Ok here you go the next installment. Yes it is a long chapter sorry but I do hope you like it. I was just unable to shorten it at all. :) As I felt it needed to be adress at thsi time in the story line.

"How am I going to go about this?" Grace says to herself as she looks over Ana's results thinking about what Ana needs to be given. To help get her back on the right track. She knows it will be a long and slow process but it does need to be done and it can only be done here in the hospital. As she is standing there Carrick has gone into the room.

"Christian, Ana you both awake?" he asks as he sits down on the bed beside them, and the two turn to look at him.

"Ok you two we really need to know the truth about what is going on here. More the truth about where you have been Ana and why?" he asks quietly and watches and Ana turns to look at Christian before turning back to him, she then looks down at her hands.

"Tell him baby." Christian whispers to her, she then turns to look at him and he sees the worry in her eyes. The worry and fear of what his parents might think of her.

"Ana darling I just need to have the correct version of what had you leaving Christian." Carrick asks again.

"I wasn't leaving him." She mangers to say to Carrick. Carrick looks at her he wants to believe her so very much but until he knows what is going on he can't be total sure.

"You're sure about that Ana because there are so many different versions of what happened five weeks ago that I am not unsure of what to believe and as a lawyer I do not like knowing the truth." He says and he sees a look of shock and horror on her face.

"I've been gone over a month, no I haven't it can't have been that long." She starts to rattle off and as she talks it gets louder and she starts to panic. "I've only been gone a couple of weeks. It was only a couple of weeks." She says as Grace enters and moves towards the bed.

"Grace I've not been gone over a month have I?" She asks as she looks at Grace. Grace can see the fear in her eyes.

"Yes darling you have."

"No, no it can't have been, you sure it's been that long, you're sure it's not a few weeks?" Ana asks them all, her voice full of worry.

"Yes we are sure."

"No, no this can't be happening." She says to herself as she gets herself more worked up.

The three try and calm her down but after another ten minutes Ana is still going on about how it can't have been that long since she went away. That Grace has to get a light sedative for her to get her to calm down which in turn caused more issues trying to give it to her that in the end it didn't even work as Ana's own adrenaline counteracted the mild sedative that she was given. After half an hour Carrick and Grace alone with two nurses leave her alone with Christian all hoping that maybe leaving the room and giving her some space might help her in some form.

"How can it be, how can I have lost so much time." She says to herself as Christian holds her unsure of what to say to his wife right. Seeing her so worried about how much time had gone stressing him out as well.

"Baby don't worry about how much time it has been."

"But I was only meant to be gone for a couple of days, which I thought turned into a couple of weeks, why did you leave me there for so long?" She asks him and he looks at her trying to wonder why she thinks he knew where she was.

"Ana baby I had no idea where you were." He says to her. She then looks up at him.

"Christian they told me they rang you and told you where I was."

"No Ana they didn't cause if they had I would have gotten mum and come and gotten you. You should've known that. How many times have I rang mum over something so stupidly small just to make sure, just to easy the worry I have over the three of you." He says to her, wondering who they rang and spoke to that would have approved such a thing without even tell him what was going on.

"They said that you gave them permission to treat me, they said you had approved all of it." She says to him as tears start to fall down her face. They stay curled up in each other's arms and he gently rubs her back allowing her to just cry.

1pm

Grace enters their room with some food that Gail has made up for them.

"Ana, Christian I both need you both to try and drink some of this please. It is chicken broth made up by Gail." She says as she gentle places down to cups with a small amount of broth in it. The two look at Grace and then back at what has been given to them. Christian just pushes it aside, while Ana sniffs it not sure if she should try and drink it or not, the smell being so nice that she decides to take a small sip and see if it stays down.

As the broth reaches her mouth and she takes her sip the liquid is nice and warm, the taste just divine for something as simple as chicken broth. That after a few moments and her tummy staying settle she takes another sip, before long she has drunken what Grace had given her, while Christian didn't touch his, and by the time Ana has finished drinking Christian has raced to the bathroom to start vomiting again.

Grace follows him in.

"Christian you ok."

"Don't bring in food again please." He says to her as he dry reaches over the hand basin.

"Christian both you and Ana need to eat."

"And it's not your stomach that decides to play up just at the smell of food, how many times since I have been here have I told you that I can't eat, that it doesn't stay down; that even the smell of food makes me sick." Angry so evident in his voice as Ana stays on the bed not wanting to move, hoping as long as she stays still she may be able to keep what she has drunk down, it was only a small amount but still quarter of a cup is a lot on a tummy that is able to hold much down. She hears Christian and Grace having a heated argument in the bathroom, that she rolls over onto her side to look out towards the hall way and she sees Taylor and Sawyer on the door guarding their room.

"At least he hasn't fired them." She says quietly.

"He didn't fire anyone sweetie, now we need to talk." Grace says having re-entered the room leaving Christian to wallow in his own angry in the bathroom. She sits down beside Ana and gentle runs her hand up Ana's arm.

"Ana your blood work and tox panel have come back. They show a lot of problems. We would like to be able to help get them back on track but that is only going to work if you are prepared to receive the help that we need to give to you." Grace says to her, total avoiding the word of medication for the time being.

"Does it explain why I seem to think only a few weeks have gone by and not five like you guys say?" Ana says bringing up the earlier conversation.

"No not really Ana. But as one of the doctors treating you I need you to tell me and Dr Jim Brown (Who is entering the room) what has been going on with you."

"Hi Ana, I'm Jim I'll be helping treat you as well as Christian. Now can you tell me what happened at the start? What did you notice when you first became sick." Jim asks as he takes a chair and sits down beside the bed.

"I'm I don't really remember getting sick as such. I just remember waking up one morning hooked up to the same I am now, well it looked the same. And being told that I was not well." She says to them, she doesn't tell them what truly made her sick in the first place as she doesn't want them to think she had tried to kill herself.

"Did they say what was wrong?"

"No not really, I remember them giving all sorts of different things, being sick unable to keep much food down sleeping a lot. I was basically kept in a bed in a room, I would get up and walk around but it would wear me out so I would lay down again. I asked them if they had rung Christian they said they had; they said he approved the treatment plan. Yesterday I overheard one of the nurses talking about Christian and when I heard he was sick and in hospital I had to get out of there. I demanded to come home and after me treating to have the place brought out every one sacked and unable to get another job they brought me here. Maybe I should have done that at the start but I was just…" She stops talking as she sits there thinking, thinking about what had been said when she first woke up, she did demand Christian to come and get her but they told her he had been contacted and he had agreed. Why did I believe them she starts thinking to herself?

She is so away with her own thoughts that she doesn't even notice Christian crawling in to bed beside her and snuggling up behind her.

"Christian you eaten today?" Jim asks and Christian shakes his head. Before talking.

"Nope and I've just had this same discussion with my mother I'm not having it with you." He says.

"Right then you have two choices Christian you eat willing or we insert a feeding tube and we will feed you. We've been giving you meds to help the nausea but without food in your stomach it will not be helping. A few mouths full of some broth will help. Ana made an effort can you?" Jim says hoping that the fact Ana ate might get him to eat, but Christian refuses too even try.

"Ok then Christian if you haven't tried to eat by morning you're having a tube inserted.

"Like hell am I having a tube insert."

"You have no choice Christian. You must remember in a situation like this your mother has the finally say you have legal documents stating this. I'm trying to leave this up to you but you're making it hard Christian."

"Just get Ana better she's more important, this wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for me." He says to them not even thinking about what is coming out of his mouth.

"It wasn't your fault." Ana says as she rolls over.

"Yes it is. If I hadn't been so engrossed with that contract at work, given you more time; the kids more time with me, maybe then you wouldn't have felt the need to go away." He says to her as tears fall down his face.

"And I could have been more understanding about it all instead of saying the things I said to you."

"But you were right. I am a control freak."

"Not as controlling as you were when we first meet baby. You've done so well in letting go of some of that control." She says as she gentle places her hand on his face, as he leans into her touch he closes his eyes. Savouring the feel of her touch on his face. Something he didn't think he would ever get to experience again when she went missing, well he thought she had left as she had said some nasty but true facts to him about himself.

"God I've missed you baby." He says to her as he presses his lips to hers in a gentle caress. Neither takes it any further than a gentle kiss, one showing each other the love they have for each other.

"I should have listened to your mother when she told me your dad was helping you. I shouldn't have just presumed you had gone back to…" She doesn't get any further before he places a finger on her lips silencing her form talking any further.

"Baby how many times do I need to tell you I don't need that shit like that anymore. Not with you, what we do is far more intense, far more pleasurable that anything I did before you came along." He says to her. Repeating words to her that he often has to every so often to reinforce it home to her that she is good enough for him that she is everything he needs. "Ana baby you got to remember you are everything I need. I just wish Elena hadn't planted that stupid thought in your head that you aren't good enough for me that I would get bored with you because it's not turn baby. I love you. You were the first to share my bed well to share a bed with me full stop par my mother of cause. He says with a smirk on his face, causing Ana to put on a small smile. We have so many firsts together Ana, so many. The things I have done with you, experienced with you I have never done or had with anyone else." He lovingly says to her, both forgetting where they are as they talk and who is in the room with them.

"But I came into this with nothing Christian, nothing but my student loans; you wouldn't let me sign anything to protect your wealth." She gets out before he places his finger on her lips again to silence her.

"Ana baby my wealth is nothing without you, nothing at all. Loosing you hurts more than losing my wealth; if it meant having you over money I would choose you and our children any day baby. And anyway you don't have nothing now. Look at what you have done with Grey's Publishing."

"Yea but you gave me that."

"And Elena gave me the capital to start my business, we all have to start somewhere don't we. All I did was buy a company that wasn't doing so well financially, and you baby have done the rest. What you have done with that is amazing, your love of books just shows with how you are not just with your employees but your clients; you keep telling me I could learn a thing or two off you about being nicer. Oh and polite, isn't there some word you keep telling me I need to use more often."

"Three words Christian."

"Three is it oh." He says with a smirk.

"Yes three, please and thank you." She replies back to him.

"Are yes that is right please and thank you. I just wish at times you would stop doubting yourself so much. Realise you are beautiful to me, that I love you for you, that I want no one else and never will. Your it for me baby. Maybe we should tell my parents the real reason behind you going away, though I still have no idea what happened and why you disappears for over four weeks is still beyond me and Taylor."

"No we can't tell them; please Christian they think less of me, they think…" She goes ot keep talking but he places his fingers over her mouth again to stop her from talking.

"Ana baby they love you." His voice full of love.

"Yea right look at what I have pout you through all because I believed something I was told. You say you didn't know what was going on, they said you did. What can I believe in now? What is real and what isn't real anymore. I don't know if I can keep doing this. Keep being confused all the time. Not sure what I'm being told is the truth or lies to keep me happy, to keep me from probing for more information and don't lie you have done it to me before Christian." She says as tears fall down her face.

"Yes I will admit to it but only to keep you and our children safe Ana, sometimes not knowing is easier than knowing. Less stress for you to worry about, but remember any major I do normally give you a brief break down more so when I have to get more security in." he says to her, trying to hit home that he only does these things because he loves her and can't bear the thought of losing her even though he had lost her for several weeks. Had proven to him yet again how deep his feelings go for her, he knew it hurts when they broke up even before they became a couple, and then when she was hurt by Hyde it hurt, but back then they hadn't been together for seven years, and with two children. Not sure the ups and downs that come with married live and that of raising two young children.

"I'm so sorry Christian, so sorry I demanded to get away from you and the children." Ana says as she buries her head in to Christian's chest as more tears fall down her face." Her crying making him cry, crying for her feeling like she does, crying because she feels like it is her fault and crying also because he feels like he has let her down yet again, failed to protect her like he had promised to do. Failed to make sure she was always put first and foremost along with his children. He closes his eyes as he holds her tightly to his chest, rubbing his hand up and down her back like he does with their children when they are upset.

A few hours later they both wake up not realising that they had fallen asleep after their talk.

"Feeling better?" He asks her.

"A little." She replies back as he then gentle places a kiss on her forehead.

"Baby what really made you sick?" Christian askes her. Ana looks up him their eyes meeting with each other.

"Ana please tell me the truth. I could tell by your voice that what you told my mum and Jim wasn't the truth well not fully that you were leaving details out."

"When I was away I asked to be released early so I could come home, they said no so I made myself sick. Hoping that I would be taken to a hospital or you would be rung. What I didn't count on or know was that I would be moved to a different location one that was like a hospital but I wasn't able to get in contact with anyone I asked them several times to ring you and also so I could speak to you but they said that you were busy with work and that you had approved of what they were doing."

"I never heard from them but I will get Taylor to check out if we received any phone calls from anyone regarding you. And when I find out who is behind it they will wish they were dead for it." He says to her anger evident in his voice that someone could treat his wife like they have.

"Christian what happened on Friday to your arms?"

"I don't remember what happened to be honest. One minute I was on the bed with some of our pictures beside me ones that were in glass frames the next I am on the floor the frames and glass broken and all over the place the bedside draws had fallen over as well and some draws pulled out. I remember Taylor and Gail being there and then mum arriving not long later. I have no idea how I got these cuts on my arms." He replies back his voice sounding a take weak at having no control over what had happened that Friday morning in their bedroom. And that scares him even more that he could just black out like that and cause such damage to the tings around him. "I'm not sure what happened and I'm not sure if it will happen again."

"Have you told Grace?" she gentle probes him.

"No." He says as he looks down and away from her face.

"You need to tell her."

"No I don't want any more tests done, I just want to lay here with you in my arms and not move for ever." He says sound like a child who is sulking over something.

"Christian it could be serious, do you want to die from it happening again." She says firmly to him and the thought of him dying and leaving behind his family jolts him, scares the crap out of him, just as much as her leaving them.

"Ok I will tell mum when she comes in next time." He says before going quiet and rolling away from her.

Ana decides to leave him to sulk and slowly gets out of bed, pleased that she was wearing tracksuit pants and a top right now, as she slowly makes her way out of the room and towards the nurses' station where she finds Grace looking over some records.

"Ana sweetie are you ok?" Grace asks her in a worried but also caring voice.

"Yes and no. I feel like I want to vomit and I was thinking maybe I should take something for it, but please no needles, no injections." She pleads with Grace.

"We don't need to inject you to give you something. We have these wafers that you just place in your mouth, under your tongue and they will dissolve. They designed for patients with cancer as it is easy on the stomach and works very well.

"Can you leave it in its packaging and in the box so I can read the information on it and what it says?" She asks quietly a she looks down at her hands that are places on the desk in front of her.

"Of course Ana why don't you come with me and sit over here and we can talk and I can answer any questions you have." Grace says as she gets a nurse to get what is needed.

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