Chapter 10 Howling Winds

Clarke POV

Things have been so strange, they have been so strange. Ever since that family dinner, nothing has quite been the same. Bellamy is more cold and detached and no matter how much he hides behind that warm smile I know that there is something wrong.

I can tell because of his eyes they are distant and lost in thought all the time. Every once in a while I would see his make slip only for a second. Then it's like it never happened joy beings to fill his eyes as he speaks about the baby.

As if a moment ago all that despair that seemed to be wracking his body is gone and it's not just him. Octavia walks around angry her shoulders are thrown back and her head it titled high. Like she is the greatest thing to happen to earth and I get the confidence.

She is a badass warrior but there is something about her eyes. They blaze defiantly like despite all the odds she made it. Kinda like a silent fuck you. Even Kane is off. But unlike his children, he seems to be showing his emotions on his sleeve.

"You ready?" Bellamy cold voice shook me out of my thoughts. As he crept behind me his boots not even making the slightest of sounds as he walked next to me. The cold wind howling and ripping through my hair.

As this awful ear-piercing wail filled my ears as the wind began to pick up. While the sun shined over us. The pale blue light not even offering the slightest bit of warmth. Winter is coming soon and we aren't even the slightest bit ready.

With all this family drama we have hardly talked about plans for what we are going to do. We have plenty of food storage but once the cold really sets in there is no way that we are going to be able to get to it.

"What's wrong?" Bellamy's voice echoed in my head as I looked up. A little tick off as anger warmed me. Why the hell should I tell him anything. He has been the one lying and refusing to tell me what's wrong and I am supposed to be what. An open book for him to read whenever he gets bored of throwing his own little pity party.

I could feel my brows furrowing together as I looked up with an angry sneer plaster on my face he really had some nerve staring at me with those cunning and deceiving eyes. This stupid look plastered on his face when he noticed I am angry.

"Nothing is wrong now let's go we have to get going to the meeting." I picked up my pace from a leisure stroll to a brisk walk. At this point, I am all but running from Bellamy and his problems. I'm his wife, aren't I? Yet he can't even trust me to tell me what is bugging him.

I watched as the large wood building came into view. Usually, on a good day, I would see maybe 1 or 2 people standing out in front of the building needing something. But ever since the temperature started to drop I have seen less and fewer people around here. Sometimes I find it hard to believe that there are people even living here.

But I counted to walk towards the front door taking it in long strides as I felt movement behind me. I had to assume that it was my so-called husband because there is no way that I am looking back. If I looked back then it would look like I am losing this fight which I know sounds so stupid but he is getting on my last nerve.

When I looked up there was the door greeting me, the deep wooden handle looked welcoming but I knew that the moment that I touched it is going to force a thousand chills down my spine. But I bit the bullet and opened the door in time to be greeted with some heat. Not much but enough to tell me that there is a fire going on somewhere in the building.

I walked further into the building as I heard the door slam with a final thud behind me. As I pivoted on my heels I could see Bellamy standing here. His deep brown curls flipped gently over his eyes. But I could see if he was miles away probably thinking about our problem or his own problems. But at this moment he needs to be thinking about the meeting and what he is going to say when they ask him if he found a solution to our problems. I know that I haven't.

The most that I could do was give basic first aid class to everyone and give them each an equal ration of supply for when the cold sets in. It's not like they will be able to go to the infirmary if they cut themselves are starting to get sick. Man, this whole coldest winter ever is really going to suck how is anyone supposed to survive this.

A spike of worry filled chest as that thought directed into my mind if adults can't survive this winter how will a newborn baby. My chest started to heave heavily as my mind began to race. "Calm down he will be found and so will you" As if he was reading my mind Bellamy place a gentle hand on the small of my back as he rubbed in soothing circles.

Making me forget my panic and worry just for a moment. But all that slipped away the money that I walked into the meeting room. Sitting around the table each of them with their own grim expression. John looked at us like fml we are so screwed. Don't even get me started on Robin.

Hopeless wouldn't begin to explain her facial expression I'm guessing that none of them came up with a solution. "What with all the grim faces" Bellamy smug tone filled the silence chasing away some of their doubts as they lifted their heads.

Even I'm curious about what the hell he was talking about there is no way that he found a way to save us right? I shifted to look at Bellamy his eyes filled with pride as he spoke in a cool voice. "I found a way to let us move around without freezing. You are all welcome."