Chapter 10:
The Reflection
Edward and I. Ah, how those words fit? They form together in my mind to create one of the greatest combinations of all time. I loved being around him, being with him. He was no doubt, the best thing that had ever happened to me. He was so caring and gentle, selfless and considerate, humorous and handsome. And I couldn't get enough of him. He was like an addiction.
My eyes widen when I see him. When I hear him laugh, my heart flutters. When he touches me, I might as well go into cardiac arrest, my heart beats so fast. My face is permanently plastered into the form of a smile. Its like my being lurches a the site of him. He is absolutely gorgeous, and I don't deserve him. Not in the least bit. He is perfect.
I was linked to his arm most of the day, and when I wasn't, I wished I were. During the night, when he wasn't there, I was sad. I even cried when he was gone. During the rare days he hadn't gone to school, I worried. I was afraid that something was wrong, that he was ill. But then he would see me after school, making my burdens lighten.
No matter how hard I tried I couldn't stay away, and I didn't want to. Charlie sometimes forbid me to see him, just so I wouldn't fall too hard for him. Too late, I thought. I was in head over heels. Whenever I was around people I always brought up a topic that included Edward, and when I wasn't talking about Edward I was silently begging someone to bring him up. His soul, his heart, has taken over mine.
Without him, I wouldn't be me. When I'm not near him, I ache. My heart burns and a hole in my chest begins to form. He is apart of me, together we are one. I'm not Bella, and he isn't Edward. We are Edward and Bella. Our names are always associated with the other. We are inseparable. He captivates my thoughts, my dreams, even my actions. My love for him is so strong, it hurts.
When he kisses me its like the world is on standby. Like everything is frozen in time. He is my own personal heaven on earth. He is my guardian angel. The stars in my personal universe. Romeo and Casanova don't compare. The love we share for each other is unfathomable. Unattainable by any other two beings. I love him with my whole heart, soul, body, mind, everything. I don't think I could even breathe without him. He is a drug, and I think I have overdosed.