Hi guys. You probably hate me and I understand that perfectly, I would hate me too. So I'll begin with saying that I'm sorry for not updating for so long. I really hope you're still here with me.

Btw, I fixed every chapter in this story and I made a little bit of a change. Rachel is a self harmer or she used to do it. The reason will come forward in some chapter, sooner or later.

After a long shift at the coffee shop, Rachel finally made her way out of the shop with her cheerio bag on her shoulder. She still couldn't shake of the feeling that someone was watching her and off and it was starting to freak her out more by the minute. She got inside of her car and threw her bag in the backseat and then drove towards the school.

When she got there, there were only 15 minutes until the practice was suppose to start. Sue would kill her if she was late! She jogged towards the entrance when suddenly she felt the feeling again. She stopped at the door and looked around. When she saw no one, she walked inside and hurried to the locker room. She quickly changed into her uniform and ran out on the field. Quinn walked up to her with a sour look on her face. Her face was swollen and her eyes were red. There was only one explanation for that. Quinn had been crying.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

Quinn took a deep breath and wrapped her arms around herself.

"Puck and I uh, had a fight." she sniffled and dried away the tears that had started coming down her face again.

"About what?" Rachel said with confused tone. Quinn took a deep breath and looked down at her feet.

"I-I uh, I'm-

"Quinn! Rachel! Get your lazy butts over here right now and start this practice!"

Quinn and Rachel jogged over to the other girls and took their places. When Sue was yelling in her bullhorn once again, Rachel leaned towards Quinn.

"We're not done talking about this."

Quinn sighed and nodded.

"I know."

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After a long practice the girls made their way towards the locker room. Rachel was still dying to know what was up with Quinn but Sue had made her stay longer to talk about something. So that would have to wait until tomorrow since she was meeting up with Finn after practice. She had seen him at practice but now he was nowhere to be seen. Suddenly she felt herself being picked up and hugged tightly from behind with big and familiar arms.

"Well hello to you too"

"I missed you"

Rachel turned around and wrapped her arms around Finn's neck. He smiled down at her and rubbed her back as she ran her fingers trough his messy hair.

"I missed you too"

He smirked and gave her ass a little pinch. She jumped a little and slapped Finn's chest.

"Finn! Don't do that, I'm all sweaty and gross!"

Finn shook his head and moved his hands up to her neck. He took her face in his hands and leaned his forehead to hers with a half-smile on his face.

"Actually you look pretty hot when you're all sweaty."

Rachel gasped and slapped his chest. He laughed and took her in his arms, hugging her tightly. Again taking her face in his hands, he looked her straight in the eyes, now turning serious.

"I mean it though. You look beautiful Rachel. You could have a cold and wear ugly pajamas with kittens on them and still look beautiful."

She gave him a small smile and then dragged his face towards hers and gave him a long kiss. When she pulled away she looked in his eyes again.

"Thank you"

He shrugged and wrapped his arm around her shoulders, walking her towards the girl locker room. She leaned into his chest and held tightly around his midsection. Since she had nothing covering her wrists you could see long, deep scars in her wrists. Finn gulped and looked away, he couldn't handle looking at them, knowing that the girl he loved had done this herself. Shaking the feeling off, he smiled down at her, stopping just outside the girl locker room.

"So, how about we go grab something to eat and then go to my house and just watch a movie or something? Sound good?"

She nodded against his chest but pulled away to smile at him.

"Yeah. I'm gonna go take a shower. I'll be quick!"

And then with a peak on the lips she went inside the locker room, closing the door behind her.

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After they had eaten their take-out they stay cuddled on Finn's bed, Employ of the month playing on the TV. Rachel had her head on Finn's stomach and he was running his fingers trough her hair.

"Hey Rach?"

"Hmm?"

"Can I uh- Can I see your scars?"

When he saw the look that crossed Rachel's face, he was quick to add:

"You-You don't have to! If you don't want to the-"

"It's fine Finn."

Finn watched as she pulled her sweater over her head. Taking off the bracelets that she had, she turned her hands so her pulse point was visible to him. He stared at the scars covering most of her arms, from her wrists up to just beneath her shoulders. After a little while he took her hands in his and kissed both wrists, his lips lingering. When he pulled away with her hands still in his, he saw the tears gathering in her eyes.

"How long has it been since you..."

"I've been clean for two weeks now."

She managed to give him a little smile as she stared down at their hands.

"If you ever feel the urge to... do it again I want you to call me. No matter what time it is. I want you to call me, got it?"

She nodded and then he saw a tear falling. Gathering her in his arms, he hugged her tightly, mumbling softly in her ear.

Oh, why you look so sad?

Tears are in your eyes,

Come on and come to me now.

Dont. Be ashamed to cry.

Let me see you trough,

'Cause I've seen the dark side too.

When the night falls on you,

you don't know what to do.

Nothing you confess,

can make me love you less.

I'll stand by you.

I'll stand by you.

Wont let nobody hurt you.

I'll stand by you.

Rachel was fast asleep in his arms after his singing. He brought her under the covers and undressed himself, stripping down to his boxers and then crawling in bed beside her, wrapping his arms around her. Kissing her forehead he whispered:

"I love you babe. Forever and always."

Oh well. There it is.

Not very interesting chapter and not very long, I know. It sucks.

You guys probably hate me. You wouldn't be the first ones to do..

Anyways. Please share your thoughts in the Reviews. It would mean a lot to me if you did.

Until next time..

Oh yeah, btw I fixed every chapter in this story and I made a little bit of a change. Rachel is a self harmer or she used to do it as you found in this chapter. That's a twist I made because I have... experience. So, I hope you're ok with that..

Until next time...