Title: Sex, Drugs, and Rock & Roll

Author: innocent choir girl (ff-dot-net), shannyfish (From Out of the Lab/Miami Heat/LJ)

Summary: Jake Berkeley takes Calleigh undercover without the permission of who he's working for, Horatio, or even Calleigh herself… Will Jake prove his true colors?

Category: Ship Ahoy! Calleigh/Horatio

Genres: Angst, Case, Drama, Suspense

Characters: Jake Berkeley (Other), Calleigh Duquesne, Horatio Caine, Frank Tripp (Other), Alexx Woods

Warnings: Adult Themes

Rating: R

Chapter: 10 "Innocence"

Author's Notes: So, it took me a little longer because I was busy…doing fun stuff. HEEHEHEHE and at least the CBS doesn't COMPLETELY suck, since we got FANTASTIC NY and LV finales, but Miami still gets an F. So sorry… I've decided that this should have been the finale nods or something nice like this ehehe Of course, I'm pondering re-writing the ep…yes…we shall see… I have all summer, right? Yes, I know, I have five other stories to write…

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"Do you believe in innocence, Mr. Berkeley?" Horatio asked from his spot in the corner of the interrogation room. He was not interesting in Jake Berkeley as much as he was concerned for Calleigh, but he had wondered if he'd thought about the consequences for his actions before he'd kidnapped one of Horatio's CSIs. In his dark navy suit, Horatio almost blended into the corner. Normally a bright blue or white shirt brightened up the outfit, but today he was in a black shirt…he didn't feel the need to be bright. He kept his head down as he waited for the answer to his question.

Jake was cuffed, but had been set in a chair at a table. He was sweating and feeling the effects of withdrawal form the drugs he was so used to being in his system. "Don't try to tell me that Calleigh's some innocent," Jake spat. "She wasn't even an innocent at the academy."

Horatio shook his head, "Calleigh wasn't the person I was referring to…" He wanted Jake Berkeley to know, but he also wanted to make him suffer. "But rather the child inside of her…" Of course, whether that child would survive was still up in the air, Alexx had her doubts, but Horatio had faith in Calleigh. Even though she'd been through so much, he knew that Calleigh would never harm an innocent…but he knew that she would need support… He knew that even without being pregnant that she'd need support, and they would be there for her.

"Child?" Jake questioned and studied Horatio to try and gauge rather he was telling the truth or not. "It's not possible…" Jake brushed off figuring it was some obscure tactic that Horatio had come up with.

"So, you're telling me that you had protected sex with Calleigh," Horatio pushed. "That the semen we recovered isn't yours, and yet it matches you? The child is yours, Mr. Berkeley."

Jake smirked, "At least the kid'll be good looking and smart."

"Yes, I suppose you're right with Calleigh being the mother," Horatio commented as he shifted his position and approached the table. "But that child was not conceived from love, Mr. Berkeley. You raped Calleigh over and over and over again…" Horatio said, emphasizing 'over' each time. He wanted to kill him with his bare hands, but Horatio knew that there'd be no justice at his own hands.

Jake kicked the table and attempted to get up, "It wasn't like that!"

"The evidence says otherwise…Calleigh says otherwise," Horatio said forcing himself to be calm as the officers stepped away from the door and pushed Jake back down into the chair. Horatio found it amusing that Jake was technically one of them, and yet he had no power…and he knew Jake Berkeley was one who loved his power. "Do you even care about the harm you've done to Calleigh? The tearing that they spotting during her sexual assault exam will thankfully heal…but she's lost an unhealthy amount of weight… That baby may not survive…"

Jake just stared at Horatio, "Not my problem Calleigh can't take care of herself."

Horatio looked down at his hands before speaking again, "Frank, why don't you and the sergeants take a walk and get some coffee?" he suggested, but wanted them to take it as an order rather than a suggestion.

"I'd much rather watch," Frank remarked from his place near the door, but he sent his sergeants away. He knew that they all wanted time with Berkeley, but he also knew that Horatio might need someone there to make sure he didn't go too far if punches started to be thrown about.

"Suit yourself," Horatio said with a slightly smile, his gaze still at his hands downward. Horatio moved behind Berkeley's chair and pulled it roughly to the side, so he was no longer facing the table, "I tried to help you, Jake… I warned you about how going over to the dark side ruins people…and instead of listening; you ignored my warning and dragged Calleigh with you."

Jake stretched out his legs and slumped in the chair a bit trying to find a comfortable position, but it was hard with his hands cuffed behind his back. "Calleigh wanted to come…it just took some…more…unconventional means…"

"Is that how you're justifying putting drugs into her system and raping her?" Horatio asked raising his eye level to the far green wall. It was taking all of his will to stay calm…to keep his cool…and to keep his hands off of Berkeley.

Shrugging Jake went on, "It's not like she said no…" he justified.

Horatio repositioned the chair roughly, pulling it farther away from the table, but leaving it facing the same way. "Or you didn't hear it."

"She was begging for it…" Jake insisted. "She was hungry for the drugs and for me… I can't help it if she doesn't have any self control." Jake shifted his gaze from the wall, to craning his neck so he could see Horatio, "Actually…I was going to ask you if you two had a thing going on… I swear I got so sick of her talking about Horatio Caine. I couldn't blame you for wanting to have Calleigh on the side after work; she's totally worth the possibility of IAB finding out. Isn't she?" A smirk found his lips, "Maybe…maybe you're not the only one Calleigh's fucking though…maybe she's the lab slut…"

Horatio had heard enough and found himself pushing Jake and the chair towards the table and watched as Jake's head hit the table before he fell the floor in a heap. He noticed that Frank hadn't moved from his spot by the door, and he doubted anyone would really complain besides Jake and possibly Stetler. He noticed some blood and immediate complaints from Berkeley as he moved around trying to get up blaming Horatio and calling it police brutality.

"That's what happens when you try to get up and you slip," Frank said as he leaned down and pulled Berkeley up.

Closing the distance between himself and Berkeley, who was bleeding from his left right temple, until he was just inches from him. Quietly, Horatio told him, "You will never see that baby, but be assured that your baby will remain an innocent… I can promise you that," Horatio said before turning. "Perhaps you should inform Jake who gets killed first in prison," he brought up before pulling his sunglasses out and holding them in his hands.

"You think that they're really going to send me away? I know people, Caine," Jake told him. "I'll be back…for that baby and Calleigh…"

Horatio turned back to Berkeley, his eyes filled with anger. He wanted him to see them, though, he wanted him to know that he was going to make sure that he never got anywhere near Calleigh or her child. "I think that you'll be dead before they can make you a solid court date."

"Rapists are pretty high on the list," Frank told him as he pushed Berkeley along past Horatio.

"Right under child molesters," Horatio added before he slipped his sunglasses on.

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Alexx hadn't left Calleigh's bedside all morning. She had managed to get her shift covered at the lab, telling them that she had an emergency. Calleigh was an emergency, and Alexx intended on being there for her friend. "Honey, you need to eat and get yourself re-hydrated." She reached out and stroked Calleigh's hair back out of her face with one hand before offering a large ice chip and rubbing it along Calleigh's cracked lips. "I'll have to bring some chap stick with me later…" she told her in a soothing tone.

"Don't want any," Calleigh whispered and rolled onto her side away from Alexx. She had spent most of the day staring at Alexx or out the window. Little had been said, but she knew Alexx was trying to help…she just wasn't sure how much help her friend could be.

Frowning, Alexx dropped the ice chip back into the cup. She put a smile on when she saw Horatio appear from behind the door, "Look, Calleigh Baby… Horatio's come to save you from me," she joked and then got up taking her khaki jacket and her purse with her. She walked around the bed and looked down at Calleigh, "I'll see you tomorrow afternoon, okay? You call me though, if you need something…even if you just want to talk…"

Horatio gave Calleigh a smile, but became worried, when Alexx made it to the door without Calleigh said one word to Alexx. "Hey Sweetheart," Horatio greeted tilting his head to put his face at the same angle as Calleigh's. "Just a second…let me walk Alexx out real quick," he said before he put his hand on Alexx's back and guided her out of the hospital room.

In the hall, Alexx stood with her arms crossed over her chest. "She's hardly said a thing to me all morning… She ate a couple bites of the apple sauce yesterday, but today she's refusing ice chips…" She sighed and rubbed her head tiredly, "I'm really worried about her…"

"What have the doctors said?" Horatio asked studying the floor. "The drugs are flushing out of her system rather quickly. The doctors think that she wasn't continuously on drugs…that she had periods in between where her system could flush them out. The doctors think that she was only exposed to Methamphetamine, Lysergic Acid Diethylamide, and Rohypnol. Calleigh won't talk about it, so all we can go on are hunches."

Horatio nodded, "I understand, but that's good…that she's not dealing with such a hard time with withdrawal…and doesn't that mean there will be less possibility of her losing the baby?" His main concern was for Calleigh of course, but he was also concerned about the baby as well…

Alexx tilted her head back and forth for a minute before responding, "If she doesn't start eating, then she's going to lose the baby…as it is the baby's holding on by a thread… It's a miracle that the baby's held on this long."

"Understood…" he whispered.

"The doctors would release her if she'd eat… They'd just want to assure her weight gaining will be monitored. Alexx was sure that her worry was showing, she'd thought all morning about how they could lose Calleigh if she didn't help take care of herself. "She's stop fighting, Horatio…"

He hated to think that Calleigh had stopped fighting…that she'd just given up…and after everything she'd gone through. He looked up at Alexx, with concern written all over his face. He was determined to make Calleigh fight now…they just needed to find the right avenue for it. "Why don't we give her something to fight for?" Horatio suggested.

"Like what, Horatio? You have to get her to talk…or at least listen. I don't think she listened to anything I told her all day…except the things she didn't want."

"How about," Horatio started and then stopped considering what he was considering. He looked to the left and then back at Alexx, "How about…we tell her about the baby…"

Alexx shook her head, "Horatio, I think that'll just make things worse…plus, I can't see her making it through whole if she tries and then miscarries and knows it, Horatio."

"We'll just have to keep that from happening," he told her as confidently as he could. He put his hand on Alexx's as a comforting gesture and added, "We'll see you tomorrow, Alexx." Horatio gave her a small smile before turning and re-entering Calleigh's hospital room.

He noticed that she had rolled over and was facing the window rather than the door, and let his head fall and his gaze meet the floor for a minute or two before he spoke up. "Calleigh, we need to talk…" he told her quietly. "I need you to talk to me…"

"I don't want to talk about Jake," Calleigh whispered.

Nodding, Horatio made his way around the bed to the chair near the window. He moved it closer to the bed and then took a seat in it. "We're not going to discuss him…not right now," he tried to assure. "Sometimes…sometimes there are things in life," Horatio told her as his hands meshed together folding in front of him as he kept his gaze on Calleigh's hand laying on the white sheets of the hospital bed. "Are unexpected… Unexpected things can seem really horrible, but sometimes…sometimes they turn out to be unexpectedly beautiful…"

"I don't feel beautiful," she admitted as tears fell from her eyes.

"Life is precious, Calleigh…" Horatio kept going. "You can't give up on it… I'm not going to let you." He reached out and gently took her hand, "People love you, Honey. Alexx sat here all morning because she loves you and she's just trying to help you…we all want to see you better." When Calleigh didn't comment further, Horatio pressed her, "Sweetheart, why don't you tell me what you're thinking?"

Calleigh sighed, but knew that they'd all keep at her until she said something. She'd rather talk to Horatio than Eric…or Alexx. They'd worry too much, and they'd make sure she was kept in the hospital longer than necessary. "That I should be dead… From the drugs… I thought about usin' Jake's gun one time when he was passed out… I could have slit my wrists when I left the bloody trail for you… That I hate Jake… That I'm angry, confused, upset…and I hurt…I hurt inside," she continued as tears continued to flow at a greater pace and her voice broke in between. "I don't want to hurt anymore…"

Seeing her cry…he wanted Jake Berkeley alone in a room more and more each second. He was starting to wonder if he should have stopped Calleigh from shooting him. "You're still recovering from the drugs, Calleigh… Depression and regret for things you think you should have done are normal." He squeezed her hand and reached out with his other to barely brush her face, not wanting to scare her, "But hear me on this, you should not be dead… You're a fighter, Calleigh… You need to fight now."

Calleigh pulled her face away from his head and stared at the other way for a minute as she sniffled and tried to calm down. She just wanted to give up… Calleigh wanted the pain to end. She wanted to die, and she didn't want Horatio making her feel guilty about it.

"Why aren't you eating?"

"My stomach's still hurting," she admitted.

Horatio reached out, and turned her face back, "You're hurting because your body needs food, Honey. You need to start eating… The doctor last night said you should be eating about every two hours… You've lost a lot of weight…but you're in a good condition considering everything…"

"I didn't like the applesauce."

He nodded understanding, but then decided that he needed to come clean with everything. "Calleigh, you need to know something…" He took her hand in both of his and stared at it, "I think it's something to help you concentrate on getting better, but I can see you also being reasonably angry and upset about it."

"What?"

"Well," Horatio started and then looked up so that he was looking her in the eyes. "Calleigh, you're about four weeks pregnant… So far, the baby's stable…but…they're afraid if you don't help yourself get better that you'll lose the baby." He could see panic flash through her eyes and anger and confusion.

"No," Calleigh said quickly. "No, the nurse…the nurse and Alexx did the examine last night. They didn't say I was pregnant."

"They were afraid with you detoxing that you'd lose the baby…that you were too fragile to be told. If you're going to give up, I think you should know everything," Horatio told her. Tears started to roll down her cheeks again, and Horatio could tell that it was un-welcomed news.

"The baby's Jake's…"

"I know," Horatio replied as he squeezed her hand gently. "He's never going to touch you again, Calleigh. I promise you that."

Calleigh tried to say what was on her mind, but nothing came out. She squeezed her eyes shut, trying to make Horatio go away, but when she found that he was still there when she opened them, she figured that it was useless. "The drugs…everything…I've hurt the baby…" she finally blurted out. "I don't even remember good chunks of what happened, Horatio…"

"Right now, I think the most important thing is for you to get well," Horatio insisted. "This baby is yours… It's depending on you…"

Shaking her head, Calleigh let out a ragged breath as she tried to calm a bit more so she could talk again. "I can't…I can't raise a baby on my own."

"You don't have to."

For a long time, she just stared at Horatio. Partially shocked at what she heard, and partially trying to reprocess what he'd said to make sure she'd heard it correctly. What was Horatio proposing? Could she even go through with the pregnancy? What if the baby couldn't survive? What if she killed her own child because of her refusal to eat? What if there were defects? "I can't ask that."

"I'm offering," Horatio told her and sat forward in his seat. "You're not alone, Calleigh…not even close."

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TBC…