Chapter 10

"I can do this, I can do this" I repeated in my mind as I parked my car outside the yellow small house. I have never been inside the house, and if some one had told me I would be here right now, I would have asked them what they have been smoking. After last night I felt a million times better and more like my old self. I felt lighter, calmer, and kind of happy this morning when I woke up. I think this small step that I am taking will help me be more happy.

"I can do this" I said once more. I knocked on the dark brown wooden door, with a small window about 3/4 up the door.

The door open, to see the shocked face of my cousin

" Leah.. Hi I..I." Emily was beautiful even with the scars on her face, long black hair that stopped a little below her shoulders,Honey brown eyes, straight nose, small lips that fit her petite frame of about 5'3. Still as beautiful as ever. Emily had always been my favorite cousin, she was only a year older than me, but she was a lot more mature than me. She is kind, sweet loving and like a mom to every one.

" Hi" I said trying to smile. I had not spoken to Emily in months, and when I saw her I always threw her dirty looks, or simply ignore her like she didn't exist. I knew she was hurt, that was what I wanted, but now I can see how wrong I had been. I hurt because I lost my cousin/ best friend but so did she.

" Leah... Can I help you with anything?" she asked surprised, but looking hopeful

"I..I heard you always make breakfast for the guys so I thought I would cheek it out"

Silence. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I hurt her one to many times

" If that's alright with you" I took a few steps back" I could leave"

" What! No please stay! I did make breakfast. Come in please" I could heard her hope rising more

" OK" I said passing past her into the small, but comfortable, homey looking living room.

I was meet with Jacob, Paul, and Jared's hard stairs, ready to jump on me, if I dare hurt her.

I guess they thought I was bitter enough to hurt her

" Maybe I should lea-" I said turning back to Emily, maybe I could try this again when she would be alone

" What? Please no, stay" said pleading then turned to the guys and tried to give them a hard stare

I laugh, no mater how hard Emily tried when we were younger to give a hard stare she never could, I guess that had yet to improve

She gave a small smile

" So do you still make awesome french toast?" I asked, ignoring the guys glaring at me

" I .. I haven't made them in a long time"

" Why" I asked confused. She made great french toast, I could eat it all day

" Didn't have anyone to make the jelly" She whispered sadly

I swallowed hard. That was our tradition when she would come visit, or when I would go visit.

" Emily wake up. wake up" I whisper and shock her softly. I was fourteen and a freshmen in La Push High. She was fifteen and a sophomore at our neighboring reservation

" Leah, go away" She said covering her face with the blanket in the bed we always share when she would visit

" Come on Em, I am hungry" I whined

" No me sleepy" she said turning her head the other direction

" You know I wont stop bothering you, unless you wake up"

20 minutes later

Emily was making french toast and I was making fresh strawberry jelly. Our favorite

"So how is Sam?" Emily had been the first and only person I told that I had a crush on Sam

" Hot!" and he was

" Leah! am serious!"

" Hey! So am I. Have you seen him? He is getting a six pack" Emily rolled her eyes, she was not really into guys yet

" So are you two together yet?" she asked making a kissing face

" I wish" I said

" Don't worry he will notice you"

" Sure when I develop bobs like yours" We both laugh, Emily was an early boomer,while I was a late bloomer

'' I'm sure whatever you have would be great" I said trying to cut the tension

" Great" she smile

She guided me into the the table. There were huge bowls of,eggs, bacon,sausage, muffins, hash browns

" Sit, I'll get you a plate" she said. She came back with a plate and a glass

" Get what ever you want" I saw the guys a few feet away still ready to attack if I hurt Emily, but looking kind of jealous I got to eat first. I places a muffin, some egg, a hash brown and two pieces of bacon. Contrary to what most of the pack thought I didn't eat as much as they did, I ate like a normal 19 year old girl. I took the bacon and showed it to the guys and ate it slowly , then looked back to the guys and wink

" Good bacon" I said

" Thanks " Emily blushed

" You, sit, and eat" I said pointing to the chair across from me

" I..I am waiting for S-"

" Am here, lets eat' He said, walking up to Emily and kissed her, I felt a little hurt, but nothing to bad

Emily turn to look at me, with a worried look almost afraid I would run out.

I smiled. Truth was I was kind of jealous

" Leah" he said

" Almighty alpha" I said smiling

Everyone was stunned at me being here, being in Emily and Sam's house, being nice to Emily, and smiling at Sam

"Well, I better leave"

" What? No please" begged Emily

" I'll come back, I mean I do have to return your plate am about to take. If that's OK?"

"What? Yeah,sure" she smiled

" Thanks, Sam can I talk to you outside quickly"

We walked outside

" Whats up Leah?" He asked almost in disbelief I had just been inside his house

" I was wondering if I could have a few days off paroling, I need some time to clear my head, and I don't need those idiots in my head"

" Yeah , sure" he said understandingly

" If you need anything am here" he added

"Thanks"

" So your not going to tell me?" he asked

" Nope"