What Hurts the Most
Author's Note: I just got off work and not very tired right this second so I figured I would add another chapter for you guys. I hope you enjoy because things are fixing to start getting good as I draw closer to the end. Thank you all for your kind words, it makes me feel great to know so many of you have enjoyed this story so far.
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Chapter 9
Bella's POV
"FUCK!" I thought to myself the morning after Jacob and I made love for the first time. I had just gotten out of the shower and was getting ready for school when I noticed it. On my counter was my pill box for my birth control and according to my pills I hadn't remembered to take one since Friday…FRIDAY! Jacob and I made love last night and weren't exactly careful about it and here it is Monday and I am freaking the hell out. "How could I be so caught up that I forgot something so fucking important?" I mumbled to myself. I flushed Friday through Sunday down the toilet and took the one for Monday hoping and praying that it would work. That's about all I could do at that point.
I kept thinking to myself as I continued to get ready…was it worth it? My mind kept replying our night together over and over, the love in his eyes as he made love to me not once but twice. And even when he slipped up, which was partially my fault since he WAS trying to pull out when I decided to shove him in deeper, and was freaking out because of what happened, I could still see the love and devotion in his eyes amongst the fear and anxiety of the situation. I felt his relief when I told him I was on the pill, but FUCK! Why did I have to be so caught up in my world with Jacob to FORGET to take those damn things? But my mind repeated the question…Was it worth it? I could honestly at that point say YES, it was worth it. HE was worth it all. That boy was my entire world, he held my heart and soul in the palm of his hands.
When I finished getting ready I rushed downstairs and grabbed a piece of toast before calling out good bye to my mother. I was running late and Emmett, Edward and Alice had been texting me all morning to try to get me to hurry up so we wouldn't be late for school. They were all out in the car when I ran next door, book bag in one hand and toast in the other.
"Took you long enough, Swan." Emmett said with a grin on his face, his dimples shining.
"I'm sorry, I guess I was just lost in my own little world." I said beaming.
"Well, Well, Well." Alice said "Looks like SOMEONE got her cherry popped last night."
"W-What? How did you-?" I stammered.
"Girl, PLEASE! You are absolutely GLOWING!" she said "So, how was it?"
"It was AMAZING, Ali. Jacob was so passionate and loving all at the same time when we made love…we just couldn't get enough of each other." I said beaming even more.
"As happy as I am that you finally got some, Bella, I really don't want to hear how Black swings it." Emmett said with a laugh.
"Here Here" Edward added with a grin.
"UGH! Fine, Ali we will talk more later when you party pooper brothers aren't around." I said.
"Please, let's…" she said.
We drove across town to Forks High and parked in our usual spot. As usual, Jasper, Rosalie, Peter, Charlotte and Tanya were all waiting when we got there. As soon as I got out of the car Rosalie and Charlotte both commented on my post sex glow. What the hell is the deal with everyone saying I have a "glow"? What the hell did that mean anyway? Did I look different or something? I wasn't sure but as I went to each of my classes a lot of people continued to comment on it, including Angela when we were in our class together.
When I got to Music class with Edward, we weren't any closer to coming up with a song to sing than we had been 4 months ago and it was tearing at us both since the Showcase was about 2 months away. I just hadn't heard a song that inspired me enough and DAMN sure hadn't thought of any lyrics to write. I mean Edward had a killer composition I could EASILY turn into a song but the words left me.
"How are things with Black?" Edward asked when he noticed we were no closer to a song than we had been from the beginning.
"Things are GREAT with Jacob, I just really wish that my dad would back the fuck off." I said "He is always up our ass when he's home, Jacob and I can't actually be TOGETHER when he is there. For some reason, I get the feeling my Dad doesn't like Jake very much and I just don't get WHY!"
That was another thing that had been going on in my world, my father. He was being especially overprotective lately and I couldn't understand why. When Jake was around he stayed up our ass the entire time, but pretended to be polite and everything toward him but as soon as he left we always ended up in an argument about him being "bad news" or about me "spending too much time with that boy". I just didn't get it!
"Well, love, you have to understand that you are his only daughter and I guess he may feel like he is losing you because you are so close to Jacob. He senses that you are drifting away from being 'Daddy's Little Girl' and turning into a young woman in love." Edward said.
"I understand all that and I AM a young woman in love, Jake is my entire world, but Eddie, My dad is my Dad and I will ALWAYS be Daddy's Little Girl until the day I die. I wish he could see that and just let me live my life and make my own mistakes." I said.
"Maybe he will some day, But love you are still young. Don't rush it." he said.
"I know, I know. And I am not trying to, it's just I didn't expect to fall in love with Jacob as quickly as I have. I mean, yeah I told him I loved him last night but he just doesn't know that he is my entire world, my future, my reason for BEING." I said.
"Then maybe you should tell Jake that, and your Dad." Edward said and as usual, he was right. The final bell of the day rang and we headed home for the day. When I got there Jacob was waiting in his Corvette for me.
"Hey there Beautiful, want to go for a ride?" he said with a ride.
"Yeah, let me go put my things away and tell my Mom where I am." I said.
"OK, baby. I will be here when you get back." he said giving me a light peck on the lips before I disappeared into the house. I threw my books in my room and yelled to my mother that I was going out with Jacob before hopping in the car.
We drove a while hand in hand until we arrived in La Push at First Beach, where we first met. Jacob's friends, Quil, Embry and Seth, were all playing around in the water when we arrived. We walked out into the sand hand in hand and when they spotted us they ran over.
"Bella, how the hell have you been?" Embry said giving me a hug and spinning me around.
"Long time no see!" Seth joked.
"Hey Embry, Seth, Quil." I said with a smile giving each of them a hug "I know it's been a while but things have been, well, crazy the past couple of months."
"Tell me about it!" Quil said rolling his eyes.
"It's good to have you back Bella, Jake here NEVER stops talking about you." Embry said.
"All good I hope." I said looking at my man who smiled back at me my big beautiful Jacob smile. That smile made me melt every time I saw it, it also made me want to go take him down the beach a ways and have my way with him. We hung around with the boys for a while and then headed to Sam and Emily's to get ready for the bonfire that night. Sam and Emily were celebrating their engagement.
As we huddled around the bonfire talking, eating and just having a good time that night I kept glancing over at Jacob who had not kept his eyes or his hands off of me all night. With each touch and each look I was wanting him more and more. Jared and Paul started playing some music and people started dancing. Jacob asked me if I wanted to and I happily obliged. We started dancing and grinding on each other and I could feel his erection pressing into my back. I knew then I had to have him. I turned around and whispered in his ear. "I want you so bad right now." He licked his lips and smile that sexy Jacob smile I loved so much and took my hand as we snuck away from the crowd, heading down the beach a ways until we found a spot we were sure no one would see us.
"I didn't know how much longer I could take it baby" I said frantically stripping my clothes off.
"Oh I know, I have wanted you all night, babe." he said doing the same. When we were both completely naked our lips crashed into each other and I pushed him back into the sand so that I could take control. He reached over to his pants and pulled out a little foil package containing a condom and slid it on his massive shaft before our lips crashed together again.
"Babe, are you…"he started to say before I slid him inside of me slamming down on him and making him moan loudly. "Damn, babe!"
I continued to grind and bounce on his massive erection like I had read to do so many times in Cosmo magazine. With every inch I took of him we both moaned louder and louder. I continued to bounce and grind on him as I neared my climax.
"Damn, babe, you keep it up I'm gonna come." Jacob moaned.
"Me too baby, me too." I panted. I continued riding him like a horse until we both hit our peaks at the same time. I arched my back and screamed out his name before collapsing on his chest trying to catch my breath.
"That was…Damn, babe that was amazing!" Jacob said.
"I love you Jacob Black." I said kissing him.
"I love you more Bella Swan." he said kissing me back.
We put our clothes on and headed back toward the party only to hear everyone clapping, whooping and hollering when we came into view. What the hell?
"Way to go man!" Embry said slapping Jacob on the shoulder.
"What are you talking about?" Jacob asked him.
"Dude, we heard you all the way over here!" Quil said. I guess I blushed bright red because they both laughed. We chilled with the boys for a while longer before finally heading home. Jacob walked me to the front door and kissed me good night. And a good night it was.