A/N: Ok so i'm almost done with this fic, another 2 chapters & the epilogue have been started! In retrospect i wish i had concentrated more on this fic, its ended up a bit, crappy? I'm working on a Mer/Addie one-shot from Addisons POV and also another Addison/Meredith fic, don't know when they'll be up but keep your eyes pealed, anyway, Chapter 10 is here!
REVIEW PLEASE! iam-kelly.
5 weeks later….
Meredith and Derek sat in one of the conference rooms, papers scattered all over the table as they worked around the clock to find a way of operating on an inoperable brain tumour. "Stop tapping your pen Derek" said Meredith sternly, not looking up from the book she was reading.
"Sorry, I'm just thinking"
Meredith didn't say anything, she just rolled her eyes, things were still awkward between them 'If I want to be a neurosurgeon I have to learn from the best' Meredith repeated over and over again in her head.
"So when are you coming back to me Meredith?"
Meredith's eyes shot up from the page and straight over to Derek.
"What did you just say!?"
"When are you coming back to me, this can't go on much longer, you know as well as I do this is just a phase"
"This is not just a phase Derek! I'm not coming back to you! I thought we'd been through this! I can't believe you!"
"You can't seriously think you're going to stay together?"
"We are staying together Derek, we've stayed together for 2 months, I asked her to move in with me after 3 weeks, I asked her! When I was with you all I seemed to do was run and we put it down to all the crap with my mother and all my stupid trust issues and my daddy issues but now I know it was because we weren't meant to be together, I had to be with you to find her and I know how harsh that sounds but me and you, we're over"
Meredith stood up and gathered her things, she went to leave, her hand reached for the door…
"I won't wait much longer Meredith so you need to seriously think about who you really want"
"How stupid are you? Stop waiting Derek, stop waiting! I want Addison, forever, I love her, so just stop waiting!"
Meredith stormed out of the room and went and hid in her favourite supply closet.
"Meredith, are you in here?" Cristina shouted as she opened the closet door.
"Back here" Meredith answered.
"Everyones been paging you, what are you doing in here? This is the 'dark and twisty' closet"
"Derek"
"Of course, Derek" Cristina said sitting on the floor next to Meredith "What did he do this time?"
"He thinks I'm going to go back to him, he thinks I'll leave her for him but I won't Cris, I love her, I'll never leave her"
"I know, I know, what an ass! But I'm afraid you are on his service today and you are not backing out, if you want to be a kick ass neurosurgeon you have to learn from him so you are going to forget all this personal crap, you're going to get up and you are going to walk out of this closet and do your job!"
"Your right"
"I'm always right"
"Woah, wait wait wait! Can you hear that?" Izzie said as herself, George, Cristina and Alex approached the house.
"Yeah, what is that?" said George.
As they moved closer to the house they saw Addison and Meredith pacing up and down the living room.
"I can't do this anymore Meredith! What are you hiding, why can't you talk to me?"
"I'm not hiding anything! I've just had a bad day, Derek just said some stuff ok!"
"What stuff?"
"Just stuff!"
"Then why can't you look at me, what did he say that makes you not want to look at me? If this is how this relationship is going to be, if you can't even speak to me I might as well just pack my bags and go!"
"He asked me to leave you, he told me he wouldn't wait forever and that I should leave you"
"And are you going to leave me? Are you going to leave me for him? Because if I'm honest Mer when I moved here and got back with him I always had that feeling in the pit of my stomach that he was going to go back to you because you were 'Meredith and Derek' and I can't help but think you'll go back to him Mer, just like he went back to you."
"Of course I'm not! I left him because I love you, you were the one who said you were packing your bags so if you really want this to be over then go"
"I don't want to leave Meredith! I love you, I don't want to leave but what I'm saying is you need to learn to open up to me, if we're going to spend the rest of our lives together we need to share our lives and we can't let Derek spoil everything we have, everything we've worked for, you can't freak out every time he talks to you, I feel like I don't know where I stand"
"She has a point" said Alex
"Shhhshsh" moaned Cristina.
"Addison, you know about my life, you know all about my mother and my non-existent father and the stuff with Derek, how I drink away my problems with tequila and how those guys standing by the window who think I can't see them are my family.."
"Busted!" Izzie said.
They all backed away from the window opting for the kitchen instead, a lot safer and still in listening distance.
"..And so are you, I wouldn't have asked you to move in if you weren't part of my family, this is forever Addison, as far as I'm concerned this is forever, there is no part of me that wants to go back to Derek, I want you"
Addison and Meredith were still stood apart, both stood with folded arms.
"Meredith, you are MY everything, you are MY family and you are MY forever but you have to open up to me you have to let me in"
"Addie, you're in, I have let you in so are you going to get your ass over here and kiss me or are we going to carry on with this stupid fight!"
Addison smirked, she stepped over to Meredith, she held onto her arms, they leant into each other, their foreheads resting against each other.
"I'm sorry Mer, I love you" Addison kissed her "I love you"
"I love you too, maybe I should set Cristina on him and Callie and Bailey, that should work right"
Addison laughed "That should work"
"OK guys, you can come out of the kitchen now, your Mommy's have stopped fighting" Meredith shouted.
George, Alex, Izzie and Cristina slowly walked into the living room and stood in the archway.
"So, do I have to kick Derek's ass now or are you going to do it yourselves?" Cristina said firmly.
"I think we're ok Cris" Meredith smiled.