DISCLAIMER- I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT BUT I SURE AS HELL WISH I DID

Chapter Nine

Ella pushed her hair behind her ears and took a deep breath, a habit she'd had since she was little. She let all the demons that she'd run away from come back to haunt her mind now. "My mother was weak when she got pregnant with me and as her pregnancy went on, she became weaker and weaker. Her mother, my grandmother didn't want to lose her, for my mother was her only child, she repeatedly suggested abortion."
"My mother," She continued after taking a shaky breath to keep the tears from coming, "wanted a child of her own. She was afraid of dying without leaving anything important behind. It'd been a lifelong dream of hers to have a baby, even though she -knew having cancer and a baby would not go well together. She wanted to leave a piece of herself behind in this world. She wanted to continue her family because once she died there would be no more Sherwyn's."
Jacob held her tightly, listening intently hanging onto every word that she'd never said before. Ella took another deep breath to herself from crying. "My grandmother didn't approve. My mother's poor body couldn't handle a baby, but yet my mother kept me despite the fact that she was dying slowly. My grandmother did not care about the life of the baby. She never went to any ultrasounds or doctor appointments. She threw away all the ultrasound pictures my mother sent her."

"When my mother's water broke though and she went into labor, my grandmother was there. The birth did not go smoothly. I was a premature baby born at only six months of gestation. They almost proclaimed me stillborn but I finally breathed and begun crying. My mother on the other hand was not as lucky."
"After my birth she was extremely weak. All her normal body processes that you and I take for granted like breathing and eating had to be done for her by machines. Yet, all she ever wanted was to hold me."

"She died only a week after my birth. In her will she left me to my father but my grandmother didn't want that. She blamed him for my mother's death. She blamed me to. She hated Charlie though, for making me."
"So she raised me, constantly reminding me that I had killed my mother. I got perfect grades, I never got in fights. I was on student council, orchestra, choir and I was an honor roll student. Any other parent would kill to have an obedient kid like me. I was never interested in boys because I focused solely on my school work, trying to impress my grandmother."

Jacob hugged her tightly. "So I was your first boyfriend?" He asked.

Ella nodded. "There's just something about you that I can't turn away from." She said and then kissed his cheek.

Jacob smiled as he always did after any kiss. "So, how did you get here?"

"I found my mother's will one day while I was cleaning out the attic. I read it and screamed at my grandmother. All those years, I could've been raised with Bella by Charlie, by a father who loved me instead of by a grandmother who hated me. So I packed my bags, got on a plane and left for Forks because I was supposed to be here all along." Ella answered him. "So, I have never known love, Jacob. My grandmother never once told me she loved me."
"Aww, Ella…" Jacob said sympathetically. He hugged her close to him again. "Well, you have a family here and you always will."
Ella eyed him suspiciously. She took his face in her hands, holding his eyes with her own electrifying and hypnotizing blue ones. "Truly? I always will?" She asked. "Promise me."

Jacob took her hands from his face and placed them on her chest. He, then, leaned in and kissed her deeply. He pulled back and smiled lovingly at her. "Does that answer your question?"

Ella smiled warmly. "I love you." She said and Jacob kissed her again. Those words warmed his heart. It was amazing the power those three little words held.

A Few Months Later

"Now remember Wyatt is still on breast milk, heat it until it's warm and always, always test it on your wrist before you give it to the baby. Shelby can eat anything without bones in it. Just make sure whatever you give her is chopped up in small pieces so that she won't choke on them. And whatever you do, do not five that child any type of sugar. She'll be bouncing off the walls like-"

"An AD/HD kid in a rubber bedroom with a straightjacket on." Jacob and Ella finished.

Ella took her sister's hands in her own. "Bella, your children will be fine, it's me and Jacob for goodness sake!" She said. "Now you know you can trust us." She turned her sister around and with much effort shoved her towards the door. She was only able to do this because Bella let her. "Now you go out and have fun with your husband." She smacked Bella's butt. "OW!" She cried shaking her hand. "God, it's like you're made of concrete!"

Bella smirked. "Pretty much." She said. "Alright, I'm on my way. Remember to call me or Edward if anything goes wrong. The numbers are-"

"ON THE REFRIDGERATOR! For god's sake, Bella go!" Ella snapped shoving her out the door and making sure it was closed and locked she turned back around. "Now we are all going to have fun, you got that?"

Jacob was playing horsie with Shelby. She was repeatedly kicking his sides shouting. "Giddyap, Uncy Jakey!" Ella smiled seeing him, not even wincing. He actually looked like he was enjoying entertaining the little girl. It was kind of a turn on seeing a guy so good with kids.

Wyatt begun to cry, awake from his afternoon nap and now hungry. Ella hurried to his cradle and lifted the four month old baby out. "Hey there honey." She cooed. "I know you're hungry poor baby." She balanced Wyatt on one arm while she heated up a bottle. She tested it on her wrist and…

"OW!" She cried, her eyes tearing up. It burnt her skin.

Jacob had come running as soon as he heard her cry. "What's wrong?" He asked anxiously.

"I burnt my wrist." Ella whined. She was attempting to balance the baby while holding out her very red wrist.

"Aww, you poor baby," Jacob said. He took the baby from her arms and set him in the swinging chair. Wyatt immediately calmed down. He took Ella's wrist gently in his hand. He bent down and kissed it. "It's not a bad burn, sweetie." He wet a paper towel and gently dabbed her wrist. "That feels better?"
Ella nodded. "I could be even better if you kissed my lips." She said.

He smiled and shook his head. "Such an eager, eager girl," He said and leaned in. He kissed her lips gently and wasn't surprised when he felt her tongue sliding along his bottom lip, begging entrance. He welcomed it, surprising her that he was giving her the control. He let go of her wrist and used both hands to cup her face. They continued to kiss until an "Ew" from Shelby reminded them that they weren't alone.

Ella laughed. "What do you mean 'ew'? I'll give you ew!" She attacked the little girl by tickling her and then she blew a raspberry on her stomach. All the while Shelby just giggled hysterically.

Jacob watched them while he retested the milk on his wrist. It wasn't hot but it was just warm enough. "Ella, I don't know how to do this."

Ella put Shelby down and walked over to Jacob. "Do what, Jake?"
"Feed a baby. They are so little and breakable. I don't want to hurt him." Jacob said, actually sounding frightened.

Ella smiled and picked Wyatt up. "Go sit down, hon." She instructed.

Jacob did as she said and he watched her warily. "Ells…" He said worriedly.

"Shh," She said lowering the baby into his arms. "Support his head, make sure he doesn't drink too quickly because he could choke." She handed Jacob the bottle.

"Ella, ugh, you get your way no matter what, don't you?" Jacob said offering the bottle to Wyatt. Wyatt immediately began to drink. He smiled down at the little baby. "Babies are really cute."

Ella smiled at him. "Do you want any of your own?" she asked.

Jacob looked up at her and imagined their future together. Something he did frequently now. He imagined an older Ella, her stomach round and full with his child. A son and then a year or so afterwards a daughter and perhaps two more, one more of each. Jacob was in a long line of ancestors who left money to him. They would be fine with money, actually more than fine. They would never, not once, have to worry about money. She could have as many children as she wanted. He smiled warmly. "Of course I do." He said. 'And I want you to have them.' He thought silently to himself. "Oh he finished, what do I do now?"
"You have to burp him."

"How do I do that?"
Ell shook her head at him and took Wyatt from him. "Men. You don't know anything about babies." She put Wyatt on her shoulder and gently patted his back until the little baby emitted a huge burp. She handed Wyatt back to Jacob. "That is how you burp a baby."

"Smartass." Jacob said, smiling to let her know that he was kidding.

She giggled and smacked his arm playfully. "It's better than being a dumbass." She responded playfully. "Ha! Bet you can't beat that comeback."

Jacob got up and leaned down so that he was eye to eye with Ella. "Oh yes I could." He said.

"Yea, how? Hmm?" Ella challenged.

"I love you." He said and kissed her again. He pulled back with a smile and repeated her phrase but to Ella it sounded sexy. "Beat that one."

Ella grinned. She knew one way to beat that one, but he'd have to wait a while before got to lose this battle. She grinned even wider knowing that he wouldn't mind losing at all.

Three Years Later.

La Push Graduation

Jacob had graduated from La Push High last year but it was Ella he was here for now. Charlie and Billy sat beside him. Bella and Edward and their now three year old son Wyatt, who had just got of his terrible twos, Shelby wasn't easy to control when she was that age. If vampires could get grey hairs, having a two year old Wyatt in the house would've given both Edward and Bella full heads of grey hair. Right now they sat behind Jacob. Wyatt sat in his mother's lap and Shelby, a beauty of only five years of age sat in her father's lap.

The commencement song began to play and Jacob watched eagerly even though he knew it'd be awhile before they called his girlfriend of three years' name. She was a Swan after all.

After the last of the R's were called, Jacob sat on the edge of his seat. After about ten other people, the name he'd been waiting to hear was announced. "Ellabeth Swan."
Ella walked onto the stage, her light brown hair hung around her shoulders in ringlets. Jacob smiled remembering all the profanities she'd said that morning to the curling iron. He remembered going into the bathroom and kissing along her neck until she fussed at him, telling him she had to get ready and that he was being a seductive distraction. He'd laughed then because it was her who was the seductive one, not standing there in her boy shorts and a t-shirt, swearing at a curling iron. She didn't know that she was beautiful even after the countless times Jacob had told her so.

Ella could make anything sexy, even a plain black graduation robe. Ella took the diploma from the principal and shook his hand. She then turned to the crowd, her eyes seeking and finding his. As soon as their eyes connected her face broke into a wide smile which seemed to make her shine. He returned her smile as she switched her tassel to the other side and walked off the stage.

After the Graduation

Ella flung herself into Jacob's arms. "I'm finally done!" She squealed.

Jacob grinned and picked her up and spun her around. She was still little, only having grown to five foot five. He could still spin her around. She giggled. "Put me down."
He did but not before kissing her lips. "Good job, honey!" He said. "I love you."

Ella reached up and brushed her fingers against his cheek. "I love you more, always will."

Shelby and Wyatt got to Ella before anyone else could. "Here are my two favorite munchkins!" She said squatting down to hug them both.

"Auntie! Auntie! Daddy and I made you a cake today!" Shelby said excitedly.

Ella smiled. "Well, I hope it tastes as sweet as you are!" She said and kissed Shelby's cheek. She picked up Wyatt. "And what about you little man? What did you do exciting today?"
"I eated a bug!" Wyatt said as if it were the most amazing thing since sliced bread.

Ella laughed. "Well that's a good source of protein!" She smiled when she saw Bella and Edward running over, trying not to go too fast so that the humans didn't detect them even though there were more than enough werewolves around that had already detected them. Ever since Jacob had imprinted with Ella though, all the wolves tolerated having Bella and Edward in their territory. Sam had long since lost alpha to Jacob. So it was Jacob's say on the rules now.

"Did you hear that mommy and daddy?" Ella said. "Wyatt ate a bug!"

Bella smiled strained. "Oh did he?"

"He thinks it's an amazing accomplishment." Jacob said smiling.

Edward took his son from Ella. He shook his head at him. "He's a boy." He said simply. "There's nothing I can say." He smiled at his son who was staring pointing at random objects, just to have something to do to entertain himself. "He's my baby; he can get away with anything."
Bella slapped Edward's shoulder. "When Shelby ate a bug, you spanked her."
Ella winced thinking about those concrete hands. Edward grinned reading her mind. He pulled close to her so only she, Jacob and Bella could hear him. "Its easier said than done to be a vampire father and spank your human child. You have to be incredibly gentle." He said. "I was too afraid of hurting her that they were hardly more than love taps."

Ella's Graduation Party

It really wasn't a big party. The entire wolf clan was invited. Otis, now a three year old fully grown dog, danced around Shelby and Wyatt.

Ella and Jacob stood on the side with Quil and Embry. "I heard you got him neutered." Embry said.

"Jacob or the dog?" Quil asked.

"Ha. You're hilarious." Ella said sarcastically pushing Quil's shoulder. "I got Otis neutered. Jacob put up a huge fuss about it. In the end, though, he agreed that Otis was my dog and that the decision was mine. So, I got him neutered."

"She's a horrible person isn't she?" Jacob said grinning teasingly at Ella.

"You'd better watch yourself Jacob Black or I'll get you neutered next!" Ella said threateningly.

"Oh no you won't." Jacob said.

"How do you figure?" Ella asked raising her eyebrows and folding her arms. She was trying to look tough and Jacob found that irresistibly cute. He gently tipped her chin up and kissed her lips lightly.

"Because you love me, that's how I figure." Jacob said, ignoring the 'aww's coming from Quil and Embry.

Ella got up on her tiptoes and kissed him again. "Well you got me there." She hugged his waist. Jacob put his arms around her and kissed the top of her head wishing he could hold her this way forever.

About two hours later

The graduation party ended slowly. One by one each of the sleepy wolves hugged Ella and left. She got congratulations by the dozens. Eventually all it was down to were Bella, Edward, Shelby and Wyatt. The fathers had left because they couldn't deal with so many hormonal unruly teenagers in one place. Bella and Edward left after Wyatt began to get fussy. Ella reveled at the way Bella had with her children. Wyatt began to cry about virtually nothing and Bella merely scooped him up and he quieted instantly. He put his thumb in his mouth and laid his head against her shoulder and relaxed while Bella kissed away the tears.

Edward too had a gift with children. He had a touch that put either child to sleep. Shelby was curled up in his arms, sleeping like a rock.

"We should be going." Bella said. She gave Ella a one armed hug. "Congratulations, hon."

Ella smiled. "Thanks, sis."

Then Edward came up. "My arms are a little full." He said and leaned forward and gently kissed her cheek. "Congratulations!" He said. "Don't forget to come and visit every now and then."
Ella watched as they left. She turned to Jacob and smiled. "We've got the house all to ourselves." She said taking his hands in hers. "What do you want to do?"

Jacob sighed finally letting Ella see his pain. "You're leaving in three days; I just want to hold you and never let you go." He said looking down at her, tears making his eyes shine.

Ella reached up to brush his cheek. "Jacob…"

"Ella, promise me you won't fall in love. Promise me because I can't live without you. Once you imprint you can't tale it back and I would never want to because I love you Ella." Jacob said. "This is going to be hard but an imprint can survive anything."

Jacob didn't realize it but Ella was leading him to the bedroom. She closed the door. "Jacob Black, I will always, always love you." She said getting on her tiptoes to kiss him. "Tonight I intend to give you a part of me that I can't get back either and I won't want to take it back either." She said.

"Ella do you mean…" Jacob asked trailing off because he was too afraid of pressuring her.

Ella took his face in her hands and forced him to look her in the eye. The sincereness and perpetual love he saw in those eyes that night, he'd never forget. "Yes, Jacob, please make love to me."
The words themselves stirred a need inside Jacob. A trickle of desire ran through him as her hands unbuttoned his shirt. She ran them up his chest; those tiny hands had such amazing power. They could bring that huge werewolf to his knees. "Ella…" He said again, his voice pleading.

Ella put her fingers to his lips. "Hush, Jacob, I love you and-"

"I love you too." Jacob interrupted.

"Shut up and let me talk." Ella said. "I love you and I want to give this to you! For once just close your eyes and jump!" She pushed him gently but he let himself fall on the bed.

"Ok," He said all too eagerly. Ella straddled his waist and began kissing down his neck. She felt his reaction and grinned. "I'm better at this than I thought." She reached for his pants but quicker than her eye could catch Jacob had her underneath him.

"Uh-uh." He scolded. "I get to take everything off of you first." Jacob said, running kisses up and down her neck to distract her while he ripped her shirt off. He looked at her top half, clad in only a pretty bra. "Sorry, honey, I couldn't help myself."
"I hated that shirt anyway." She said breathlessly as she felt his hands go to the clasp of her bra. He rid her of that too and gently cupped her breasts flicking his thumb lightly over it. He bent down and kissed her again. Somewhere in between, Jacob rid her of the rest of her clothing without her even noticing but she gasped when she felt his finger slip inside her, testing her untried opening. He continued the gentle and intimate caress that had Ella's back arching until she couldn't take it any more. "Jacob…Jacob. I want you inside me…please!" She begged.

Jacob wasted no time in getting the rest of his clothes off. He paused before her and Ella took that chance to violate him with her eyes. He was already hard for her. "Ella, it will hurt."
"Jacob, I knew it wouldn't tickle. Please, I want this, I want you inside me." She begged.

Jacob knelt on the bed in front of her. Gently, he nudged her legs apart. He kissed her lips, inching his tongue in her mouth, trying to distract her from the pain that was soon to come. He entered her as gently as he could.

Tears stung Ella's eyes as the pain set in. She bit her lip. Jacob kissed her repeatedly. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" He said anxiously.

Ella smiled. "You will be if you don't keep going."

Jacob grinned back deviously. Gently he pulled back and thrust into her.

And you can guess the rest.

The Next Morning

Jacob and Ella were curled around each other. Ella was playing with his hair. "Hey Jacob?" She asked.

He opened his eyes and smiled at her. His face, the way he looked at her, screamed "I will love you perpetually." He kissed her forehead. "Yea, baby?"
"Do you remember that day when we babysat Wyatt and Shelby together?"
Jacob narrowed his eyes. "Yes, what about it, love?"
"Do you remember that game we were playing, how you said 'beat that' after you said 'I love you'? Well, Jacob…" She smiled deviously. "I made last night happen." Her smile grew even wider as she paused.

"Beat that, Jacob."

Author's little corner

I'm sorry this chapter took so long; I tried to make it amazing since I had written three tiny chapters in a row. Yes, I had to change the rating to mature. For OBVIOUS reasons. I will get the prologue up ASAP. It's already written just not typed. PLEASE LEAVE ME REVIEWS!!! I love them!!! I love hearing what my readers have to say!