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Supernatural

I can't right now.

After a very tiring day at Alec's I headed to the library to do some research. Sam and Dean were already there and they brought me a change of clothes so I could get out of this stupid skirt. After I changed I came out of the bathroom and sat next Sam.

"Alright her bedroom had the smell that a very powerful spirit was there. But I couldn't find anything else out of the ordinary."

"We've been doing some research on urban legends with axes. There's a very old wise tale about a guy name Max Logan he also slit his wrists with an axe after he slit his wife's."

"Why?"

"It turns out that his wife was pregnant," Dean said showing me a picture of the couple.

"And he hated the idea of kids that much?"

"No, they weren't married and he was a very moral person smart ass."

"Oh god…"

"What?"

"Carol and Alec they were talking about having kids soon too."

"But they're married aren't they?"

"No, they couldn't Carol wasn't any religion and she refused to convert to one just to get a slip of paper telling them they were going to be together forever."

"So do you think she was pregnant?"

"It's possible. I might be able to get a hold of the coroners report from Alec."

"Oh no way you're not going near him," Dean said.

"Why?"

"Because someone has to be summoning this spirit, it's most likely him."

"So this is like the hook man with an axe?"

"Sort of except with the hook man they didn't know he was attached to them. Alec might be the one who did this to Carol."

"I'll kill him…"

"Memphis, calm down, we need more information first. I'm going to go see if I can figure out where this guy is buried," Dean said standing up and heading over to more records.

"Mem…"

"Yeah, Sammy."

"Do you want to talk?"

"Yeah, do you think we should try and find out what happened to the axe?"

"I don't mean about that. About Carol…"

I shut down, "No I don't want to talk about it."

"It's okay to be upset Memphis. I was upset as hell when Jessica died."

"This is different Sam."

"How?"

"You were with Jessica for a few years before she died. I hadn't seen or spoken to Carol since I was 18 and we left for good. We had a complete blow out."

"Everyone fights Memphis even the best of friends."

"She tried…she tried to contact me over the years, calls, e-mails, letters, even came to Kansas City once and I just blew her off. Maybe if I had paid more attention ... maybe if I had been around more…"

"You can't do that. You can't beat yourself up over things you…"

"Things I what? Had no control over? I had control over them but I blew her off Sam. I ignored her for years."

"You can grief you know?"

"I can't not right now."

"Memphis…"

"Sam, I'm telling you right now and I'll Dean later but if I find out that Alec is the one who did this to her in one way or another. I'll kill him."

I kissed the top of my brothers head and whispered in his ear, "You can grief to you know?"

I walked away and into the bathroom. Sam never forgave himself for what happened to Jessica and we all knew it. I looked into the mirror in the bathroom and splashed my face with water then my phone vibrated.

"Hello?"

"Hey, it's Alec…I'm um… not doing so well right now could you come over?"

"Yeah, I'll be there in ten minutes tops."

I walked out of the bathroom and went over to Dean, "Can I borrow the Impala?"

"What for?"

"I'll go buy us some lunch and I'll swing by to pick you guys up afterwards?"

"Alright just be gentle."

I laughed and took his keys. I drove to Alec's house as fast as I could. When I got there it took all the energy in the world not to pound his face in when I saw him. He invited me in and we went upstairs to his and Carol's bedroom.

"Alec, what are we doing?" I turned around in time to see him smirking and locking the door behind us.

"We're finishing what we started all those years ago."

"Alec your wife just died! You did it didn't you…you summoned Max Logan."

"You always were the smarter one. Don't you remember all those years ago Memphis what we did? What you did?"

"Alec…that was a mistake that we both made. I never even bothered you afterwards. I let you date my best friend. I never told her anything. Just let me out please before you get hurt."

"Who's going to hurtme? Your big bad brothers? Dean couldn't hurt me then and Sam was just a kid and look around you they're not here!"

"They will be in ten seconds Dean's going to call my cell phone I won't answer and he'll tell Sam, Sammy will put the pieces together and they'll come here. Your human Alec and I won't hesitate to kill you."

"Oh really you would kill me?"

"In a heartbeat."

"You're a very bad girl. Betraying your best friend, sleeping with me even though you knew I was dating Carol."

"We both did it! I can't screw myself you were there. It was your fault to so don't you dare try and blame this on me you sick mother!"

I whipped out my gun and shot him in the arm. The spirit of Max Logan appeared and came at me with an axe. I reloaded my gun so fast with rock salt it was crazy. I repelled the spirit as much as I could until I got the hell out of there. I stuffed the gun in my jeans just as the Impala pulled up. I jumped in before it even completely stopped.

"Drive!"