Author's Note: This one ill be less then a hundred words. Or more depends. Well You have it, Second drabble on Mar.

This ones pretty sad. Like every other one, well most, because I am going Feelings here. And we all know the garde are not exactly on happy bunch most of the time.

Marina

Those were the happy times, that I would now call equal to a living Lorien.

Eight. I won't even deny it now. This isn't something as simple as a crush.

I love him.

My thoughts keep on going back where he had his arms outstretched to me, his mouth open, wanting to so desperately say something before his death.

I could have saved him, I have super speed, and if I wasn't so frozen and in shock, maybe he would still be here today.

And maybe I wouldn't be blowing everyone off and be a cold hearted person.

Sometimes I like to think about the times I got to share with him. The memories.

Like the time we saw a monstrous, Chicago-styled hot dog.

The times we kissed. One from him as a friendly gesture, and one to him from me as a special gesture.

He was not only everyone's comedian and clown.

He was my clown.

Every time he made me blush, smile or laugh.

And I only met him for so long.

He was my bright spot. My own personal flame.

Not everyone knows it, but they all have a bright spot in their lives, a person that isn't yourself that carries some weight in your life, their actions, their tiniest actions, can change your life.

And it takes less then a second to know Eight was mine.

Like you might think, your cepan was yours. Everyone thought that their cepan was theirs.

Except me, and in ways, I am different from the others.

So it only makes everything harder for me. The easiest way to do things is to build myself walls, not unlike Six and Nine's.

And only through the worst can I now understand why.

Author's note: Internet doesn't work... Take a few days. So I will just work on my chapters for now, until it is fixed. Half banned from computer so may not be able to update for some time.

Next one is on Eight, per someones request. I do not remember an cannot check right now.

Thanks to EpicLoric24 for being awesome and adding this story to her favourites.

Thanks if you reviewed and whatnot.

I am now updating One Step at a Time soon.