Session 10

Despite this day starting off crappy with that awful nightmare...this has been a great day! In fact, ever since I woke up in the hospital I've had a lot of great days. I hate that it took trying to kill myself for everything to turn around, and yet it didn't even need to get that far. If I just talked to my mom more, talk to my friends and tell them exactly what I was feeling and if I just waited to see why my mom didn't come to our session together. Everything could have worked out and I wouldn't have had to cut my wrists which I'm still paying for. I don't know how much I can write today, my wrist is a little sore, but since I'm right handed I should be fine since most of the damage was done to my left wrist.

Anyways, instead of talking about my painful past today...we talked more about everything that's happened lately and how I feel about it. And unlike other times, I really didn't need the tissues today...though there was a couple close calls as I almost started crying from happiness recalling how my family grew from no one to include so many people.

"So, how is your first day going?" Setsuna asked as she gave Will a soft, gentle smile full of warmth and love for the girl. She had been a little worried about Will despite knowing that she was going to be okay now. Setsuna was able to visit her a few times, but couldn't stay long. Her body was still adjusting, it even was still, and it made her exhausted. Even at the moment she felt so drained, she felt like she could sleep for a week. Even still she wouldn't trade this time with Will for all the sleep in the world.

"It's going...great actually." Will said as she sat down in her usual seat in her Aunt's office thinking back to all of the students being nice to her and she could see it in their eyes...they were all being genuine. "I'm thankful that we came here...for the first time in a long time I feel happy. I'm really happy."

And she was happy, she couldn't help feeling happy. Despite the rough start to the day, everything was looking up with no problems. Even when she saw Dean everything went great as he made sure to ask if she was doing okay and asked if it would be okay to ask Susan out the next night. He wanted to tonight, but he told her that he wanted to take both Susan and Will out to dinner tonight so couldn't take the older Vandom on an official date.

"I'm glad, honey, if anyone deserves some happiness in their lives it's you." Setsuna said as she handed Will a plastic box. Opening it Will couldn't hide her grin to find her favorite treat inside, the one Setsuna always shared with her during her sessions.

"I don't think any of it would have happened if not for you." Will said as she moved around the desk and hugged Setsuna who happily returned the hug before Will pulled back and returned to her seat.

"Will, it would have happened, I just did my best to try and help you a little along the way." Setsuna said softly.

"You helped me a lot, you even gave up being an angel for me. I can never repay that." Will said softly, feeling a little bad over costing the woman that. She couldn't help being happy that the woman was here to stay though and really happy that she was officially a member of the family now.

"Just keep being the sweet young woman I know you are." Setsuna said with a smile. "You know...you also saved a lot of lives with what you did."

"What do you mean?" Will asked a little shocked over that statement. What did Setsuna mean by that? How in the heck could Will have saved anyone's life by doing something as stupid as she did. She couldn't understand how she could have saved anyone's life while trying to end her own.

"When you...did what you did...Mrs. Knickerbocker called some extra help to counsel any students that needed it. There were a lot more students that I thought possible that needed someone to talk to because they were considering what you did themselves. They talked to the counselors and admitted it and they got help dealing with their problems." Setsuna said softly, "You saved them, but I don't want you to ever try that again. You scared your mother, me, your friends and everyone else that cares for you."

"I won't, I promise." Will said softly. "That was scary...those demons or whatever they were."

Will couldn't help shuddering a little at the memory of those things grabbing at her. The darkness that surrounded her with no real light or hope anywhere in sight. If it wasn't for Setsuna intervening, Will wasn't sure just where she would be right now.

"You are a wonderful young woman whose heart was full of doubt and self hatred...those things thought they could use that against you. There wasn't a chance in Heaven or Hell that I was going to let that happen." Setsuna said. "I used the last of my power to enter your mindscape and find your soul on the edge of leaving...of giving up. I wouldn't let you give up and I wouldn't let those things have you. You mean too much to so many people."

"I never knew that before...that so many people care for me." Will sniffed a little, "I do know...and...I'll never forget what you did for me Auntie."

"I did it because I love you...and I'll do anything for you. Your family after all." Setsuna said getting a huge grin on her face. She lost her celestial family in a way, well at least the connection she once shared with them though they were still there. She knew they were watching her and loved her, but she couldn't have no contact with them while mortal. Looking at Will though, seeing her happy and alive made it all worth it. She would see her family again someday and in the meantime she had her new mortal family that she loved.

"I love you to, Auntie." Will said smiling at Setsuna. She really did love Setsuna, the woman was the person who saved her as well as being her Aunt now. The woman had given Will strength and hope when she didn't think there was any to be had. "Thank you so much for everything that you did for me."

"Your very welcome honey, just seeing you okay makes everything worth it." Setsuna smiled. "So...what do you want to talk about today?"

"You know...I'm not really sure." Will sighed as she leaned back in her chair. She wasn't sure what to talk about as she wanted to move past her past and concentrate on a future that she didn't believe she really had just a few short weeks ago.

"How about how your feeling lately? You've been through so much stuff lately, do you need help sorting through some of it?" Setsuna asked as she leaned forward a bit in her chair, clasping her hands on her desk.

"I've been feeling better than I have in a long time, for once...I'm truly happy. My mother loves me, I have an aunt, a father figure who doesn't want to hurt me...I have a boyfriend who doesn't want to use or hurt me...a sister...and even more people who considers me family." Will said wistfully as she looked up, "I even have real friends who cares about what happens to me...and even if we have our troubles...I think...I think our friendship can survive it and be stronger for it."

"That's great honey, and you do have a lot of people that love you." Setsuna said with a smile. "When you said trouble...I assume you mean Cornelia and Taranee...did something happen with them today?"

"Yeah...they both apologized and they really meant it and...I think they're actually going to stop acting so...so..." Will said trying to come up with the right words.

"Stubborn and selfish?" Setsuna asked with an arched eyebrow, a little amusement in her voice. She was happy though as she knew the two girls and if they're growing more mature then the woman was happy for them. She knew they both could be incredibly selfish on the outside, though on the inside they were scared and insecure with themselves. If they found the strength to move past that then Setsuna was happy for them both.

"Yeah...you could say they were that and more, but they both apologized and I think...I think that they're...I think that they're going to be better...nicer from now on to everyone around them, not just to me." Will sighed, but she wasn't sad. She was really happy that her friends were going to be the girls they could be and not what their reputations or peer pressure wanted them to be.

"Peer pressure and trying to live up to what others see you as never works out well. It doesn't matter if they see you as an outcast or an idol, if you don't be yourself you will never be happy." Setsuna said softly. "I think you know that though...and I believe that your friends have figured that out..."

"I think they have to." Will smiled, "And I won't let everything with everyone here get to my head. I'm happy that everyone is so supportive of me, I'm going to soak up as much as I can, but I'm not going to overdo it. I'm going to be who I am and not let any kind of pressure from anyone make me be someone I don't want to be."

"And who do you want to be honey?" Setsuna asked softly.

"I want to be happy. I want to be a good daughter, niece, sister, and friend. Nothing more, nothing less." Will said. She meant it to, she wanted to make her mother, and adults as well as all of her friends proud of her. At the same time she refused to be that rude, hateful girl that was once her mask to hide her pain from he world. She wanted to let go of her pain, of her past and make a bright and happy future. She knew that it wouldn't come easy, her nightmare proved that she still had things to work through and overcome, but she also knew that with some work she could make it.

Setsuna smiled at the girl that had become her niece and couldn't be prouder of her. She could see the determination in the redhead's eyes as well as the happiness that wasn't there when they first began these sessions. She knew Will had a lot to work through yet, but she could see the girl's determination to keep the happiness that she found and Setsuna was determined to make sure Will did keep that happiness.

We didn't talk about a lot of stuff really, but we did talk about good stuff. For the first time...a session didn't end with me being emotionally drained. Any way I look at it, this was the best session ever and though I know there will be some talk about darker subject matters in the future, I'm happy that today we just got to talk and share happy things with each other.

Sadly I have to go though as my wrist is starting to throb so much. It's starting to hurt so I might wait until my wrist feels better before I come back to write more...though it shouldn't be long since my right hand wasn't hurt as bad as my left...

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