Unconditional

Summary- Bella wants to fulfil an adventure she only wants to take with one person. She wants to deepen her love for this person in the most beautiful and desire binding way, that is filled with nothing but romance.

Rating- This Story is going to be rated "M" guys.

Chapter Ten: The Equivalent to hell

Edwards's point of view

I had to walk out of the room where my love was at breaking point. She was on the verge of a break down and I wanted nothing more than to comfort her. I hadn't meant to loose control of my anger and shout at her like that, but I let my mind take over my feelings. I wasn't thinking when I was demanding all the answers from her. I wanted to hold my angel in my arms but she had yelled at me countless times to leave her and get out. I couldn't believe it at first, so I went against her pleas and tried to comfort her, but she threw it back in my face and begged me to get off her.

She couldn't even stand being touched by me and that is what hurt the most. My heart was already breaking; it was like history was repeating its self but vice versa. I had a strange feeling of déjà vu.

I slowly made my way home, only her own words stopping me from running back to her arms. I reached the drive way and Alice was already waiting for me.

"Edward?" her little voice chimed. I walked past into the house and on to the couch in the living room. Ignoring everyone I placed my head in my hands and dry sobbed.

Obvisluly this had not gone unnoticed by my family.

I felt a hand on my shoulder. "Are you okay Edward?" my worried mother asked.

I stayed perfectly still while my body was still shaken by my sobs. Carlisle and mow walked in with the rest of my family. I felt my father presence next to me and new he had taken a seat with me. They were whispering amongst there selves, which was nothing I wanted to hear so I blocked it out, only thing about my Bella.

"He feels so much pain, and is in so much despair, almost guilty" Jasper blurted out to my family and I rose my head, to be met by my mothers hurting eyes. She was so worried for her eldest son. That much was evident. Carlisle was growing evermore anxious and badly wanted to know what was wrong. He hated seeing nay of his family in pain. "Edward, please can you tell us what is wrong?"

My eyes paced around the now full living room. Rose and Emmet were sat together patiently waiting alongside Alice and Jasper, to see what had upset their brother so greatly. My parents, Carlisle and Esme, had placed themselves either side of me and were now waiting for me to speak.

"I can't" I mumbled out before dry sobbing once more, but I continued "I am such a monster; I deserve to be dammed to hell"

"EDWARD" My mother screeched.

"Don't ever talk like that Edward; to many people love you, for us to ever loose you!"

Carlisle placed his hand on my shoulder and calmly continued.

"Please son, what has happened?"

I just shook my head. Jasper look as pained as ever and everyone was becoming more and more worried.

Edward I saw it

Alice thought suddenly. I looked up at her and saw pain in her eyes.

"What did you see Alice?" I asked knowing she would hate me. All of my family were now edgier with this new found information.

All I saw was Bella screaming at you to leave, when you tried to comfort her, she screamed for you get of her, then you left

"Didn't you see anything before that?" I asked politely.

"No" she replied simply.

"Ahem?" Carlisle grunted. "Not meaning to be rude but could we steer away from the private conversations, Alice and Edward and can you share this with the family."

I ignored my father no wanting him to be disappointed in me.

"Edward, why are you scared that we will be disappointed in you?" Jasper asked confused by my sudden mix of emotions.

I just started at him. Not wanting to reveal what had happened.

Can I? I will only tell them what I saw in the vision, it will be up to you for the rest.,

I simply nodded, knowing that my family were going to be mad at me for me doing such a "crime"

"I had a vision of Edward and Bella, and some how I don't think it is the whole story, as I only got a bit of it."

"Please continue Alice" asked my mother.

"Bella was hysterical, and was screaming at Edward. Edward had tried to comfort her, but as he did she had screeched at him to let go of her and leave her alone." Alice whispered to the family.

There was a long silence.

The atmosphere in the room was filled with tension and everyone had questioning looks on there faces.

"Edward is this true?" Carlisle suddenly asked.

"Yes" I was barely audible.

"Can you tell us what happened for it to lead to this situation?" Emmet asked which I was surprised by because he and Rosalie had been unusually quiet.

After a short pause I continued, I wouldn't go into detail but they needed to know.

"Bella had text me to come over, as she had been in town and I happily made my way over as fast as I could. I hadn't seen her since lunch and wanted to see if she was alright. When I got there Bella was fine but I suddenly felt angry as she had gone into town at that time of night on her own. She was safe but I couldn't help but feel powerless and let my anger get the better of me, we ended up having a blazing row, in which ended with her wanting me to leave and her exact words were 'I cant do this, leave now'" I was now guilt racked, and my family new what a monster I truly was.

Every one was quiet for a long while, just comforting me, but all I wanted. No! All I needed was Bella in my arms for me to ever feel whole again.

I made my way up to my room and sank down onto my bed. All the pain came out then and I screamed in frustration into my pillow.

My family potted round the house as I heard then doing there own business. I was secluded in my own mind, where pain was anguishing; it was playing my dead heart and I didn't want it to stop. That was because I deserved all the pain in the world that was thrown at me. Moring came quickly and I t dawned on me that Bella would be waking up in a couple of hours. I heard Carlisle leave for work and Emmet and Rosalie had gone hunting I think. But the only thing on my mind was Bella. What would she be thinking? Was she regretting yesterday? Was she thinking about me?

There were so many questions that were whizzing threw my brain right now it would give any human a head ache for eternity. I was spiralling in my own self pity when I hadn't even tried to contact the person I supposedly loved.

Of course I loved her, with all my being I did. I was aching for her. My phone disrupted my thoughts as it beeped.

I grabbed my phone in hope that it was Bella. And it was. She had sent me a text, my face sprung into a smile and I excitedly opened the text message for it to reveal what it said, I was like a little boy opening the Christmas presents from Santa.

Hi Edward, I am fine. I think we both need our breathing space. I will see you on Monday at school. Sorry x

She wanted some time out? That was understandable and she had said sorry, that was the confusing part as she had nothing in this world to be sorry for. I would respect my loves whispers and this gave me some hope but it was only Saturday evening, I had around 42 hours before I was aloud to see my Bella again. This was going to be torture, but I had to accept it, the last thing in which I wanted to do was to push her away even more. All I had to do now is wait.

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