May 1990 – Chapter 9 – Pain and Healing
Remus had moved his young new wife to his family home. It was a two story house just outside a Muggle village. He had done repairs to the home to make it livable again.
They kept the money Sirius had given her...all his money in Gringotts and used what Remus and she had to live on for the time being. She got a monthly check from her mother's family and he earned money doing odd jobs.
The Muggles seemed to really like him and smiled at them whenever they came for bread and such.
Khadja spent much of her time daydreaming and thinking. Not that he blamed her with all that had happened. He loved her so. She had quit her job to sort out her life. Everything had fallen apart and Remus helped her. Thank Merlin for him.
He heard soft music and walked to the clearing near the house. Khadja was playing her flute gently to the small stream that meandered about the woods.
He came to her and knelt before her. He caressed her legs gently as she played.
"What are you thinking about love?" As if he had to ask. He was not ever jealous of her love for Sirius. He knew it would cool in time, but never disappear. He learned to accept it.
"Sirius. I have things to tell him." She said softly.
"Such as?" He asked looking up at her.
She looked up. "How do I tell you Remus? It could be yours or Sirius's."
"What?" He asked at a loss.
"I am pregnant." She said slowly. She looked down to see his reaction fearing he would be upset or worse angry.
He looked up at her. "And the father could be either of us." He said softly. "Oh Kadi." He said softly.
He hugged her. "I will love it even if it is not mine. You know that."
Her features relaxed.
His hand went down to her belly and touched her. She had allowed him to make love to her twice in their marriage. He wished for more, but that was him being male and he knew it. He would go at her pace. He had noticed with his sensitive nose that she smelled different. That explained it.
He leaned up and kissed her. "It will be alright my angel." He said. "Come lets get you something to eat. You both need it. I know you have been doing better, but now especially you must."
She nodded and allowed him to lead her home. He cooked for her and made her finish all he gave her and then put her in his large arm chair as he gently caressed her feet trying to relax her tension.
She sighed and her hand went down to her belly. "What if it is his? What will people think?"
"I will see you no different and that is all that matters my wife."
She nodded and felt his hands caress up her legs as he sat before her. He leaned up and kissed her. "If it is a boy..."
"We can name him Sirius?" She asked her voice hopeful.
He nodded. "Sirius Marauder Lupin." He grinned.
"And a girl?"
""Holly." He said without hesitation.
"Holly?"
"It was my mother's name. Holly Mariam." He said with a smile.
He lay down on the floor. "Love tomorrow is the full moon. Are you sure you will be alright?"
"You can not be here." She said.
"No. I will not. I do not wish harm to you or our child."
She smiled liking the fact that her husband was calling a child that had a fifty percent chance of not being his, his own.
"But I could transform."
He shook his head. "We do not know what effect that would have on you and the baby. No you will stay a human. I will be fine. You can come in at dawn on the fourth day like you always do and hold me while I rest."
She nodded. He bent his head down and kissed her belly gently. He noticed the soft swell. He loved her so. His love grew everyday. Though he did not know if she returned his affections, they were married and he had an oath to hold.
He smiled up at her.
Remus had moved his young new wife to his family home. It was a two story house just outside a Muggle village. He had done repairs to the home to make it livable again.
They kept the money Sirius had given her...all his money in Gringotts and used what Remus and she had to live on for the time being. She got a monthly check from her mother's family and he earned money doing odd jobs.
The Muggles seemed to really like him and smiled at them whenever they came for bread and such.
Khadja spent much of her time daydreaming and thinking. Not that he blamed her with all that had happened. He loved her so. She had quit her job to sort out her life. Everything had fallen apart and Remus helped her. Thank Merlin for him.
He heard soft music and walked to the clearing near the house. Khadja was playing her flute gently to the small stream that meandered about the woods.
He came to her and knelt before her. He caressed her legs gently as she played.
"What are you thinking about love?" As if he had to ask. He was not ever jealous of her love for Sirius. He knew it would cool in time, but never disappear. He learned to accept it.
"Sirius. I have things to tell him." She said softly.
"Such as?" He asked looking up at her.
She looked up. "How do I tell you Remus? It could be yours or Sirius's."
"What?" He asked at a loss.
"I am pregnant." She said slowly. She looked down to see his reaction fearing he would be upset or worse angry.
He looked up at her. "And the father could be either of us." He said softly. "Oh Kadi." He said softly.
He hugged her. "I will love it even if it is not mine. You know that."
Her features relaxed.
His hand went down to her belly and touched her. She had allowed him to make love to her twice in their marriage. He wished for more, but that was him being male and he knew it. He would go at her pace. He had noticed with his sensitive nose that she smelled different. That explained it.
He leaned up and kissed her. "It will be alright my angel." He said. "Come lets get you something to eat. You both need it. I know you have been doing better, but now especially you must."
She nodded and allowed him to lead her home. He cooked for her and made her finish all he gave her and then put her in his large arm chair as he gently caressed her feet trying to relax her tension.
She sighed and her hand went down to her belly. "What if it is his? What will people think?"
"I will see you no different and that is all that matters my wife."
She nodded and felt his hands caress up her legs as he sat before her. He leaned up and kissed her. "If it is a boy..."
"We can name him Sirius?" She asked her voice hopeful.
He nodded. "Sirius Marauder Lupin." He grinned.
"And a girl?"
""Holly." He said without hesitation.
"Holly?"
"It was my mother's name. Holly Mariam." He said with a smile.
He lay down on the floor. "Love tomorrow is the full moon. Are you sure you will be alright?"
"You can not be here." She said.
"No. I will not. I do not wish harm to you or our child."
She smiled liking the fact that her husband was calling a child that had a fifty percent chance of not being his, his own.
"But I could transform."
He shook his head. "We do not know what effect that would have on you and the baby. No you will stay a human. I will be fine. You can come in at dawn on the fourth day like you always do and hold me while I rest."
She nodded. He bent his head down and kissed her belly gently. He noticed the soft swell. He loved her so. His love grew everyday. Though he did not know if she returned his affections, they were married and he had an oath to hold.
He smiled up at her.