Once again, I find myself trying to be okay with the fact that we're just friends, but then you grab my hand and then, well, I'm not okay, I'm floating.

Weeks passed by, and summer was slowly coming to end, Mitchie's relationship with Shane progressed. The nights were filled with watching as Mitchie walked across the street and only through the window could Alex see her. Other times she would sit on the porch and talk on her cell phone with Shane. But at the end of night she found her way to the terrace and sat next to Alex, niether of them would speak, and now the silence is all they have.

Just as tonight, she sat on the terrace watching Mitchie return from across the street. And just as any other night she found herself crying over something she could never have as her's. She couldn't stay positive at the thought of Mitchie with Shane, and she didn't think she could take the silence any longer. Alex thought and thought, and came the conclusion that she wouldn't listen to the silence anymore.

Mitchie sat next to the younger girl swinging her feet off the ledge. Alex waits for her to say something, she doesn't though. It cause her to squeeze her hands in a fist, her knuckles turn white as her angry rises. Maybe she doesn't have a right to be mad, or maybe she does, she doesn't care either way.

"Why don't you ever talk about it?" Alex whispers harshly. She wants answers, and this may be the only way she gets them. She waits and seconds pass like minutes.

"I don't know." Is the only reply she gets.

"Don't lie." Alex's voice is harder then before as she looks away the city street below, and towards her friend. "I know there is a reason why you won't talk to me about it, you won't talk to me at all."

Mitchie sighs. "Because talking about it won't do any good. All it does is hurt you more."

The younger girl laughs, "Yeah, 'cause thats whats hurting me the most. Not the fact that your making out with my brother every night. That you spend more time with him then me, and the whole point of this summer was to visit me. Yeah I'm hurt because I don't want to talk about my feeling for you!" The saracasm in Alex's voice makes Mitchie flinch.

"I'm sorry.."

"I know." Her voice is back to a whisper as she once again find the city street to be so interesting.

"I want to talk it, but I don't know how. I don't know what to say, I'm sorry."

The silence finds them once again, and Alex can almost hear the time tick away like the hands of a clock Its all they know now, and it's only getting harder to be who they were before, or who they want to be.

"Start at the beginning." Alex mumbles looking at her brunette friend out the corner of her eye.

"Huh?" Mitch turns her head, as Alex looks away.

"You said you don't know how to talk about it, so start at the beginning. What was your first thought when I told you that I felt something for you." Alex isn't sure where she's going with this. She just wants to her Mitchie's voice.

Mitchie rest her weight on her hands as she begans to speak. "I guess my first thought was wow. Just wow. I didn't know what to think, I mean its not everyday your best friend tells you that she likes you. And then I thought about the pool, and how I kissed you. And how much you mean to me, that I never expected that you would like me in such a way."

"And then I thought about Justin. I thought about how much he liked me, and that he would make this all better-"

'How?" Alex cuts her friend off in confusion.

"Cause if I dated him, then everything would go back to normal. You would get over me and then we would stay best friends. Then I started to like him, and I found out he's a great guy."

Alex squeezes her hands again, she doesn't want to talk about her brother. "Thats why I didn't want to talk about your feeling for me, 'cause I thought maybe if we avoid them then you would start to get over me. Or realize that you don't like me.."

"That makes no sense." Alex shakes her head looking at her best friend.

Mitchie chuckles meeting Alex's eyes. "I know. I just thought it would help but it doesn't...I am really sorry. I never wanted to hurt. I still don't, its just hard talk about. I wish this was easier, that you were happier."

"Me too, but its life and I guess heartbreak is bound to happen sooner or later right? I don't know if I'll ever get over you, but I don't want to lose you either way. And I feel that I am..that I'm losing you to him." Alex looks away as tears build in her eyes. It was harder to voice her fears then she thought.

Mitchie wraps a hand around Alex's squeezing gently. "You know you will never lose me. I was your best friend long before Justin, and that wont change.I love you in the best friend in the whole wide world way."

Alex smiles, laughing softly at the older girls words. "Promise?"

"Promise." Mitchie pulls Alex into a hug, carefully of swaying to much on the ledge. "Now lets go in and get some sleep before your parents find us out here."

Alex nods following Mitchie back into the house and up to the room. Niether bother to change since their in comfortable clothes, instead they find their way to the bed. They wrap their arms around eachother, as Alex curls in to ball rest her head on Mitchie chest.

She listens to the her heartbeat, and the feel of the rise and fall of the girls chest slowly brings sleep. "Mitchie?"

"Yeah?" She whispers into the dark looking down at her friend. The only light in the room comes from the outside world, the one they want to block out if only for right now.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

Alex searches the older girls eyes. "No I mean like I think I'm in love with you. Like more think a best friend."

"I know." She closes her eyes, ending the converstation as sleep finally finds the both of them.

Alex's last thougt is of how much she loves the sound of Mitchie's heartbeat.

I'm back..kinda, hopefully. I'm sorry for the long wait between my last update and now. Just so much going on, but I'm trying to get back into writing more, I apologize if this sucks, cause it feels like forever since the last time I wrote. Sorry this isn't proof read, I may re-read it tomorrow but for now, Thank you to everyone that reviewed the last chaper, and please reveiw these one and tell me what you think. :)