Lust
By: Demon Hiei's Girl (Demon Usagi)
Chapter 10
Standard Disclaimers Apply
Author's note: Wow, chapter ten already. Exciting, isn't it? So many reviews, though mostly rooting for Hiei, are curious of what's going to become of Keiko. Hm. Well, I guess we'll have to read. On to the story!
I wanted to kiss him so badly. Just kiss him and get it over with. Once I did that, I could move on to better things. After all, it wouldn't be my first kiss. Keiko and I kissed plenty of times. Once, she had to kiss me to bring me back to life! And then she kissed me after I finally returned to her from the Makai. And after that we kissed like it was just a regular, casual thing. Every morning, every night. A peck here or there, it was normal. But for some reason, I couldn't do it to him. He gave up resisting. He was just standing there (with support of the tree, of course), standing there and waiting. Waiting for whatever I decided to do to him.
Part of me enjoyed that he was just...there. There and waiting. But the other half was disappointed in myself for being such a horn dog. And that particular part told me it meant nothing if both didn't participate. I guess that's true. And since I found myself believing it...I stopped. He glanced up at me curiously.
"I'm not going to force you into anything. You realize this." I said, continuing to cup his cheek.
"Not really." he answered, barely audible. "I don't believe you."
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"He told you, huh?" I said, a small...really small...smile on my face. My depressed eyes were probably screwing over my facade.
"Yes!" she smiled. Her gorgeous orbs closed in happy upside down U's. "I probably made him nervous when I hugged him, though."
"Nah, he's such a softy at heart, he probably enjoyed it."
Talking with Yukina both soothed me a little, but also made me more tense. Here I was, talking face to face to Hiei's sister. Sure, I've talked to Yukina before, but this is the first time I've seen her as Hiei's sister. And she knows it. After Hiei and I parted, we walked in opposite directions. I ended up at Genkai's and ended up staying the night. Who knew where he was at?
Yukina looked at me seriously for a moment. Her eyes practically pulsed through me. I cocked an eyebrow, similar to the way Hiei had so many times before.
She stood up from her kneeling position, and wiped away the dust on her kimono hem.
"He lets you get away with it because he likes you, not because he trusts you."
She left the room shortly afterward. I blinked. Was she talking about Hiei? How'd she know that?
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"You're always so distant."
"What?"
"Distant."
I looked at my fiancee confused. We were lying mindlessly on the bed. It was late, and I was too lazy to change into my bed wear, and just kind of...flumped there the way I was. Keiko, with a concerned look, followed me. Her skirt bounced from underneath her, and ruffled all over the place. We we're on our stomachs, staring at each other silently. At least...we were silent.
"Distant? When have I ever been distant?" I asked, pouting.
"Ever since I met you." she whispered. I scoffed at that. But it was true. I never told her anything, except when I told her I was leaving for the makai. And that probably hurt the most. But I came back, didn't I? I groaned, and turned over so I was facing the wall instead of her. She sighed herself, and stood up.
"I'd ask you what happened if I wasn't so sure you wouldn't answer." With that, she left me to sulk.
"I'm confused." I whispered to myself. "Is this lust or love?"
Author's Note: And thus the title. Well I updated, though it is terribly short. Forgive me! (I just emailed my parents a Christmas list! n.n Let's see how this goes over. Lol!) R and R! Reviews are, dare I say, inspirational.