Hi peoples! I'm really happy because today is DOS Day! For those who don't know what DOS Day is, I will explain.
DOS stands for Day of Silence. It is an organization to support lesbians, gays, bisexuals, transsexuals and their allies. In other words, we're trying to stop people from saying, "That's so gay!" I for one, am so sick of people saying that. And apparently so is my school because more than half of the district joined the group.
We all had a note that said: Please understand my reasons for not speaking today. I am participating in the Day of Silence (DOS), a national youth movement bringing attention to the silence faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender people and their allies. My deliberate silence echoes that silence, which is caused by anti-LGBT bullying, name-calling and harassment. I believe that ending the silence is the first step toward building awareness and making a commitment to address these injustices. Think about the voices you are not hearing today. What are you going to do to end the Silence?
Deep right? Exactly the reason I joined.
I'm sorry, I know you didn't come here to read about some bullying statement. I just really wanted to point it out because my friend, yauksiei and I are very defensive of the situation. And no, we're not so determined because we're gay, we're determined because of Yugioh GX couples!
Ok, I'm gonna stop talking about this now cuz I took up a whole page of this crap. xD rofl
On with the next chapter of Time!
Johan wasn't sure when he fell asleep. He only remembered waking up in darkness with his head throbbing.
He sat up and rubbed his temples in a circular motion, trying to ease the pain. When it was easy enough to open his eyes without wincing, he looked at the time.
Quarter past three in the morning.
He sighed and walked to the bathroom. He searched the medicine cabinet behind the mirror, not daring to look at his reflection.
He threw a painkiller in his mouth and drowned it with a glass of water.
The bluenette intended to walk back into his bedroom but he couldn't move. The emptiness in his chest wouldn't go away.
Pictures of Jim flashed in front of him. Even when he closed his eyes so he couldn't see him anymore, he still managed to make himself known.
He wanted to scream but that wouldn't be such a wise thing to do in the middle of the night.
Johan walked back into his room and sat on the edge of the bed and allowed the depression to sweep over him.
His breathing became short and rough within every second that passed/ Tears built up in his eyes but he made them stay put. A headache was bad enough and he wasn't sure if he could handle a migraine.
I can't believe I actually went back in time. I miss him so much. Why on earth did I think that that would be the solution. That only broke a bigger piece off of my severely damaged heart, he thought. But in a way I guess I'm a little happy. Jim can continue his dream and I can keep the memory of us together with me forever and always.
He tried to go back to sleep but he was afraid that if he closed his eyes, he would forget. He didn't want to forget. Even thought it tore him to pieces, he never wanted to forget the way the sun shimmered against his chocolate brown eyes, or the way he'd allow his Australian accent to slip or the way he always readjusted his brown hat. And most of all he didn't want to forget the way Jim pressed his lips against Johan's in a slow, mesmerizing kiss.
Johan got up once more and opened that were covering the big window. The moonlight shown through and highlighted everything in the room with a dark tone.
Satisfied with what he did, the European lay back down on the bed with his back pressed against the head frame.
Johan watched the sky as each hour past by and the sun made its rays brighter and brighter. His eyes were heavy but they were easily ignored. He kept his eyes locked on the sky. He knew nothing would appear but he watched anyway. It made him feel numb.
Soon, he heard doors being opened and pans being clanged against each other.
And what seemed like a second later, a knock on the door sounded.
"Yes?" Johan said through a thick throat. He cleared it as the door creaked open.
"Morning honey." His mother walked in and stared at her son.
"What?" Johan asked still staring out the window.
"Did you get any sleep last night?"
"Some." It wasn't a lie. He did get some sleep. Just not as much as he meant.
"Are you still feeling sick?"
He shrugged, feeling too comfortable to worry about what he was feeling.
She looked like she wanted to say more but she didn't. "Breakfast is on the table."
"I'm not hungry."
"You have to eat something."
"I'm not hungry," he repeated.
She sighed. "Fine. But if you're hungry later I'm not making any more."
"Ok." When he heard the door close, he sighed and turned off his brain and just stared at the sky.
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It was around noon when Judai realized that his older brother still had yet to come out of his room.
He walked up the steps and knocked on his door.
"Yeah?" his voice called through the closed door.
Judai opened it to find him propped up against the head frame of his bed staring out the window. The slight pinkness in Johan's cheeks were gone and were replaced with whiteness and his eyes were narrowed as if he were about to pass out from exhaustion. It was horrifying.
When Judai didn't answer, Johan was forced to tear his eyes from his sanctuary and look at his brother. "What?" he asked.
"You don't look so good," the brunette said without thinking.
"Thank you. That makes me feel awesome."
"It's the truth."
Johan sighed and looked down at his hands that haven't left their place since the early morning.
"You haven't eaten breakfast or lunch," Judai finally said. "Are you hungry? I was just about to grab something."
"I'm fine." Johan cursed silently when his stomach growled.
"There's no use lying to me. What do you want?"
Johan shook his head no.
"Jo-kun!" he whined.
"Ju-chan!" he said imitating his voice.
He huffed. "Fine. Starve yourself. But when you die, I'll dance on your grave and sing, 'HAHA I WAS RIGHT!'"
Johan rolled his eyes. "Whatever."
"C'mon Johan, at least let me get you a snack."
"Judai, I'm gonna say this one last time. I. Am. Not. Hungry." He emphasized every word.
"You're so annoying," he mumbled as he exited the room.
The bluenette groaned. He didn't want to be bothered. He just wanted to be alone…a place where he didn't have to think. He could just relax.
Johan sank further into the bed in comfort as his attention returned to the afternoon atmosphere.
Judai trudged down the steps and grabbed an apple off of the kitchen counter.
"Is your brother still in his room?"
The brunette turned around and saw his mother placing herself into the cushions of the sofa.
"Yep. I offered him something to eat but he kicked me out," he said chewing angrily on the piece of fruit. "He's gonna starve himself."
She sighed and flicked through the channels.
"What do you think we should do?" Judai asked.
"Well he seems upset about something," she said in thought. "He won't talk to me…but you're his brother."
"And?"
"You love him don't you?"
"Duh, he's my big brother for crying out loud."
"Then you should prove to him that you'll always be there for him."
"I am always there for him!" he argued.
"But does he know that?" she asked.
He shrugged.
She sighed. "You'll understand later."
He took another bite of his apple and walked into his room. He decided to watch a dueling show to pass time.
It was when the sun started to set when he realized that Johan still had himself locked in his room. This was getting ridiculous. What could possibly be so upsetting?
He walked in the room and what he saw made him want to scream in shock. Johan was still in the same position! How could someone stay so still?
"Haven't you heard of knocking?" Johan asked expressionlessly.
"Yes but I didn't feel like doing so," Judai answered. "How can you sit so still?"
"It's really not that hard. It's actually relaxing."
"What happened when you had to pee?"
"Great Ju-chan, now I have to pee!" He jumped out of the bed and ran into the bathroom. He slammed the door and Judai had to stifle his laughter when he heard his brother moan.
He came out and took his original position in the bed.
"Better?"
"Yeah. So why are you in here again?"
Judai sighed. "Well, um…" He looked around the room for an idea and his eye settled on Johan's old roller-skates. "I was thinking about we used to go to the skating rink and I wanted to go. Do you wanna come with?"
Johan looked like he was about to object but the look on Judai's face said, "Pretty please? It'll make me feel better."
The European sighed and couldn't help the small smile that etched itself onto his face. "Ok."
"Sweet! I'll go get my skates!" He turned toward the door and stopped. "C'mon, Johan get up!"
The bluenette got out of bed. "Fine. Just let me get a shower."
A couple of minutes later, the two of them were dressed and ready.
"Mom, we're going roller skating," Johan called.
"Wait just a minute."
The two turned around.
"Johan, you've been cooped up in your room for more than twelve hours and you've eaten nothing. If you leave you have to eat something first."
"I'll grab something at the rink, no big deal. C'mon, Ju-chan." They got into the car and drove down the familiar road.
"Wow, I can't believe we're here," Judai laughed.
"I know, I haven't been here in years." Johan laughed along with his brother. When he realized the happy feeling inside him, it made him smile wider.
It doesn't hurt anymore, he thought. Maybe changing things back to the way things used to be wasn't such a bad idea.
"C'mon, let's go!"
Judai forced Johan to eat before they went skating around the rink.
They got kicked out a couple hours later because of inappropriate use of ramps.
Flashback:
"You can't catch me!" Judai taunted as he rolled faster.
"Don't underestimate my speed!" Johan laughed. He zoomed past little kids and up to his brother. And just as he jumped to the ramp, Johan followed and they tumbled down and ran a skateboarder over. He probably broke his leg but the two of them were laughing so hard, they couldn't seem to care.
The security grabbed them by the arms and said they weren't allowed to come back unless they cleaned up their act.
"That was so much fun!" Johan laughed as he turned the corner.
"I know, right? We should do it again."
"We should!"
They laughed the rest of the way home.
"Have fun?" their mother said, her nose stuck in a book.
"Totally."
She smiled at Johan and winked at Judai. "Did you eat?" she asked sternly.
The bluenette sighed. "Yes, I did."
"Ok. Get up to bed, it's almost midnight."
"Kay."
Johan walked up the steps and said goodnight to his brother. Then he lay down on the bed and tried to go to sleep. But when he closed his eyes, Jim stared at him smiling.
He gasped and opened his eyes. This would be his second night without sleep. He wasn't sure how long this would last. He opened the curtains again and gazed at the moon.
Yep, and that's chapter 10! Hoped you enjoyed it!
And don't forget the peen!
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