"Maybe we should get her to a hospital" I heard someone saying.

"No Sammy I say we call Cas"

I opened my eyes

"Sarah" Dean looked down at me and it made me nervous how concerned he looked

"What are you guys doing in my room?"

"You weren't answering so I picked the lock" Dean told me

"Hey Sarah" Sam stood behind him

"Hey" I tried to smile but even that felt too draining "nice to have you back" I told him

"Thanks"

"You shouldn't move" Dean said as I struggled to get up but fell back down onto the bed again.

"What happened?" I asked

"That's what we want to know" Dean asked

"Sarah, what's the last thing you remember?" Sam asked me

"I was walking back to the motel and someone was following me"

"Who? Or what?" Dean asked

"I don't know, I was scared" I admitted "and then I was here and everything was spinning and my head hurt"

"Cas said she might be able to use a bit of angel mojo sometimes" Dean told Sam

"But it doesn't have this effect on Cas" Sam argued

"Well I don't know" Dean said "maybe it's different for her"

"Guys I'm still here" I reminded them

"Yeah Sorry" Dean said "I'm going to call Cas because me and Sam, we've got nothing"

He left the room with his cellphone

"I am glad you're back" I told Sam "Dean missed you although he'll never admit it"

"Thanks" he said "So...you and Cas huh?"

"Yeah me and Cas"

"Sorry I just can't imagine it"

I nodded "all I know is I'm a better person when I'm with him"

"You weren't that bad before"

"I didn't feel like I was that good either but I feel like I can be now"

"Look at me" he told me "I'm a demon blood junkie who started the apocalypse, So let me know if you can beat that and we'll talk about you not been so good"

"Sam you didn't mean..." I began but Dean and Cas entered the room and I stopped mid sentence

"Sarah are you OK?" Cas came over and sat on the bed next to me

I didn't know which was worse, the fact that I didn't understand what was wrong with me or how concerned everyone was, it was starting to scare me.

"I'm fine" I lied

"I've been looking into your life"

"Erm ok Cas" I tried to joke "you know in the normal world that's called stalking"

"I found at least 15 occurrences of you displaying angelic powers that humans shouldn't have access to"

"But you said I might do that" I argued "because I'm a fallen right?"

"I meant two maybe three times in a lifetime, maybe a little more for you because hunting puts you in harms way a lot of the time but even so that's a lot, not to mention there's another 10 possible occurrences but I couldn't substantiate those"

"What does that mean in plain English Cas?" Dean interrupted

"I'm sorry he told me

"What?"

"It means that as erratic as your powers may be you're displaying them a lot more than you should be and it's becoming more regular but humans were never meant to have to that kind of power. Your body can't handle it"

"Are you saying this could kill me?" I asked

"I'm afraid so" Cas told me as he took hold of my hand.

I''d never thought much about dying which might sound strange considering what I do but I've always just thought of it as something inevitable and not dwelled on it for too long. I thought maybe I'd be scared and I admit I was but the first thing that popped into my head was that Cas looked so sad as though if puppy had just died or something. If ever I needed any confirmation that he cared about me, this was it.. So that's when I decided I was going to fight this every step of the way for his sake.

"Hey" I began "Don't look so sad "I have no intention of dying any time soon, we'll find a way round this. I mean I've seen all kinds of things that should have been impossible and it's taught be that there's no such thing as impossible"

He at least looked half convinced so I guessed that was a start

"Right"Dean nodded "we'll find something"

Cas insisted I rested for a few days but I managed to convince Dean and Sam to go on a hunt without me after Cas promised he would stay with me.

He only left my side to angel shimmy his way to a café I'd visited while on holiday in the UK where the food had been amazing and he was back within 20 minutes with his arms full of food

"When I said I was hungry I didn't mean that.." I began

"I know you said you liked that café" Cas told me "but I didn't know what you wanted so I bought three different types of burger, some fries, a selection of fried meats and something called toad in the hole but the lady assured me there was no real toad involved"

I smiled as he lay the food down on the table besides my bed

"Thank you" I told him as I realised I was in serious danger of falling in love with him "You're so good to me"

"I just want you OK" he told me

"Hey" I'm better than OK" I said as I kissed him gently on the lips "I've got all my favourite foods and you're here. It couldn't be better"