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Jane's/Bella's P.O.V-

We just stood there.

Staring at each other.

I could sort of see a resemblance between us, but not by much.

I was just so happy to finally find my father.

My dad, someone I have been waiting for my entire life

I could see the tears swelling in his eyes and I felt mine ready to pour.

"Bella...?" He said shocked and totaly happiness filled his voice.

I quickly wrapped my arms around him as he did to me.

"I can't believe it...all these years...and my baby is finally here in my arms." I heaed my dad mummbled into my shoulder as tears fell off our cheeks.

"I know dad..." I whispered.

"Come in, you should be freezing in that weather." He said.

I smiled gratefullyand walked in

It was exactly how I imagened it.

It was a small house, but had moving space, it may have not looked like much, but it had that special feeling to it.

This is my home.

"How did you find me? How do you know I am you're father? Why were you on the side of road?" He asked.

"One question at a time" I said with a quick smile.

"I had some...car troubles before, so I went to walk home... and then I saw the picture of me on that website, and I don't think I want to know where you got that...I called my foster mother and she gave me the information, that I was an orphan and was adopted by her. I got your address and found you...and here I am." I said in a rush.

There was an awkward silence but I just kind of stood in my place and waiting.

"I know this must be weird for you...with all the changes that has occured into your life but would you want to stay." He asked unsure of me answer but hope was clar in his eyes.

I sighed.

I knew I had to get back, to wherever that may be.

I needed to fix things, With Jacob, and Edward, and me.

I looked up to see the curious gaze of Charlie.

"I really do want to stay I really so, but I am sure my mother would be very worried, so I must get back...but, I will be back to visit." I said and that seemed to have been enough for Charlie.

I hugged him good-bye and walked out to my truck.

I sat down inside of it.

I could see the small motion of the curtains move as Charlie watched me go.

I hardly respressed to rolls my eyes...I was home.

Then my hairs on the back of my neck stood, and I had this sickening feeling that I was being watched.

I caustiously looked to my right.

Nothing.

Then the same to my left.

Again, Nothing.

I looked behind me.

Nothing was in sight.

I quickly shook off the feeling and notice the dark blue note in the seat next to me.

I sighed and opened it.

I read it again and again but nothing really came to mind.

I knew I had to see Edward.

'I might as well leave this place for good.' I thought and I help back the threatening tears.

I quickly shoved that note into my jean pocket and backed-out of Charlie's drive-way and went on my way to see Edward.

I can't remember if I knew where he lived or not but I was smart enough to figure it out with all the information I already know anyway.

I eventually drove up to the house and slowly came to the door.

I did nothing.

I just stood there staring at it hoping for a Miracle.

I slowly, and hesitantly reached for the door.

I grabbed it and flinched mentally.

It was colder in it's own comforting way.

I wanted Edward near me.

I needed him, in more ways then I should.

I could almost see him next to me and being his caring, passionate, concerning and supportive as he always is.

Although I destroyed that chance I ever had.

I didn't have to save Jacob, and I didn't have to hug him and act more then a friend some way...maybe it was spite or maybe something else or did I really know what I was doing at all? but I lost Jacob along with Edward, and it was useless.

But I could almost still, feel the presence of Edward right next to me.

As if he was right behind the door I stood before and all I had to do is open it...

I just sucked in the threatening tears and walked away.

I felt a motion of air fly around me.

I whipped my head around to see my own personal angel there with the pain and hurt written all over him.

We both had our hands in our jean pockets staring at each other, both unsure of what to do.

I just stared, and to be honest there wasn't much that I could do, besides just throw myself into his cold awaiting arms.

But I couldn't, I knew that something would happen to the love we gave each other into but I didn't think it would happen like this.

He soon stepped to his side allowing me to come in without a single word.

I stepped in and didn't even look around, ignoring the curious and hostility looks I was getting from his family.

I just kept walking, out of his house to the forest surrounding it, as that sickening feeling that someone was watching only grew stronger.

I just quickly shuddered that feeling away.

I slowly walked along more and more and I knew that we were still not even close to the meadow yet.

I turned my head to look at Edward already knowing he would be there and I knew he knows where I wanted to gowithout even saying it.

My facial expression was curiosity but quickly flickered with agitation.

Edward got the message and with a flick of his powerful wrist I was on his back and he began running before I could blink.

He started running and it soon went into a rhythm, but I was completely uncomfortable on his cold back and I think it was because of the state our relationship was in.

We got there in a matter of minutes and he sat me down on the ground and walked away to other side of our meadow, far away from me as possible.

We just stared at each other and soon, someone had to say something.

I felt my mouth open and then close to say unsaid words.

"Why are you here?" Edward voice rang threw my ears.

I was utterly shocked by this question.

"Why wouldn't I be here?" I said

He gave a slight shrug and just stared at the dark misunderstood forest.

I slowly felt myself fill with anger, I didn't even know where it was coming from.

I sighed heavily and wouldn't look at him.

"Edward……" I sighed

"Look Edward, I am going to make this clear and simple so far o.k?" I said with my short temper flaring.

"I want you to explain this." I said taking out the dark blue note from my pocket where I shoved it before.

He excruciating slow turned his face but I instantly regretted even to speak to him with a nasty tone once I saw the expression plastered on Edward's face, and I caused it.

It was one of the most saddest, hurt, painful things I would have ever had to see none-the-less have to go through all that misery.

I couldn't have felt guilt and shameful anymore then this moment.

I quickly turned my head and just threw the dark blue note at him hiding the tears awaiting to fall.

I could feel him reading it again.

"What do you mean, explain this?" He asked.

I couldn't even bare the tone of voice he was using that I clasped to ground that I was previously sitting on.

I layed my head on the brutally cold and hard ground not even able to comprehend what was passing into my head and engraving it into my memory forever.

It was the most scariest thing I have ever heard and let a few tears pass by my face.

His tone was monotone, lifeless and sounded like he was crying and it cracked……. and sounded…..so…….soo……human but the type of pain shouldn't ever be for a human to go through or they would probably kill themselves right then and there.

And that's what Edward was feeling, I caused it, and I couldn't do anything about it anymore.

Not unless he would gain back the trust of me, and I highly doubted it.

I still was laying down on my side away from facing Edward letting the tears go down carelessly.

"I mean what do you mean 'I hope you are happy with your new life?' I don't understand, what happened back there with Jacob……I…..I….ca-aa….n't…..I…nooo..." I cried more and more and by the time I reached Jacob's name I just started breaking out into a sob.

I felt nothing after that I felt numb and I almost thought he just got up and left but I turned my head to see Edward sitting there with his head in his hands and it was looking into the ground.

I wanted to be strong, I really did... but ...it was just too much for me and I soon heard the whimpers of Edward's cries along with my tears falling silently.

"Ja……ne………." -I heard him crying a little more and then he finally pulled himself together to finish his sentence- "I left that note there so we could finally have the way we wanted. You finally had the love of your life that I could not supply for you ... and I am eternally sorry for. Jacob -(he sneered that part)- said that you wouldn't want to be with me since you and him…………have already claimed you wanted to be with each other and I was just your friend. I didn't say anything and left I picked your truck up to give back... and I left you with the note, what isn't there to understand?" He attempted to say and again silently I could tell he was crying again ever so silently.

I was shocked, and appalled at the most.

'How could Jacob………say such a thing!!! He was my friend not Edward, I loved Edward!!!! In ways Jacob could never!!!!!' I cried in my head.

I slowly sat up, stared out into space, and wouldn't look at him yet truthfully afraid of what would appear when I turned around.

"That's not true…." I whispered.

I heard everything go silent and I slowly and cautiously turned around.

I saw Edward looking at me with curious and hurtful eyes.

"I never loved Jacob, he was only my best friend, and I could never love Jacob the way I love you." I said and there was no movement in his reaction so I could tell he didn't believe me.

"You are so different from Jacob and I love you Edward and always have, I known it from the first glimpse of you, I honestly wish you would understand that Jacob is only my best friend and you…..you are my life combined with everything I ever wanted and yet didn't even know I wanted until I met you and maybe it was fate….or maybe something stronger pulled us two together but I know we were meant to be……… forever and for always and I will never be happy or in love with anybody else but you ever in my life. I wish you would understand that I never wanted you jealous or in pain because no one could compare to you, no one could come as close to you because you are my life and I will never have someone in my life as you are and that's what makes us so special. What I am trying to say is I will never want or need anybody other then you in my life and I love you in more ways then I probably should but all I care about right now is you and wishing you would see this…...that what I am saying is true with every ounce of my heart and more." I finally thought I got my point across but I looked at Edward and hope lit in his eyes and I saw a ghost of a smile touch his lips.

I wailed more, and more again thinking that what I have just spilled my true and utter feelings for him wasn't good enough………that... I wasn't good enough.

Then I saw Edward right next to me wrapping his cold steel arms and I just rested my head against his chest and tears still flowed easily out of my face.

I slowly looked up to see him.

I didn't know what to do, I was silently asking permission to kiss him but I didn't know if he was just sympathetically comforting me or—

I was cut off by Edward's lips crushed deeply to mine.

I taste felt like heaven on my lips and I couldn't have been more happier or shocked.

He accepted my apology and maybe we could finally be together………..

I needed to breathe but I couldn't care less I was just asking for more and I crushed our bodies together trying to get each other to understand how much we meant to each other.

No matter how hard I may have tried, I couldn't even express what Edward meant to me.

I loved him so much more then life itself.

We finally pulled apart and I fell back gasping for air my lungs have been screaming for but I was just to caught-up in the moment to care.

I just went to fall out of Edward's lap and hit the ground while gasping for air when Edward hand caught my back from hitting the ground. I smiled up at him and saw the real Edward shine threw with all his glory with the Full moon's light bouncing off his skin making him shine slightly.

I saw Edward's hair in disarray from my hands tugging on it and he was breathing heavily for some unnecessary air too.

I looked up to see him staring at me with slightly doubtful eyes.

"Is that true?" I heard him ask

"With everything I am and more." I said.

I kissed him again and again until I honestly couldn't breathe that well and I just need to have him by me afraid that maybe by the slightest movement he would disappear and everything would never have been here…………..like everything I just went through was a huge mistake.

Soon we layed together and watched the stars float above our heads and holding each other close and just being in peace like I was with Jacob when I was younger.

Nothing ever has to be the way it was….maybe just a little different and still everything can fall right back into place……

If only that lasted………

A/N- ok i really really really really REALLY liked this chapter espescially the ending! but it kinda doesn't matter to wat I think but wat do my readers think?? sorry for all the 'bolding' and 'underlining' and 'italic-ing' everything Ijust think its fun! lol! Tell me wat you think!! (Sorry for ot updating sooner and grammar/spelling errors)

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