Part Two: I've Gotta Whisper Cause I Can't Be Too Loud

After that, I couldn't wait to see her immediately but I didn't because that was her last day with us. Her dad had been called back to work. So … I wouldn't see her. Not again until next summer and when she came back and we picked up where we left off.

Bonnie commented on how my voice had gotten deeper and I wasn't as lanky as before. I told her that I liked the fact that she had finally gotten boobs and we laughed. We laughed and laughed and talked and kissed a lot. I started calling her golden lips. Being away from each other for 11 months hadn't changed much of anything.

And when she left we vowed to keep in touch and do it all over again … next summer.

I would never say this to anyone or admit it but Bonnie was my first. During the summer of my 16th birthday she came to visit me in the midst of the whole Bella drama. I thought I was falling in love with Bella, but I'd always had feelings for Bonnie.

She was going off to college and I knew that this would be the last time that we would see each other like this. Bonnie was so careful with me, soothing. She was patient and didn't complain or say anything bad about what we had just done. She just kissed me warmly and stayed with me until my dad and I had to take her back to the airport.

I thought about what we'd just done. I thought about my feelings for Bella and how I had kissed her so passionately, but I never thought I'd see Bonnie again. I wasn't really sure that I would ever see her again so … I forced myself to forget her and I consumed all my thoughts with Bella and hid any memory of Bonnie behind for a long long time.

This worked out for a while until I heard from her a few years ago. I was about twenty-one years old and she was just finishing up college. Bonnie was studying to become an archaeologist … I don't know what possessed her to call me.

When she did, I almost didn't answer because the number wasn't familiar. I was glad when I heard her voice. We talked for hours and I wanted to see her again.

We met up a year later both of us secretly hoping to continue our little fling, but I had promised myself to Reneesme .. Nessie, who had just recently entered her teenage years. I was nervous to see Bonnie again, but excited to tell her how everything had changed for me.

She would be really surprised to see me now and I just hoped that her time away from me in college didn't permanently tear us apart.

"Bonnie?"

"Jake?" She ran into my arms, jumping on me with such force that it felt like I had been tackled. "You look … exactly the same, but much much bigger." She commented with a smile. When we parted, she looked at me the way she used to. I could feel the connection, the heat rising, us about to fall into the same patterns that we always did.

"I'm engaged." I blurted out immediately as Bonnie broke out into a smile.

"And I'm in a relationship." Her eyebrows rose as Bonnie wrapped her arm around mine and we started walking to the checked bag area.

"Which one?"

"I can get it." Bonnie stepped up, lifting a huge suitcase that looked like it was about seventy-five pounds too heavy. "Easy."

"Wow? Lift weights much?"

"Look who's talking 'the Incredible Hulk'." Bonnie shot back, placing her hand on my abs. "You need to cut back on the steroids or whatever you're taking."

"No meds. All naturale." I boasted, lifting up my shirt a little, showing off that I was an arrogant little shit … sometimes.

"Really. How?" Bonnie probed, turning to face me. I had to tell her the truth now.

"Look Bonnie … there are some things that you just don't know about me but I want to be honest…" I bent down to where my lips reached her ear. "I'm a werewolf." This would be the time that I'd expect her to say that I was really funny or complain that I had lost my mind.

Her response was a simple, yet short, "I know."

"You know?"

"I know." Bonnie hugged me tightly. "Your exponential growth, how you always got places so quickly, your … body heat. I know. And there's something that you should know about me Jake …"

"Wait. I'm still stuck on how you would even know about any of this."

"I'm half Quilete too. I know all the legends and I know … about the cold ones too and what you'll think about this, but just let me say this." Bonnie begged. I shut up for once, knowing that she was serious. "I'm dating one of them. And don't judge. He's not perfect but he's right for me at this time."

"I'm really … disappointed to hear that. Bonnie, how can you when you know the legend? When you know who I am and why I still look like I did three years ago?"

"Jake. Don't be a hypocrite." Bonnie tossed back, laying her hands on either side of my temple and holding me there for what seemed like an eternity. "And you … you're with a half-vampire but you really wanted to marry her mother who was turned into a vamp."

"How did you…?" I wondered as she started to wheel her suitcase down the building.

"Witch."

"Oooh. Wow." I looked at her in awe. Bonnie was always different from everyone else.

"Don't judge me." She joked as we continued the small talk until getting into my car which was old and barely running, but it still worked. "So tell me about her. She's still a kid right?"

"Right." I admitted, looking down. "But I'm willing to wait for her-"

"And I'm not asking you to cheat with me. As amazing as those memories are that I have, I wouldn't force you to do anything that you didn't want to do." Bonnie offered. "And it wouldn't be very nice if I just cheated on Damon. We're not exclusive or anything, but he's really fun … and insecure."

"I'm glad that's settled." I answered, a little upset by her answer. I could just imagine her lips on mine, like kissing an angel. The image was pressed into my memory, playing over and over until we arrived at her dad's house. "Dad and I fixed it up for you."

"Amazing." Bonnie gushed, running up the hill to the front door. I chased after her, unlocking the door and letting myself in. "Oh look! These photos are awesome!" She exclaimed, excited. "And … this must be the bedroom…"

"Be good Bonnie."

"I am being good." She joked, resting her hands just above my hips but under my shirt. "But tell me, how long since you've been abstaining until she's old enough to even have the developed parts?"

"Not funny."

"Why would you pick a kid … And I thought I robbed the cradle." Bonnie started unbuckling my pants eagerly. I reached out a hand to stop her.

"I think about the future, not the fleeting desires of the present." I explained confidently.

"Let's stop playing around Jake. I didn't just come here to see you and spend time. And I promise that you can tell her whatever happened was my fault." She tugged at my shirt suggestively with a freedom that I do not remember her having before. "I'll be the bad guy and you can play the victim."

"You are just so-"

"Forward? It's a new feeling to me. I feel like I'm getting things figured out." Bonnie explained removing my shirt completely and kneeing down until the side of her face touched my stomach, leaving me feeling as though she carried more body heat than I.

"This might be too … close." I argued as Bonnie stood up and refastened my shorts.

"How's this … I promise we won't have sex." Bonnie whispered, reaching her hands around the back of my neck, brushing her lips against mine. "I'm sorry." She breathed, giving me one more with her lips so sweet, so soft, so angelic. "I can't help myself."

"Damn Bonnie." I moaned. It had been a long time. I'd almost forgotten how good she felt.

(A/N: :) -NL)