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Gail fucked up and she knew it. She could always tell the exact instant when it was all going to shit. And tonight at the Wooden Nickel was no different she knew the moment when Holly pulled her from the bathroom unwilling to argue with her that she was royally fucked.

So now Gail finds herself sitting on the curb just outside the bar waiting for her friends, she didn't bring her keys because she was with both Dov and Chris so they were unnecessary. She's trying to focus on anything other than what just transpired between her and Holly. She tries counting the cars, making inward remarks about the drunken coeds traipsing up and down the strip but nothing is working. She wants to cry but she can't allow herself her mothers ever present voice is in the back of her head "Gail, we are Peck's we are strong and uncanning, we don't show weakness." And Gail knows that crying is the number one sign of weakness. Right now crying is something that she so desperately wants to do. But through the years of living with Elaine she has learned how to suppress these types of feelings. So she sits and waits with her head in her palms.

Steph Holly's friend ushers the pissed off Holly back into a booth, she makes a quick trip to the bar for some top shelve whiskey, yes she is pissed at Gail for making her friend and sister-in-law so upset but she can't help but feel as though Holly needs to go after her.

Steph places one glass in front of Holly as she sits down. "So are we going to talk about it?" Steph knows that Holly has to process everything before she can vent she needs to get everything in perfect order before she can properly let it all out. Steph knows this but she isn't as patient as Holly needs her to be so she continues.

"She's really beautiful Hols." Nothing. Holly is still intently starring at her drink every so often she swipes her thumb across the brim.

"Feisty." Still no response from Holly.

"I think I'm going to like her." With that Holly jerks her herself from her thoughts and gives her friend a look that would even scare Gail.

"What do you mean you think you'll like her? Can't you tell its over between us? I mean fuck she just walked out and you think you'll like her?" Holly couldn't believe what just came out of Steph's mouth. She had to be blind not to know that whatever Gail and Holly had or could've had is now dead in the water. This frustrated Holly to no end, first she had Gail approached her and accuse her of being some type of player now she has her best friend telling her that she could like Gail. This was too much for one evening. Especially after spending the whole evening thinking about Gail and how much she was liking spending time with her and daydreaming about what this could mean.

"Hey, hey, hey calm down. Talk with me."

"What am I supposed to say? That the girl that I seeing just accused me of being a player, or that I just spent the whole night complaining to you about how this couldn't take forever because I when I told Gail that we couldn't hang out tonight she looked like a kicked puppy and I wanted to stop by her place and see her for a while. Or should I say that I'm so pissed at her right now that I could scream. Which one sounds best to you?"

Steph could see how distraught Holly is she knew that Holly was falling for this girl, and that's something that Steph has never seen from Holly before. Yes she has seen her in relationships long-term relationships but she could tell that Holly was never in them with her heart. She knew that Holly has been upset when relationships didn't work out but she has always been so quick at getting back on her feet. Steph could see things that only best friends can see. She saw that Holly was different with Gail she knew it from the first time she called her about Gail. So she gave Holly a simple smile and said "neither."

That was the last straw Holly broke down because she couldn't handle the array of emotions she was going through, Steph put her arm around her and for the first time since this conversation started she was silent.

"What should I do?" Holy asked between silent tears

"What do you want to do?"

"I want to be pissed and never speak to her again."

They both looked at each other knowing that that wasn't going to happen.

"I want to be pissed but an even bigger part of me wants her."

"Then go get her, it's really that simple Holly if you want something you go after it."

"Steph, its not like the movies nothing is ever as simple as they make it in the movies, that why I hate them so much. What happens if I was right that it really is over and this outburst was just her way of ending it with me, but I go to her and make a fool out of myself just to find out that she isn't into women and this was her way of ending it for good?"

"Come on now Holly! Do you really believe her acting crazy jealous was her way of breaking it off with you? I know you are smart but damn Holly that is the unintelligent thing I think I have ever heard you say."

Holly still looked like she was questioning everything that Steph was telling her. Holly finally took a sip of her drink and went to say something but she was cut off by Steph "Listen Holly I don't think it was right for her to say those things to you and I think she has some apologizing to do but you could tell how visibly hurt she was, she likes you just as much as you like her. And don't tell me that this isn't anything because I have never heard you talk about some as much as you talked about her its practically all you talk about. You like her and I know this scares you because you and I both know that all of your past relationships have been out of convenience, not that there is anything wrong with that but I know that you always knew that you could live without whoever you were with at the time…" Holly gave Steph a look that said 'we are nowhere near that stage yet' and Steph knew it but that didn't make what she was saying any less true. "I know but if you don't get up off your ass you may never find out for sure."

Holly took a moment to compose herself she didn't know where to start all she wanted to do was find Gail. She stood up from the booth and told Steph just to take her car back to her apartment and crash there if she wanted to, knowing full well that Steph would call Holly's brother to pick her up from Holly's place on his way home from the hospital. Holly gave Steph a hug goodbye and walked out the front on her way to Gail's apartment.

She had no idea what she was going to say once she saw the blonde she figured that the walk over would help clear and organize her mind, what she didn't expect was to see Gail sitting on the curb with her shoulders hunched over and her head in her hands.

Almost as it was a natural instant Holly sat down and wrapped her arms around Gail. Gail fought her at first before she said "Hey its me" with that Gail just slumped into Holly's arms allowing herself to do the one thing she had spent the last twenty minutes trying so desperately to hold in. Gail sat there a second softly crying in Holly's arms before she tried to escape Holly's embrace.

Holly held firmly, she wasn't going Gail go so soon. "Hey relax its okay"

Gail squirmed some more "Holly I can't I really can't do this right now." Her voice cracked and you could hear the pain in her voice.

Holly let go of Gail and slowly began to get up this was exactly what she feared the most rejection was something that everyone has faced before but it never gets any easier. "Okay." Is all that Holly could manage before she started to walk in the direction of her apartment. Her heart was breaking and she knew that she had fallen way too fast and this was her punishment for it.

Gail was still sitting on the curb watching Holly walk away she kept telling herself that she was doing Holly a favor by letting her go and that no one deserves to be with someone as messed up as she is. Once again every rude comment her mother had said about her was currently present in her mind.

For a split second she remembered the conversation she had with Holly after the movie. When Holly told her "You are so much more than enough" Gail still had her doubts as to if her next move was the right one but for the first time she went after something that she and only she wanted. Going after Holly had nothing to do with pleasing her mother or making the Peck name look good this was something that Gail did for herself.

Gail rose from the curb and took off running towards Holly she was only half a block away but she couldn't waste anymore time walking.

"Holly!"

She picked up her pace not caring who saw her running, "Holly!"

Holly had been walking slower than normal she was letting everything that happened this evening sink in, the worst case scenario had happened she swallowed her pride and nerves and sought after Gail even though her mind was telling her not to but for once she ignored her mind and as cliché as it sounds she followed her heart and what did it get her? Nothing. Gail had rejected her. And now here she is walking down this busy street watching the concerned looks on strangers faces as the notice her blotchy red tear stained face.

"Holly!"

Gail was almost there "Holly! Jesus Holly wait up."

Holly had though that she heard someone call her name but she also thought that it was just her subconscious playing tricks on her. She didn't actually realize that that Gail was in fact the one calling her name until Gail had grabbed Holly's arm and pulled her into a hug.

"God I'm sorry! I'm so sorry please don't hate me." Gail was riddled with emotion but she managed that much. Gail has never been good with words or apologies' but she knew that she had to say sorry and at this point she didn't care how her voice cracked or how much her hand shakes she had to tell Holly that she was sorry.

Holly was still silently crying she didn't say anything to Gail she just looked into those crystal blue eyes and knew that she could never stay mad at Gail. "Can we go somewhere?" asked Gail after silence from Holly "…and talk"

"Yeah, mine." Replied Holly still upset but the crying had subsided.

They walked to Holly's apartment in silence they both knew that the talking would come later and right now they both just needed quiet. But as they walked Gail would gently touch Holly nothing suggestive but just comforting when they got to a cross walk and waited for no cars Gail lightly whipped the smeared mascara from Holy's eyes and when they were walking side by side her hand would brush up against Holly's so lightly that Holly couldn't tell if it was intentional or not. And lastly went they entered Holly's building Gail held open the door for the brunette and as she walking in behind her the blonde genetely put her hand on the small of Holly's back as if she was guiding her into the building.

They made their way into Holly's apartment and shed their coats and shoes, Holly walked into the kitchen. They still haven't spoken since they started the trip to the apartment.

"I'm making tea, you want a cup?" asked Holly, Gail was still awkwardly standing at the door not exactly knowing where to go.

"Yes, thank you." Gail replied. She decided to follow Holly into the kitchen. She waited at a distance until the water was boiled and Holly had held out a mug for Gail to take gesturing to the couch in the living room.

They sat down and sat in silence some more, this silence was slowly killing Gail. She knew that this mess was her doing and it was going to be her job to fix it.

"Holly?"

Holly turned and faced Gail. She ran her hands through her hair and repositioned her glasses on her face.

"I'm sorry."

"I know Gail." To Gail Holly looked tired and even though Holly has a busy schedule and a mountain of responsibilities Gail has never seen her look so tired and drained and she knows that she's the one to cause this unnatural state from Holly.

"I'm a fool and its okay to say it, I messed up I mean I really messed but here we are in your apartment I don't know how you do it…" Holly looked at Gail with furrowed brows and a questionable look on her face. "I mean we've been seeing each other for what four weeks and this is the second tine you have allowed be to flip out and your still here. I know that I should be giving you a long whined meaningful apology but first I wanted to tell you thank you. Thank you Holly Stewart for doing something that no one has ever done for me, and that's given me a second chance. No matter what happened between us good or bad I want you to know that I appreciate that more than you could ever know."

Holly was shocked she had some ideas as to where this would go and Gail thanking her was not one of them. "Gail stop you don't have to."

Gail took Holly's hand "No, Holly I really do. I acted like an ass tonight I made myself see things that weren't true and instead of handeling these fears like an adult I drank too much and said things that I didn't mean because I was scared and I needed something to get me out of the scared place I needed my emergency exit so I made one and I got you mixed up in it. And for that I'm sorry I know that you had nothing going on with that girl but I needed a reason to make my exit before it was too late. You see Holly I've always been the one to get hurt and I can only take so much so I just leave before real feelings can get involved"

Gail adjusted their hands a little and wove their fingers together she needed a second to relax and compose her thoughts she looked into Holly's chocolate eyes and said "But its too late because my feelings have been involved since the moment I saw you on the first day of class when you gave me that goofy half smile that I adore and said "See you next class.""

Holly slowly let go of Gail's hands and got up from the couch looking down at Gail she knew that the blonde didn't expect this type of reaction out of Holly but Holly chose to ignore that fact as she straightened her shirt and lifted the now empty tea cups and walked towards the kitchen sink. Gail remained sitting berating herself for allowing herself to share the fact that she has 'those' types of feelings for Holly, but Holly approached the couch and held out her hand for Gail to take. She tugged on Gails hand just enough to let the blonde know that Holly wanted her to stand up and Follow her.

They were walking down the hallway towards Holly's bedroom when Holly finally spoke. "There are two things you need to know." Gail looked intently into Holly's eyes, "first next time we argue make sure its something silly like stop squeezing the toothpaste from the middle or wipe away the coffee grounds that didn't make it into the machine, okay?" Gail smiled and said "okay."

Holly now looked very seriously into Gail's eyes she had one last important thing to say and she didn't know how Gail was going to take it, but Holly decided long ago that you say things when you feel them and not a moment later. "And second I told myself that the next time I do this I'll know for sure that I'm in love, and I need you to know that I don't expect you to say anything regarding the fact."

"But Holly" Holly shook her head no to Gail and just continued to lead her into the bedroom, as they got in Holly shut the door and released Gail's hand

"I'm not lying you don't have to say anything this is something that I told myself and I just thought you should know, I don't need you to say anything especially if you don't mean it."

"Holly, I understand where your coming from but…" Holly still shook her head no to Gail. Gail couldn't believe that Holly was being so casual about what she just told Gail. I mean didn't she just say that she loves me but now she's telling me that she can sleep with me without it meaning the same to me? What is going on? This isn't how it works. I don't want her to think that this is meaningless to me.

"Listen Gail I know it's a lot to take in all at once…" but Gail was finally able to cut Holly off

"You have to understand that I know that I love you, I know that you're all I think about anymore, you're all I dream about and when I'm not with you thinking about our pervious time together or counting down the minutes until your school break, and how I know that even though its your break I can normally find you held up in your office working. So you need to know that you're all I can think about. So yes Holly I do have to say something; and that something is that I love you. And I know I'm completely in love with you."

Holly dropped Gail's hand she didn't know that to say, here was Gail telling her that she loved her back and she could tell that she meant what she said she never saw Gail's eyes show so much honesty they turned from a piercing blue to an icy crystal blue. But she couldn't help but think that she was dreaming. How did this happen when two hours prior they were arguing in a bathroom at some college bar. Finally Holly broke her silence. "You do?"

"Yeah I really do"

"Okay."

"Okay."

Gail stood there less than a yard away from Holly smiling because she was in love, she wanted Holly all of Holly and after tonight she would have it. Just knowing this made Gail feel that she didn't have to worry about screwing up anymore she knew Holly loved her and that was enough to make her want to be everything that Holly needs.

As if they read one another's minds they both took a deliberate step towards one another instantly locking lips. This kiss was passionate and wanting there was no shyness in they way they kissed one another. Holly began walking Gail towards the nearest wall Gail didn't even realize her legs had moved until she felt her back being knocked into the wall behind her. Holly's movements were gentle and strong all in one she began to pull Gail's hips into her and wrapping her arms around Gail's waist she then allowed her hands to sink down and cup Gail's ass pulling the blonde even closer into her. Gail was in a trance Holly's lips and hands had her in such a state that she didn't realize that her hands were now on he inside of Holly's shirt kneading her breasts. She would have still been in that trance if she didn't hear the moan that erupted from Holly when she found her nipple and started to roll it between her index finger and thumb. They looked at one another not knowing what the other one was thinking

"Bed?" Holly asked in a breathless voice.

Gail nodded,

Gail was surprised when she felt Holly grip her around her thighs and lift her up, instinctively Gail wrapped her legs around Holly's torso, this contact to her sent shivers through her body and she couldn't help but let out a breathy moan. Holly kissed her shirt-covered chest and carried her off to the bed.

Holly less than gently placed Gail on the bed and straddled her hips going directly for Gail's sweater lifting it over Gail's head, she then very quickly got rid of Gail's wine colored bra, not even stopping to pay any attention to how the deep color contrasted so heavenly with Gail's pale skin, no Holly was on a mission and that was to get Gail out of her clothes a fast as possible.

Holly started to unbuckle Gail's belt when she felt Gail grasp and hold on tightly to her hands, was I going too fast? Yes of course you were going too fast. How could you be so careless of her feelings? Holly was so embarrassed that she didn't dare to look up at Gail. Gail could sense that maybe she gave Holly the wrong impression by halting her movements. So she tilted Holly's chin to face her and gave her a devilish grin and flipped Holly over to her back. "Nerd, its not fair" said Gail as she was kissing Holly's neck and behind her ear.

Holly could barely speak Gail's tongue was doing wonders to her body and they weren't even there yet. "What's not fair?" Holly finally managed.

Gail continued her assault on Holly's neck "babe you still have on all your clothes and here I am half naked… its not fair" as she seductively sucks Holly's earlobe into her mouth. Holly just sits up pulling Gail with her and quickly looses her shirt, as Gail reaches around to Holly's back to unhook her bra. Gail is far from done she wants Holly out of all her clothes just as desperately as Holly wants Gail out of hers. They both look up and began to strip of their own jeans. When Gail sees Holly bare for the first time she is completely astounded, yes she has seen women in locker rooms before but she has never seen anyone that could hold a flame to a naked Holly, but she knew that this was much more than lust, she knew that although Holly had this crazy amazing body, but that fact took a passenger seat to the fact that this amazing beautiful, sexy, smart, wonderful woman loved and wanted her.

Gail leaned to kiss Holly she wanted to be as close as possible to this woman she had never had sex with a woman before but there was no second guessing her feelings. Gail experienced absolutely no second thoughts. She knew without a doubt that she was ready and willing to be exactly where she was. Holly's hands started to wonder across the blondes back gently kneading and tugging at her taught skin. She dipped her hands down to cup Gail's perfect round ass and pull her even closer into the already heated kiss. Holly broke the kiss desperately needing more she began to kiss among Gail's neck nipping at the warm skin and then smoothing it over with sweet open moth kisses she followed a trail to Gail's breasts, now she was eye level with two perfectly round breasts with the lightest pink nipples Holly has ever seen. She immediately wanted to kiss and suck on them but instead she nuzzled her face into them gently rubbing and cupping them with her hands. She was so involved that she almost didn't notice how Gail roughly wove her hands into her dark brown hair keeping her in place. Holly decided then that this position was not conducive to what she wanted to do to Gail so she gently placed her hands on Gail's hips and transferred her to her back. Now Holly positioned herself on her elbow and placed her lips to Gail's closest nipple while the other hand began to roll her other nipple between her finger and thumb. She don't spend too much time making lover to Gail's nipple she could feel how sensitive they were becoming and she knew if she continued they would become sore for Gail, she finally released her mouth from the blondes nipple, she ended her assault by placing a soft kiss to both erect nipples. She felt herself being pulled up to Gail she kissed her and they both smiled. With a surprising amount of force Gail pulled her into another kiss Gail was becoming desperate but she also didn't want this moment with Holly to end she vowed to hold on as long as possible, but having Holly hover on top of her was becoming far too much for Gail to handle she could feel Holly's inner thighs touching her otter thighs as she was straddling the blonde woman beneath her. That was it; Gail could no longer wait patiently.

Yes Holly's hands were drifting towards her center but they were only teasing the very ready blonde. Gail knew that Holly intentions were not to tease and string her along but she needed to feel more. More of everything.

"Holly don't tease me" Gail managed to say as Holly's hands made their second trip down her sides and over her hip bone.

Holly didn't even think that her actions could be considered teasing she was just so enthralled by how Gail's body felt. Soft and hard, warm and firm. It was a lot and Holly just wanted to know every possible inch. But she halted her movements and kissed Gail firmly while she raked her hand over Gail's stomach and gently into her center. The gasp that she heard from Gail made Holly smile. She parted Gail's center and began stroking circles around Gail's hard nub. She felt Gail's thighs twitch and dipped her index finger into Gail's entrance and continued the same pattern of circles there, she immediately felt Gail's hips lift off of the bed practically begging for more. Holly shifted herself as she was now laying in-between Gail's legs. She looked up to Gail as if to ask for permission. When Gail's head lifted from the pillow and they locked eyes Gail lightly nodded her head giving Holly her consent. Holly dropped her mouth to Gail's throbbing clit circling it gently Gail found relief with one hand on Holly's head keeping her firmly in place while the other had a death grip on the bed sheets. Holly continued her ministrations on Gail she worked her tongue against Gail's whole center being completely aware of every illicit sound that was coming from the blonde. She knew that Gail needed more so she inserted one figure very slowly into the blonde.

Gail's hips rose violently off the bed and she began to keep pace with Holly's thrusting Gail found herself wanting more but she couldn't form words in-between ragged breaths and guttural moans, but Holly read Gail's body and she inserted another figure and deeply curled both inside the blonde Gail rasped "Don't stop baby!" Holly's hands and mouth effectively sent her over the edge. Holly was rewarded with Gail's husky voice calling out "Oh god, Holly!"

Gail regained her breathing and found Holly placing light feathery kissed on her jawline down to her shoulder.

"God, Holly don't you ever stop?" Gail teased.

Holly giggled "Is that a complaint?... because you know there is no law saying that we have to do that again."

Gail flipped Holly over to her back and straddled her hips, thoroughly surprising the brunette. "Did I say it was a bad thing?" Gail asked as she quirked her eyebrow letting Holly know that she expected a response.

Holly was flustered, she was turned on, she's been turned on and now she has the object of her affection straddling her. Her mind was now racing with all the possible things that she and Gail could do to each other. She couldn't be expected to form coherent sentences. "I…uh."

Gail smiled "yes?" as she traced her a single finger down Holly's sternum towards her breast.

You could tell by the look in Holly's eyes that she was asking for mercy "Gail." She rasped.

"What do you want baby?" they both knew that the playful teasing was over, and now was not the time to put off or delay Holly's needs any longer.

"Gail just touch me already."

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