A/N: So what did you all think of the mid-season finale? I can say that I have never been so upset in my entire life. I walked around school today feeling so empty. Like i have never felt like this before and it makes me feel like crap. Anyway this week and next week I am going to be busy with college finals so posting will be scarce. But once it is all over I should be back to posting chapters at my usual rate.

Disclaimer: I don't own Supernatural (though i want to even if it makes me have to much feels)

Natalie was laid out across the hood of the Impala. The three of them had stopped in a small town on their way back to Bobby's after the job in Nebraska. Dean had gone into a restaurant to get food while Sam went off to run an 'errand' that he didn't go to much into detail about. Natalie decided not to try and go with either of the boys. She just wanted a moment to be alone and have a moment of complete isolation. While lying on the hood of the car, Natalie had become completely transfixed on watching the clouds fly by. Watching the clouds made her feel more at eased and only for a brief moment was she able to forget about everything. Forget about her father, her brother, the hunt that they just completed and could just be herself. Natalie allowed her eyes to slowly close and she quickly fell into a sleep. That is when it all started coming back.

Her father's screams. His blood splattering in her face. Begging her brother to turn the car around. The drop in her gut as they faced the ditch. But then something different happened in this frequent nightmare. All she saw was darkness and soon the agonized screams of her father and brother soon began to fill her ears. The pain that resonated from them almost made her deaf. She could hear them calling out to her for help. Natalie tried blocking out the screams and calls, knowing that there was nothing she could do to help them. This was a dream and they were gone. Though when she thought this the screams became louder, and her heart began to beat faster. Her body began to tense and her lungs began to contract making it difficult for her to breathe. A sudden rise of genuine fear filled her. She needed to wake up from this nightmare, she had to wake up. The face of the wild girl from their hunt soon appeared to her...

Natalie's eyes snapped open as she let out a scream. Her eyes rapidly gazed around her surroundings finding herself still lying on the Impala. She sat up and saw that a few people were staring at her, but soon went back to what they were doing. Natalie took a few deep breaths and ran her hand through her hair. She was so exhausted, all she wanted to do was get a few decent hours of sleep. But, even before she went on the hunt she had been having horrible recurring nightmares.

At first it was just about her father, then progressed to reliving what happened to both her father and brother. Now to top it all off, what she experienced on the hunt was beginning to permanently burn into her mind. She pulled her knees to her chest and wrapped her arms around them. She wanted these nightmares to go away, she wanted nothing but peace for her mind. Unfortunately, she knew that wasn't going to happen anytime soon. Her forehead rested against her knees and she gently closed her eyes again, hoping that she wouldn't succumb to her hellish nightmares.

The car suddenly sunk and she tensed slightly. Looking up she saw Sam sitting next to her, a concerned look on his face. "Are you alright Nad?" He could see the heaviness in her eyes and he knew that she was shaken up by the whole hunt back in Nebraska. But, he knew that there was more to this behavior than the hunt. If he were to guess, he would say it had to do with her father and brother. It didn't take a genius to know that.

Natalie gave Sam a small smile and shrugged, "I'm fine I guess. Just haven't had the best sleep since I got out of the hospital." Natalie then uncurled her legs and leaned forward, resting her elbows on the tops of her knees.

Sam casted her a worried glance and nodded his head, "Is there anything you want to talk about? Maybe it can help you in the long run."

Natalie thought her a moment, and pressed her lips together. Natalie knew that she needed to talk to someone, and if that someone wasn't Bobby than it should be Sam and Dean. She had grown close to them and the hunt somehow solidified what relationship she was beginning to form with them. Though, she didn't feel like she could talk to them about anything. Natalie hated even venting to Bobby, she thought of herself as being a whiny little brat. Bobby would always tell her that she had a right to talk if she needed it. Natalie hated being seen as weak and would always try to prove that she was strong. Unfortunately Sam, Dean and Bobby, could see right through that worn down act.

She caught herself in the moment, realizing that she had been silent for quite sometime and Sam was giving her a look. Natalie sighed, "No there is nothing I want to talk about. I'm fine. I just need to take a moment to gather myself and I will be fine."

Sam eyed her skeptically, "I know how you are Nad. You are kind of an easy person to read most of the time."

Natalie scoffed and annoyingly nodded her head, "I guess I need to work on my act more shouldn't I?" Natalie could hear a bit of the venom in her voice and she cringed. She didn't like showing any kind of anger towards Sam, Dean or Bobby. She had done a good job in keeping it all in, but recently she has just been letting her guard down. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to...snap like that."

Sam simply shrugged, "It's okay." The two fell into a comfortable silence, spending the time trying to break the horrible tension with something light, though they both were unsuccessful.

Dean came walking up with a bag of food and three cups of coffee. "Well, I got the food and some of the best coffee in this town." Dean handed Sam and Natalie their own cups and took a seat on the other side of Natalie. Sam handed out the sandwiches and the three of them sat in silence. Natalie was more intent on drinking the coffee to give her more energy than eating the sandwich.

After a few minutes Natalie decided to break the silence, "You know when I was younger and my dad would leave to go on a hunt, I would always beg to go with him. My parents never really explained to me when I was younger what my father did. All I knew was that he traveled across the country. I wanted so badly to go with him and see different places...and to just be with him."

Sam and Dean had focused their attention on Natalie in that moment. Neither really expected her to talk about her family with them. They both knew that it was a subject she liked to avoid as much as possible, and they certainly wouldn't force her to talk about any of it.

"When he was gone my mom would always worry. She tried her best to hide it but I always knew when she was upset. She hated the fact my dad was a hunter and she made sure we didn't have anything to do with that life and my father agreed. So they kept it from the three of us, but Mari and Drew ended up finding out. They wanted to keep me in the dark but I became to curious, so they finally told me. I never cared for the job, I was just always happy when my dad came home...alive. When he was home, even though it usually wasn't for long, I would be happy to have him there for five minutes."

Dean half smiled at this and looked over at her, "He was trying to protect you guys. Most hunters who have families can't do that."

It was fairly true. Hunters who tried to protect their families often fail, resulting in them getting involved in one way or another. Natalie and her family were lucky to have stayed out of it for as long as they did. Dean and Sam were not lucky in that sense of the context. Since day one they both were thrust into this lifestyle, they didn't have the opportunity to make the decision whether they wanted to or not.

"I know he was but, you can never get out of this if you have been apart of it for so long. But, he tried so hard to get out. And everything was going great actually until...until he got killed." Natalie could feel a hard lump begin to grow in her throat. The memory of her dad getting killed was slowly creeping from behind the wall where she had pushed it away.

"I never thought that I would be where I am right now. It's kind of funny how things play out that lead you to what you were supposed to do." Natalie could hear her voice begin to crack and she quickly took another drink of her coffee. She felt to vulnerable now and she hated that feeling. Natalie could feel a chill go down her spine and she hopped off the car and began to pace.

Sam and Dean watched her curiously, though Dean had a slight amused look to him. Natalie stopped pacing when she heard her phone began to go off. Pulling it out she expected it to be Bobby, but to her surprise it was her sister Marina. Natalie gazed at Sam and Dean before hesitantly answering the call.

"Mari?"

There was a silence on the other end of the line and Natalie thought for a second that Mari might have hung up, but her voice soon came through,

"Hey, Nad."

Natalie could feel a small sense of joy being able to hear her sister's voice again. The last time they had talked was when Mari told Natalie that Andrew was dead and that didn't go over so well.

"Hey, so what's up?"

"I wanted...no I needed to call you. I had to make sure that you were alright. I know it has been a few weeks since we last talked but I was just going through with dealing with Andrew's death. Listen, I'm sorry for how I treated the situation that night...I had no right to go off on you like that...I hope you know that I don't blame you, right?" All of these words came flying out of her mouth. By the time she was finished Natalie was to shocked for words. She didn't expect for Mari to apologize that quickly, Natalie didn't know how to feel about it exactly.

Natalie mouth had dropped causing Sam and Dean to mouth the words 'what's wrong?' Natalie held up her finger telling them to hold on, before turning around and walked off to the side.

"Mari, it's fine really. You were dealing with what happened the best way you could. And you not blaming me...it's nice to hear that for once." Natalie heard Marina sigh on the other end, and she could feel a small weight begin to lift from her shoulders.

"I don't blame you and I never did, I hope that you know that Nad." Natalie remained silent on the other end, hoping that Marina would take it as a yes. "So, how are things going over at Bobby's?"

Natalie bit her lip and began to debate whether she should tell Mari about everything that has happened; learning about their family history, and Bobby training her to be a hunter. If Mari had found out about that she would most likely give Bobby a run for his money. But, Natalie didn't want to lie to her sister. After all she was the only sibling she had left.

"Mari, since I left has anything...strange been happening around the house?...anything at all?"

"No, why?"

"Listen Mari, a lot has happened the past few weeks and I learned...quite a bit of things and you need to know what it is."

"Alright, so tell me Nad."

Natalie hesitated, she couldn't tell Mari all of this over the phone. She needed to see her in person to be able to explain it better. "No, the next time I see you...I will tell you everything you need to know. But, until then promise me you will look after yourself and mom. If anything seems out of the ordinary, call me. Do you understand?"

"I-alright, fine. Nad are you alright?"

"I'm fine Mari. I have to go. Remember look out for anything."

"Okay, I got it Nad. I love you."

"Love you too, Mari." With that Natalie hung up the phone and turned back around, making her way towards Sam and Dean.

"So what was that all about?" Dean finally asked.

Natalie walked over to the back car door, "It was Mari and she just wanted to see how I was doing."

Dean nodded and looked back at Sam, "Did you tell her about...any of this?"

Natalie shook her head, her gaze had fallen and she could feel that dark weight coming back again, "I'll tell her when we get back. I didn't think that type of conversation would be suited to have over the phone. Don't you?" Dean smirked before getting into the drivers seat. Natalie took a moment to gather herself before getting into the back of the Impala. As Dean began to drive off, Natalie began to wonder, How the hell am I going to tell Mari all of this?

I know this was a short chapter, but it was sort of a filler. Anyways more angst will be in the upcoming chapters so I hope you are ready! Xx