The scars from within – Chapter 10
The Finale
Sam's POV – The night of her first show
God, I'm nervous why am I nervous? Oh, because this is different to the pubs in it? I was wearing my black maid-ish dress with black knee-high Converse, my hair all big but not tarty.
"Just be yourself, they'll adore you!" Danny assured and gave me one last bear hug before I went on. The others hugged me too.
"Your turn!" The stage director said. I nodded, put me earplugs in and walked onto loud screams.
"Well hello there London!" I shouted into the mike. They all screamed. Maybe this won't be too bad after all.
"The name is Sam Knight." I said curtseying. "And the first song I'm gonna sing is by a little known artist called Kimbra hope y'all like it." Good Intent started playing and I started singing. As ya do.
You heard the crickets of the early eve
They lurk around the opening in two's & three's
Clementine told you not to move with the breeze
I'll take you down to places where we dare not speak
The red light in the doorway says she's armed
But boy go try your luck and you might get pass
Step into the dwelling of the liger's mouth
Peer into the panic for a kick and swell
You know you shouldn't be there but it's way past bed
There's comfort in the fingers of your good intent
You know you shouldn't be there but your money's all spent
You've got your reputation and your good intent
Your good intent
Out to feed that habit when you've sowed that seed
Nothing made you feel out of the ordinary
But the air turns sombre and the night took heed
Took you on a waltz of hypocrisy
She broke your bones, now you're lying in the dirt
The shadow of a hunter under your torture
It's not enough to say, it's not what's in your heart
You've tainted every moment till death do we part
I know you didn't mean it, boy you meant so well
The pennies are cascading down your wishing well
I know you didn't mean it when you counted to ten
You're slipping through the fingers of your good intent
I know you didn't mean it, though you meant so well
The pennies are cascading down your wishing well
I know you didn't mean it when you counted to ten
You got your reputation and your good intent
Such a good intent
It's not enough to hope for the best
It's not enough to lie there on a brace
The liger's on the prowl now you've pulled its strings
One false move and soon you're playing dice for a
So the next song was by Ke$ha and it was called Blind. I've never said this but Halley Williams is the energy I wanted to give so I made that happen. So by the end of it all I was dripping with sweat. "The next song involves McFly come on out boys!" I said as they came in.
"Do you'se know the rap for 'Like Toy Soldiers'?" I asked them.
"Yeah!" They all said in unison.
"There ya go! I'll sing the chorus you'se do the rap." I said grinning.
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down...
[Sam]
Step by step, heart to heart, left right left
We all fall down like toy soldiers
Bit by bit, torn apart, we never win
But the battle wages on for toy soldiers
[McFly]
I'm supposed to be the soldier who never blows his composure
Even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders
I am never supposed to show it, my crew ain't supposed to know it
Even if it means goin' toe to toe with a Benzino it don't matter
I'd never drag them in battles that I can handle unless I absolutely have to
I'm supposed to set an example
I need to be the leader, my crew looks for me to guide 'em
If some shit ever just pop off, I'm supposed to be beside 'em
Now Ja said "I tried to squash it, it was too late to stop it"
There's a certain line you just don't cross and he crossed it
I heard him say Hailie's name on a song and I just lost it
It was crazy, this shit be way beyond some Jay-z and Nas shit
And even though the battle was won, I feel like we lost it
I spent too much energy on it, honestly I'm exhausted
And I'm so caught in it I almost feel I'm the one who caused it
This ain't what I'm in hip-hop for, it's not why I got in it
That was never my object for someone to get killed
Why would I wanna destroy something I help build
It wasn't my intentions, my intentions was good
I went through my whole career without ever mentionin' (?)
Now it's just out of respect for not runnin' my mouth
And talkin' about something that I knew nothing about
Plus Dre told me stay out, this just wasn't my beef
So I did, I just fell back, watched and gritted my teeth
While he's all over t.v. down talkin' a man who literally saved my life
Like fuck it i understand this is business
And this shit just isn't none of my business
But still knowin' this shit could pop off at any minute cuz
[Sam]
[McFly]
There used to be a time when you could just say a rhyme
And wouldn't have to worry about one of your people dyin'
But now it's elevated cuz once you put someone's kids in it
The shit gets escalated, it ain't just words no more is it?
It's a different ball game, callin' names and you ain't just rappin'
We actually tried to stop the 50 and Ja beef from happenin'
Me and Dre had sat with him, kicked it and had a chat with him
And asked him not to start it he wasn't gonna go after him
Until Ja started yappin' in magazines how we stabbed him
Fuck it 50 smash 'em, mash 'em and let him have it
Meanwhile my attention is pullin' in other directions
Some receptionist at The Source who answers phones at his desk
Has an erection for me and thinks that I'll be his ressurection
Tries to blow the dust off his mic and make a new record
But now he's fucked the game up cuz one of the ways I came up
Was through that publication the same one that made me famous
Now the owner of it has got a grudge against me for nothin'
Well fuck it, that mutherfucker can get it too, fuck him then
But I'm so busy being pissed off I don't stop to think
That we just inherited 50's beef with Murder Inc.
And he's inherited mine which is fine ain't like either of us mind
We still have soldiers that's on the front line
That's willing to die for us as soon as we give the orders
Never to extort us, strictly to show they support us
We'll maybe shout 'em out in a rap or up in a chorus
To show them we love 'em back and let 'em know how important it is
To have run ya nav and who sulked us up in our corners
Their loyalty to us is worth more than any award is
But I ain't tryna have none of my people hurt and murdered
There ain't words that I can't think of a perfecter way to word it
Then to just say that I love ya'll too much to see the virdict
I'll walk away from it all before I let it go any further
But don't get it twisted, it's not a plea that I'm coppin'
I'm just willin' to be the bigger man
If ya'll can quit poppin' off at your jaws with the knockin'
Cuz frankly I'm sick of talkin'
I'm not gonna let someone elses coffin rest on my conscience cuz
[Sam]
"Thank you for this and that's it from me so goodbye!" I saluted a two fingered way and walked off the stage with the boys.
"That was hard, but awesome!" I said getting a towel.
"You were brilliant!" Danny said. I blushed.
"Thank you." I said flushed. The others awkwardly left us alone.
"Um. You looked incredibly out there. Not like you never d-" I cut Danny off by kissing him on the lips. He got the idea and we started kissing passionately. We broke apart and even though I started it, I was more shocked.
"I love you." He said. I pulled him into a huge hug and said,
"I love you too. Wait are we?"
"Yes. If that's OK!" I grinned and nodded at his answer.
Best day ever
XxX
(A/N: That's the end of that then. Don't worry I am making a new story but it'll take a while to actually write it. There may be some one-shots coming your way! I'm thinking of one right now... Xx)