The Repercussions of Lies
Chapter 10
A/N: okay this chapter will start to change the direction of this lovely story, it will become darker now, also this chapter will be a pivotal moment for Ianto and Jack.
Tosh stirred in the early hours of the morning, Jack breathing a sigh of relief, he had every confidence in Owen, although he never told him that, knowing that Tosh would be okay but Jack spent the whole night rationalising his situation. He couldn't die, everyone he knew, well other than The doctor, would die, and probably a horrible and gruesome death, especially those closest to him, everyone in Torchwood died so young, he wanted to protect them all, but how. Well he did with Ianto, Ianto now has a normal job, no association with Torchwood since the 'accident', well the only association was with Jack, but that was a bit of fun. Ianto! Jack thought suddenly, he was so caught up with Tosh and her injuries and worrying about his team he forgot about Ianto. He tried to remember if they had a 'date' set to meet, not that he could think of, but he did miss his special time with Ianto. He wondered if an early morning visit to Ianto would be acceptable. Hopefully Owen will turn up soon.
Jack monitored Tosh noting that she was responsive and the colour had returned to her face, although she was still quite sleepy. It was 6am, another hour before Owen would arrive, hoping that Ianto would be awake he called Ianto on his mobile. No answer. Damn, Jack thought the more he thought of Ianto the more he wanted him, needed him.
At 7.10am the vault door alarm screeched to announce Owen's arrival.
"You said that you would be in at 7" Jack greeted him.
"Good morning to you Jack" Owen said sarcastically, "is anything wrong with Tosh, I told you to call me if something happens"
"No, Tosh is fine, she slept as you predicted, and she stirred about 6, I gave her a drink and then she went back to sleep"
"Good" Owen said, then while he checked her vitals, Tosh woke, "how are you doing?"
Jack went to get his coat while Owen examined Tosh. "Going out, see you in a bit" Jack called out to them, thinking of Ianto.
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Coated in a layer of sweat Ianto ran up the stairs to his apartment and stopped dead when he reached his floor to see Jack standing at his door knocking. "Jack!" Ianto said unbelievably, all his resolve to end it with Jack dissolved as Jack turned around and smiled at Ianto.
"I hope you don't mind me coming so early in the morning" Jack said apologetically, "I missed seeing you yesterday, needed to see you, see your face" Jack said breathlessly.
Ianto, breathless as well, located his key tucked in his sports top pocket as Jack stared at Ianto with intensity. The moment the door was opened Jack dragged Ianto to the bedroom, taking off his coat and letting it fall to the floor.
"Take your clothes off" demanded Jack to Ianto, Ianto hesitated for a moment, "now!"
Ianto has had enough sexual encounters with many different people that he wasn't alarmed to the different urgencies of sexual gratification. Ianto quickly removed his clothes and allowed Jack to take control. After a short but rough time Jack reached his climax quickly and brutally.
"Jack?" Ianto said quietly after Jack rolled off him, "is everything okay?" Ianto thought he knew Jack well enough to know that Jack was always a fair lover, not always gentle but that was okay, that was the beauty of having sex with men, you could be more rougher, women tend not to like it that rough but Jack always insisted that Ianto be satisfied as well.
"Yeah, just missed you, is all" Jack said flippantly, "didn't you miss me?" Jack said pouting.
Ianto huffed, shaking his head and laughing, "Yeah I missed you, but you were rougher than usual"
"Did I hurt you?" Jack asked alarmed, he spent the whole night and morning worrying about the people close to him and then he goes and hurts the one he was really getting to like.
"It doesn't matter" Ianto said off-handedly, "is there anything you want to talk about?" he asked concerned.
"No, and what do you mean it doesn't matter?" Jack said.
"It doesn't matter, if I can help you then it doesn't matter" Ianto said while staring deeply into Jack's eyes.
"I don't want to hurt you Ianto" Jack said pleadingly.
"I know that Jack" Ianto said smiling, "but I would really like that you can talk to me, tell me when things are bothering you, let me be a part of your life"
Jack in that moment realised that Ianto could never be a part of Jack's life, could never let Ianto remember about him being involved in Torchwood, could ever let him remember that Jack was the one to run him over, the one that hurt him.
"I'm bad news Ianto" Jack said getting up and picking up his clothes, "people around me get hurt"
"Jack?" Ianto got up looking for his discarded boxers, by this stage Jack was already at doorway of the bedroom, mainly dressed.
"Ianto, I like you, I really do but I don't want to hurt you"
"I told you, it's okay Jack" Ianto said trying to convene that he understood Jack's urgency for sex and satisfaction this morning.
"No, it is never okay, not when I can't…" Jack cried.
"You can't what?" Ianto asked curious.
"Leave it Ianto" Jack said angrily as he picked up his coat and stormed out, leaving Ianto stunned.
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Jack stormed into the Hub seeing that Suzie was not in as yet, "Where's Suzie? Has she called in to explain why she's late"
"Jack, it's not quite 8 yet, and keep the noise down, you're upsetting the weevils in the cells" Owen yelled up at Jack.
"Who's monitoring the rift?" Jack continued to speak loudly.
"Well as you can plainly see, I'm here with Tosh, and Suzie will be in, in the next few minutes, so no one Jack" Owen said calmly yet tinged with aggression to show Jack that he was not going to be yelled at, "didn't you take the portable rift alert alarm". Thinking we really need to come up with a name for this devise but no one could think of anything fitting but catchy.
Remembering in his eagerness to get to Ianto, Jack forgot to take the portable rift alert that Tosh expertly rigged up that was connected to the computer so if there was no one at the Hub then whoever was elected that day or night to be on call could monitor from home or whenever they were. Jack walked up to his office, slamming the door, quickly going to his computer and checked the rift. Jack held his head in his hands after establishing that there were no rift anomalies whilst he was away 'visiting' Ianto.
The worry and pensive thoughts that he spent all night thinking about coming back to him, trying to keep his team safe, he not being able to die and yet they could, at any time and the need to get more members. Then he thought about the argument he had with Ianto, and the way that he fucked Ianto that morning, what should have been a physical release turned into something brutal and lacking in genuine feelings. Feelings that Jack hadn't actually verbalised with Ianto before but he hoped that his lovemaking did show to Ianto that he felt something more for him even if Jack didn't say the words mainly because Jack didn't want to admit to these feelings, but he was sure that Ianto felt the same. But this morning Jack used Ianto in a heartless way and when Ianto asked Jack to share his thoughts with him, as people who are sharing intimate moments do, he pushed Ianto away.
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After Jack left, Ianto got up and had a shower, trying to work out what happened. It all happened so fast, the sex, the argument and then Jack storming out, that Ianto didn't have time to process it all at the time. After showering and getting dressed Ianto had decided that his decision to move on, find a real job the night before was what he needed to do, so checking that the emails of his resume were sent Ianto decided to put in his resignation at the café and move back to London.
London, where he remembered was his last memory, remembering that, yes, he did some odd jobs while at uni and remembered that just before the accident he going to an interview for a more stable job, and that he was assured of this job, he remembers that this organisation sought him out. He couldn't remember the organisation's name, damn no matter how many times he looked up government organisations and rang some, no name rang a bell with him. And so he decided he would go back to London, more importantly because he felt that he left something in London, something important.