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Chapter 10, The End of Her Music.
It's my last night singing. The last night I can say what I feel without actually saying anything. I only have one song planned for tonight. Tilly hired some other entertainment to fill in the time space. Make things more interesting. I had on a long red, halter top, backless gown today. My hair was half up and curled. I looked amazing for my last night of fame in Magnolia till next year I guess. I walked out on stage and heard the cheering from all my friends. I saw everyone. Gramps, Levy, Erza, Mira, Gray, Akira, and even Natsu. I didn't see Lisanna but I was sure she was there with him. The music started and I felt every bit of the song as I began to sing.
"Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do"
A tear fell when I finished. I looked down to hide wiping it away. The clapped erupted and I forced a smile for everyone. I could see the pride in my friends faces, the joy in everyone else's. I loved it. This was my last chance to see it for my singing and I feel like it was a great way to end it. It felt good. I waved and left the stage. I walked past people congratulating me on a great weekend of singing and how they can't wait for next year. I hugged almost everyone as I went to step outside. It was cold but it felt good. The breeze helped calm me down. My nerves were on edge from that last song. I pretty much told Natsu that I was done with whatever we had in it. I don't know if I can really let it go but that song was a start for me. It was a decleration of trying to really move on this time. I should have sung this the first night. I might have had a hot, rich boyfriend hugging me in this cold right now.. warming me up. Who am I kidding? I want Natsu.
"Lucy?" God help me-
"Yea?" I looked at him.
"You alright?" He walked out to me.
"Fine, just needed some air" I looked away, towards the water.
"You cold?" He looked at me.
"I'm alright"
"You're shivering, you liar" He came up behind me and put his arms around mine that are crossed on my stomach. I instantly felt warmer. He really was a human furnace. I chuckled to myself.
"Natsu, I'm alright now" I told him but he didn't move. "Nats- "
"Lucy? Lucy are you alright? Can you hear me!" He started to yell into my ear.
"Yes! I can hear you stupid- why are you yelling in my ear!" I turned my head to the side to face him, sort of.
"Oh, okay. I just thought you didn't hear me before when I said you were shivering" He went back to hugging me from behind.
"Asshole.." He chuckled against my back. I shivered again but not from the cold. This really was not the moment for me to be a needy woman but it's not like I can tell my body when to not like something. Crap.
"Lucy?" Shit, he can smell these things. Okay, kitten thoughts. Kitten thoughts.
"Stop trying, I already felt it" He laughed.
"Shut up. Momentary lapse in sanity." I looked out at the water as my cheeks blushed.
"Lucy?"
"What?"
"Did you like kissing Akira?" Are we really back on this topic?
"It doesn't matter, Natsu." I shook my head.
"It does to me "
"I don't see why"
"Just.. answer me, please?" He leaned over my shoulder to look at me.
"I did Natsu" I said and he pulled his face back in disappointment. "But.. yours were more." I added, biting my lip in embarassment when I was done. He chuckled again.
"You didn't even really let me kiss you" He sighed.
"Of course not! I couldn't!" I hissed.
"Why not?"
"You're with Lisanna, stupid. It'd be wrong" I said feeling the weight over my heart as I did.
"I'm what?" His warmth pulled away from me.
"You're with Lisanna." I said again. God please don't make do it again..
"I am?"
"Are you really going to try and play dumb again."
"I am definitely not playing dumb here.. this time. How am I with Lisanna?" Wait what?
"All you've done since she got back was be with her. You didn't even wanna go on missions with me. Then when you started showing affection to me,the next day she'd be on your arm in front of me. What else would I think Natsu?!" I yelled at him. he just started laughing. He's really laughing right now. I'm here frustrated as hell because I have no clue whats real and he's laughing at me. "Now really isn't the time to laugh at me, Natsu."
"ooooooh, yes it. you think I'm with Lisanna!" he laughed harder. I'm gonna kill him.
"Cut it out Natsu. People are gonna hear you!" I kicked him a little but he only laughed a little lower. I really am gonna kill him. "Natsu!" I kicked harder.
"Okay, okay! I'm sorry. I just had to let it out. You seriously thought I was with Lisanna? No! She's like a sister! No no no, ever since she's come back she's actually been helping me with something.." He blushed.
"With what?"
"well, you see, she can kind of act like my mom sometimes.. FlashBack.
"You like her don't you?" Natsu was backed against one of the table in the back of the guild hall. Lisanna was towering over him with her finger pointed in his face. "Don't you!"
"I don't know!"
"Don't play stupid, Natsu" She squinted her eyes at him.
"I'm not!"
"I've seen the way you look at her when she's not paying attention. You're practically drooling." She laughed.
"I am not drooling!"
"I don't blame you. She is gorgeous" Lisanna took a look at the blonde by the bar.
"She.. is" Natsu blushed as he admitted.
"You loooove her" Lisanna teased and Natsu treid to fight her but she held him down. "Alright Natsu. I'm gonna help you" She stood straight.
"Help me with what?"
"Help you get your girl." She winked.
"I don't need your help " He scoffed.
"Oh yes you do. She's hot right? Which means someones gonna scoop her up if you don't hurry the hell up."
"She's not easy like that" Natsu argued.
"Someone doesn't have to be easy to be charmed by someone else" She said matter of factly.. END.
"Bu- but that night I saw you guys together late in front of my house!" I yelled.
"You saw that? She was making me take her home and hear stories about how many time's I've failed at trying to kiss you.." He blushed and looked away.
"And at the fair?"
"Mira invited me and Elfman buddied me with Lisanna to make sure she wouldn't get lost. He's kinda scary when it comes to Lisanna" He laughed. It was true.
"but what about at the guild when Akira was there!"
"Oh yea- I was pissed that he was being so nice to everyone and even Happy liked him. Lisanna was laughing at me the whole time.." he looked upset about that one.
"And today? This morning?.." I pleaded with my eyes.
"She was basically telling me to cut the crap and tell you how I feel. She understood why you threw me out last night. Kept telling me I can't just throw myself at you and expect you to get it off the bat. I need to just be honest with you.." I've never seen Natsu look so nervous or shy. It was adorable.
"How you.. feel about me?"