Okay so I've finished reading DH and figured that I'd start posting again. And well this was never really canon so the outcome of the books wasn't going to affect this story in any way at all. So there will be no changes it will continue as I started
In Love with the Enemy
He loves me! He loves me! He loves me! I can't believe it. He really loves me! But does that change things…
He loves me and that's all I seem to care about. I love him. How it happened I'll never know. He's still Draco and I'm still Hermione. But he loves me! But can it work out…
Oh like I care he loves me! We're going to have a baby, a child that is our own. Maybe we won't be together but the child was made from a relationship full of love. Because he loves me!
But maybe that shouldn't be what I'm concentrating on. Alright so he's never even hinted that he had those sort of feelings towards me. He always made out that it was a quick shag and then back home to the wife, or in my case Ron.
Maybe though I need to think this through. Because he may love me but he's still married. I might personally have thought about leaving Ron but there's no way in hell that Draco will leave Pansy. She's a Pureblood; she's from a rich family. Together they move in the right society. I can't bring him any of that.
Draco might have finally admitted that he loves me. But I'm still a Muggleborn. I'm still beneath him in status. His respect and all that will be lost if he's with me. And as much as Draco has changed inwardly, outwardly he's still the same twat. Outwardly to the world he still hates me and every other witch and wizard from similar backgrounds.
So he loves me. So does Ron. Ron loves me as much as he's capable of. He just has so many people in his life that his love has to be shared. But then doesn't love grow to surround new people. Maybe I'm making up excuses for his behaviour.
But I love Draco and he loves me. Maybe that's all that matters. So he's married to Pansy, so I can't bring him the same status that she does. So what? I'm giving him his first child. No matter what happens we're going to be parents.
Though maybe the truth is that I belong with Ron. That this child will bring us closer together again. Maybe the baby will even force him to show his feelings towards me. Or maybe I'm completely backwards about all this. I don't know what to do, or what to think.
Logically there is only one answer, to choose. But who do I choose? My husband or my lover? I love them both and they both love me. But who makes me happy. Who can I not bare to be without? The sad thing is that I already know the answer to that. I can't live without either one. But I think it's in different ways.
Ron has been my best friend for years. I can't image him not in my life. I need him, but I need him the way that he use to be. I need the friend that he once was. I need that Ron Weasley. As for Draco I need his love and support.
I suppose this answers my question. I need to be with Draco even if he isn't going to leave Pansy for me. I'm just going to have to do it alone. Yes I think its time that I left Ron for good…