I supposed to feel?"

"Bella, it's nothing really. Once we catch Victoria everything will be better."

I wanted to believe him so badly.

"Let's just watch a movie before I have to go. Ok?" Jake said looking at me with pleading eyes.

"Yea, sure"

Jake put in some action movie of Charlie's; I am not even sure what. We were sitting on the couch and I had rested my head against his shoulder. We sat like that for a few minutes, and then Jake got up to use the bathroom. When he came back in, he sat down in, he said he had gone. "Jake the movies not even over yet"

"I know, and I'm sorry but I really have to go. I have patrol later with Paul," he told me.

"Will I see you tomorrow?" I asked. "I don't know, I have some last minute stuff to do for my dad, but you and Charlie will be over on Christmas Eve. So I'll see you then"

I walked him to the door; he leaned in and ghosted my lips with a kiss. "Bye Bells"

Then he left. "I love you Jacob," I said after closing the door. Maybe he heard me maybe he did not.