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WOW. i haven't updated in ages. I'm working on chapter 11 right as we speak. Sorry for everything!
Lacus sighed as she plopped down onto Kira's couch. She had been so stressed lately, and just wanted to have a good night's rest. Kira was currently taking a shower, so she decided to prepare dinner for him. She got up and walked over to the kitchen.
She opened the fridge door and looked around. She grabbed some lettuce, some bread and some ham. It seemed simple, but she didn't think Kira would want anything too special tonight. She was about to start cutting the lettuce when she heard the doorbell rang. Putting down the knife, she walked over to the door and opened it.
It was Fllay.
"Clyne?" Fllay said, with a disgusted look on her face. She looked Lacus up and down. "What are you doing here?"
Lacus smiled, ignoring the fact that Fllay just sneered at her. "I'm preparing dinner, care to join us?" She opened the door wider to let Fllay come in. Fllay walked inside as Lacus closed the door.
"I'm just here to see Kira." Fllay said, her hands on her hips. "Alone."
"Oh." Lacus said. "Well…he's taking a shower right now, so if you could just wait a few minutes-"
"Why the hell are you here?" Fllay interrupted. Lacus blinked.
"Can I not be here?" Lacus answered. Fllay rolled her eyes, crossing her arms.
"I'm surprised Kira even talks to you after what you did." She walked over to the couch and sat down. She was spitting out words like it was nothing.
Lacus felt her heart drop. This wasn't going to be good. "Miss Allstar…"
"Let me tell you something Clyne, after you left him, do you know what he went through?" Fllay said. Her eyes were dangerous.
" Well…"
"He went through pure torture. Think about it, if someone you really really loved, just dumped you without a reason, wouldn't you feel as if it was your entire fault? Wouldn't you self esteem just drop? Just like that?" Fllay almost laughed. It was a cruel laugh. "That's what Kira felt. If you loved him, just like you said you did, why would you have left him?"
Lacus had to object. "You don't understand-"
"No, no, I understand perfectly." Her eyes flashed at him, a smirk playing at her lips. "You played him."
Lacus' almost gasped. "How dare you say that?"
"Is there any other explanation?" Fllay asked. "I mean, If I were Kira, I wouldn't ever want to see you again. But no, he stayed devoted to you, like a little puppy following it's pathetic owner."
" There was a better explanation." Lacus said.
"Really now? What is it Clyne?" Fllay said. Lacus was at a loss for words. She… Could she? Would she tell Fllay? Did Fllay even deserve to know?
"I don't think that's any of your business." Lacus said strongly. Fllay scoffed, standing up.
"Whatever. You've caused him so much pain already. He should've slapped you when he first saw you."
Lacus frowned.
" And you say you love him. If you did, why didn't you comfort him? Why didn't you tell him the truth? Where were you during his dark times?" Fllay yelled. "Huh Clyne? Answer me!"
Lacus didn't say a word. Fllay was right. She always had been. She had hurt Kira, although he was pretending nothing had ever happened. She started to walk back into the kitchen but Fllay grabbed her arm.
"He's pushed so many people away…and for what? You. A person who didn't even think twice about him." She spat. Lacus pulled her arm away. Fllay's words were really sinking into her, thinking about things she never had thought about before.
"Get out of his life." Fllay finished.
Those words felt like a dagger going through her heart. Her bangs drooped over her eyes as she lowered her head in shame.
Fllay's words had gotten to her.
Fllay just smiled. "You know, it would make life easier for all of us if you just dissapeared."
"That's enough Fllay."
Fllay turned around and was met with dark lavender eyes. "K..Kira?"
"Leave."
"But Kira-"
"LEAVE!"
Fllay gaped. She shot a glare towards Lacus who didn't even look at her. She then rolled her eyes and made her way towards the door. Kira locked it after she walked out.
"Lacus.."
"She's right."
Kira sighed. He walked over to her fragile state and stroked her head softly. Lacus pushed his hands away, not making eye contact with him. Tears were rolling down her cheeks.
"Who are we trying to fool, Kira? I'm engaged for god's sake!"
"I know, I know..." Kira said in a soft voice. He put his hands on her shoulder and pushed her gently towards his bedroom. They slowly made their way over and he made her sit on the bed. He kneeled down in front of her.
"Listen Lacus, I'm not going to lie to you. What Fllay said about you not being there for me when I needed you .. It's true."
She looked straight into his eyes.
"But what does that matter? You're here now. You're here now when I need you right beside me." He put his hands on hers. "Don't blame yourself so much, You had your reasons, you just weren't thinking. I don't blame you for that, in fact, no one does."
"Kira.." She hung her head low. "I'm so sorry..." Tears threatened to fall once again.
He lifted his head and kissed her on the forehead. "It's okay Lacus, Don't cry."
After a long silence, Kira spoke. "I want to go talk to Fllay."
Her blue orbs widened. She was worried.
He just smiled. "I promise I won't do anything rash. I just want to talk things out, that's all."
Lacus just nodded. "Be careful, okay?"
" I will. Get some sleep then." He lifted the covers as she put her head on the pillow.
"We'll talk about this tomorrow, okay?" Kira said.
"Okay."
Fllay fumed as she moved her glass cup in a circular motion, the red wine swishing around.
It just wasn't fair.
She spent years pursuing him. She would dress to the extremes just to get him to give her a single glance, but it would never work.
She remembered the first time she laid eyes on him. It was the day her father had passed away back in high school.
"Are you alright?"
Fllay groaned, trying to get his voice out of her head.
"He wouldn't want you to be sad."
"Smile for him, okay?"
"Damn it all." Fllay cursed. He still had that effect on her. Her thoughts were interupted when she heard a knock on the door. Putting down her glass, she got up and strolled over to the door. She was met with lavender orbs.
"Kira?"
"We need to talk." Kira said and walked in. Fllay closed the door and smiled slyly. She followed him and sat down on the couch next to him, moving closer to him.
"Okay, talk or action first?"
"I'm serious Fllay." Kira said, looking her square in the eye.
"So am I."
"Stop it."
She frowned at this. "Kira, I'm doing nothing out of the ordinary. This is how I always am!"
"Well then stop." He said, frowning as well.
She rolled her eyes. "I liked your fiesty side more." She picked up her glass and was about to take a sip when Kira pulled it away from her.
"You're drunk."
"And what would you care?" She answered cooly. She then started to laugh slowly, her body shaking slowly. "Or, wait, would you? Are you scared I'm going to go out and screw the hobo on the nearest street corner? Would you care, Kira? Tell me."
"Yes, I would."
At this, she scoffed. She brushed her hair behind her shoulders. "Why?"
"I care about you Fllay, I don't want you to get hurt." Kira said.
" Then do you love me?"
Kira stopped and gave a sigh. "I love Lacus."
" It's always about her isn't it?"
"You don't understand...I really love her."
Fllay went ballistic. "I dont understand? I dont't understand?? Oh, that's where you're wrong, Kira. So very VERY wrong. I understand what it's like to be in love with someone. I understand what it was like .. "
"Fllay.."
Fllay clenched her fists and hung her head low. "to be pushed away .. to yearn for the one you want .. to feel the pain of not getting the love in return .." She then gave a small laugh. "And you wanna know I secret Kira? Want to know how I know?"
Kira didn't say anything.
"His name is Kira. Kira Yamato." She faced him. "He hurt me .. so much .. I love him so much..."
Kira looked away. So, Fllay had loved him all along. She was suffering all this time.
"That's why, I fight so hard for you. It's why I do all those things.." Fllay continued. " I know Lacus means alot to you .. probably just like how much you mean to me. Everytime I see you with her, I just ... I just get so angry! You give her this never ending attention. You're emotions .. their all depended on her. When you look at her, I can see it in your eyes .. Your whole world brightens." Tears started to roll down her face. "I would give anything, everything I have to be Lacus .. And sometimes, I would do anything to make her dissapear so you would come back to me! But .. without her, you wouldn't be happy. It's what you want .. How can I object? It's just so hard to deal with .."
" As long as you're happy Kira .. I'll try my best to be happy too.." She couldn't stop the tears flowing down her cheeks.
Kira slowly reached out and pulled her into an embrace. Fllay, at first, didn't respond. After a while, she began to sob uncontrollably into his shoulder, grasping onto his shirt.
"Thank you .. Fllay." Kira said softly. "Thank you for always being there."
Fllay continued to sob. Kira pushed her off of him gently and made her look at him.
"You know what though? One day, you're going to find someone who deserves you. You're going to find someone that will love you with all their heart, someone a million times better than me. One day, you're going to look back, and say to yourself, 'I can't believe I cried over this guy, what was I thinking?'. You're a princess, Fllay, So you can't keep Prince Charming waiting all by himself, can you?" Kira said, ending with a smile.
Fllay just smiled and wiped her tears away. "Thanks, Kira."
"It's true."
"Do you think ... we can start over?"
He raised an eyebrow at her.
"As friends."
"Yeah... I'd like that."
Chapter 11 is coming! Reviews are always appreciated.