Natsu's P.O.V

Three weeks and five days. That's how long it's been since I last saw Lucy. Three weeks and four days. That's how long it's been since she smiled at me and she was alive. It was Monday, three in the morning. Ever since Lucy di-... ever since she... since she passed away, I slept about four hours a night and woke up really early. Then I sit here, let the tears run down my cheeks for the while, and scream into my pillow. The first two weeks I couldn't hold in my sobs and my dad would hear me, so he would come in my room sit down on my bed and stroke my hair. It sounds like such a stupid thing to do to an eighteen year old, but I needed it. After I scream into my pillow, I stare up at the white empty ceiling trying extremely hard not to stare at the picture framed on my wall of Lucy and I on our 5th grade trip to the space museum. It was my favorite picture because in it she was the most stunning. Sure she was 10, but she loved the way the stars shone down from the ceiling and I loved the way smiled. I laugh a little out loud remembering my face from the picture and not actually looking at itbecause I still wasn't strong enough. My little 11 year old face had a smile on it from ear to ear. At the angle of the picture it looks like I was also looking up at the stars, but I wasn't. I was looking at her, I've always been looking at her. But now, I was staring up at a blank wall, yet all I wanted was to have her sleeping me next to me again. I messed up though, I let her die. I let an amazing, beautiful life leave this earth, and now I will forever be broken.

My heart hurt as I looked over and saw the clock read 6 o'clock. I was used to wasting three hours just thinking about her. Then, the rest of the day was half thinking about her half trying keep on living. I tried to quit school but my pops didn't let me, neither did Gray or Gajeel. I got up and walked towards the restroom where I didn't dare turn on the light. A week after the incident, I turned on the rest room light and looked at myself in the mirror and I hated the person who I saw, the monster who hurt Lucy. I clenched my fist and hit the mirror as hard as I could, then screamed out in pain. Whether I had screamed out in pain from the glass shards in my hand or my broken heart I didn't know. My dad came rushing in and ran my hand under the sink. I begged him not to take me to the hospital, because she was there. I sat at the kitchen table with my head resting on it as my dad picked out the pieces of glass piece by piece.

"Son," he said, "you can't do this to yourself. She wouldn't want you to be like this she would want you to be so happy. It hurts to have lost her, I know that more than anyone. It'll take time but I know you'll find the strength inside you to keep going."

I finished getting dressed and brushed my teeth in the dark. I wore a black t- shirt and dark jeans. That was what I wore almost everyday, except some days I ran out of black so I went for dark grey. People said I mourned too much, so I told them to shut the fuck up. I went downstairs and met my dad by the door. Everyday for the past three weeks and five days, he's been giving me a long hug with a pat on the back and he sends me on my way. I don't care how old I am, I need them.

I started my walk to school. I leave early so I have enough time to make it. The last time I was in a car by myself I was driving away from hurting her. Suddenly, a rain drop hits my nose. It's cold outside so I put my hood on and let the rain wash over me. Losing my best friend and the girl I love, it feels like losing a part of myelf. She was so so beautiful and- no Natsu. Stop. Stop because the rain can only hide your tears for so long. I sighed loudly when I felt the phone vibrate in my pocket. It was Levy.

"Natsu, ditch 1st period and meet me by the fountain, you know the spot. - Levy"

What the hell? No one has talked to me about Lucy or anything to do with us and now suddenly Levy thinks its okay? Well it's not. That's where Lucy and I ate together, it was OUR spot. How dare she... I'm not ready to be there again, but maybe its time. I continued on my walk to school letting my gloominess consume me once again.

Lucy's P.O.V

"Lucy! Oh my gosh you're okay its great to see that you're okay. When Sting called me I was so surprised your dad said it you had a 80% of not making it and we hadn't heard anything in so long, how are you standing right now and hows your head?"

I hugged her tightly, and felt like crying. I hated putting my friends through this, even if it was my dad who had started the lies.

"I'm alright, but I really need your help. Sting told you on the phone I didn't actually jump and it's true. I was drunk and I slipped and-"

"Oh that explains the burnt on blanket and why my reserve bottle of vodka was no longer in its place."

I laughed a little, "yeah well, I was having a rough day. Anyway, I need to see Natsu, he needs to know I'm alive!"

She looked grim at mentioning his name, "Lucy, he fill apart at the seams. He doesn't talk to anyone, he sits in the back of the class, he eats little to nothing, he misses you. I hope it's not too late to help him because he hasn't been okay for a while."

"Right, and that's why I need you, so here's the plan."

We continued talking for a while until we figured out what we were going to do.

"Lucy, are you sure this is going to work?"

"Yup. If he's really depressed then he won't want to meet anywhere else. Bringing up something that was special to us will strike a chord with him."