When Eddie got back, Hannah was sitting with Janet on the couch so he decided he would leave them be. Hannah insisted she had to pick up Sam and that he should stay. Janet didn't seem to be interested in her food and just kind of sat twirling it with her fork. "I thought that was your favorite" he asked "It is, I'm just not very hungry" she replied "The doctor said you should be in bed" he said as he tried to get her to go but it was obvious that she wasn't budging. "I would have told you if I had known" she said in a soft voice
"I know, so why didn't you call me last night" he asked
"Hannah told me how hard it was for you waiting until Sam was born to know, Even though it wasn't likely because you used protection, she said you were still a mess.I was afriad you wouldn't believe the baby was yours, I couldn't put you through that again" She was ashamed of all the hurt her actions had already brought.They sat is slience for several minutes beforeshe began to speak agian.
"I'm sorry, Eddie I never thought we would..." she paused trying to find the words
"make a baby" he said staring at his plate"we talked about the possibility when we decided not to use condoms anymore, I knew the pills weren't 100 percent,but I was willing to take that chance" he said
"The last time we made love you were already pregnant with my baby," he said mostly talking to his self emphasing the my and still a little in shock.
"yes, your's" she replied in defense to his tone
"You don't have to say it like having my baby would be the worst thing in the world" Eddie replied a little snippy and hurt
"Eddie you know I don't feel that way" and her eyes began to fill and he could tell she felt attacked and he knew she wasn't in any condition to argue. As much as he sometimes wanted to hurt her he never would have wantedit to bein this way
"How do we go from blissfully happy about to find out we're having a baby to ..." He cut his self short he couldn't muster the ability to speak the words he was so angry. Every time he spokeit was near tortue knowing he was in the same room as the love of his life that stomped his heart.
"Were you happy, Eddie did we really make love or were we just having fun, you never tell me what your thinking" she asked but he didn't answer. It was obvious that she was suffering from physical and emotional exhaustion and not up to the conversation. He was looking her dead in the eye and continued to do so for serveral minutes befoe saying:
"I think you would have been a great mom" Eddie said as he took her plate and laid her head in his lap. He sliped out once she fell asleep. They had managed to be civil long enough to help each other through the next couple of day's.