Detour

Chapter 10

Cullen picked up the box. The night they found out that Alexandra was pregnant Malcolm brought him to the workshop to show him this box. "This is something that my daughter has to listen to. I know that she will not want to but you have to make her. Hold her hand to the bottom if she refuses. Do you understand me Alexander?" She was given it now. Of all the rotten timing. Cullen sighed bringing the box back to her.

"I am not going to listen to how my father had so much faith in me when I have failed him." The angry Hawke was back. He didn't care. He promised her father. Even if she tried to kill him he would make her listen. He placed the box in Aveline's hands.

"Now Lexie this is for your own good." Cullen said taking Hawke's hands. "Put it in her hands." She fought. She kicked. To no avail. The box opened.

"By now I know that you have thrown this box at least once. Ever my daughter. Fighting what is good for you." Hawke's shoulder slumped. Malcolm always knew how to calm his daughter down.

"I taught you everything about magic and the fade. I have taught you to hide and I fear that is what you will do after this major event. Know that that is not what I want for you. Don't hide behind the hollow smile and barbs." She grunted as if it was an inside joke.

"You are the most gorgeous Hawke in the world. Let the world know that. Let them see you for what you are. I will be be with you. Always remember that we walk with you. When they see you they see all of us. Carver's stubbornness. Bethany's wide eyed wonder. Your mother's kind heart. My skills. You have a strong name filled is centuries of heroes before you. Make them remember our names for centuries to come." Hawke whimpered.

"When the Wardens come to you it is up to you if you join them but please help them. Our blood is tied to them." Cullen was starting to pull away. Tied to the Grey Wardens? What was this about?

"I expect you have already made me proud. Kirkwall will sing your name until the next blight. I love you Alexandra Andraste Hawke." The smells faded. The lid closed as it clunked to the floor. Aveline was gone.

"I hate you Alex." Hawke said in a whisper.

"Why?" He rubbed away the tears on her face. "I just did as your father asked."

"Why? There was no reason to make me listen to that." Her eyes were so cold now. "I would have been fine in a few days. Now I know I failed my father. Thank you for that."

"You could never fail him. You father knew you are doing the best you can. He is what they call a dreamer."

"As far as I know they don't predict the future." Cullen could say nothing to that. There had been never been one in Ferelden. "Alex-"

"Did it hurt? Hearing your father's voice again?" When her hands touched his face he jumped a little. "Lexie, I still love you. I don't want to hurt you. Your father said that this would help after. He did-" Hawke put a finger to his lips.

"Shut up Templar." She leaned in. "I still love you too." Cullen met her lips. She leaned into he kiss maker him place an arm around her waist. Hawke pulled him to stand. For once he was glade he wasn't wearing his heavy enchanted plate. Watching Hawke undress him made him feel that they were just man and woman not Mage and Templar.

Her lips went around one of his nipples. Cullen felt the same static rush that he had when they were kids. Malcolm said it was the same as with her parents. It was a sign that they were meant to be together forever.

"Alex you are thinking too much again." Her eyes still held the hard anger, and the watery sadness. At least for now he would make her forget everything.

Cullen changed that second. He lifter her off the ground laying her on the bed. "Are you telling me I should only think of you?" He said playfully. This is what Hawke needed. Something to take her mind off what happened in some silly little diversion. She would beg Fenris for forgiveness later.

"Of me. Or parts of me." She smiled back.

"Certain parts I do like but you are more than the sum of your parts and I want to show you what I mean." Their lips met again. Hungrier this time. Hawke's hands went into his spiky blond hair. For a moment she mourned his soft curls he had as a child. Then Cullen lightly bit down on her nipple. She gasped arching to it. "What was that about thoughts?"

"I was thinking about you and the curls you had." Cullen smirked going back to the nipple he started with. His hands moved down farther to get the nightie off her. She knew where he was going. Unlike Fenris Cullen made love the same way every time. Maybe in part to lack of experience. Maybe because he knew she liked it predictable occasionally. When she didn't want to think about things.

"Alex-" He came up to her kissing her.

"Don't talk. Don't think. Just feel." Hawke could feel him entering her moaning with ever inch. It was a little painful but she could handle it. Cullen wrapped her legs around as he pushed in a second time. Soon she was so into it she did not want it to stop.

That was when Cullen moved her legs. This was new. He was enjoying being on his side while Hawke was on her back. Their legs intertwined as he thrust up. Her orgasms came faster too. Cullen's face was in her shoulder as he groaned louder. He was trying to make it last longer but she felt so good when she erupted around him.

"Alex!" She screamed as her body convulsed around him. When it was over she changed them again so that she was on top. Her hips began to rock. Cullen was lost in the Mage. She was coming close again. "Join me."

"Yes Lexie." He met her rocking with thrusts of his own until she slowed. Cullen took it there thrusting until neither could stand it anymore. The release was more everything than he had ever known.

Hawke collapsed next to him where she stayed for the rest of the day. Cullen was not there for long though. He kissed her cheek. "No matter what Lexie you are mine."

"Always Fenris." She murmured.

Hawke felt so much better now that the dream was over. There was no way she could fail her mother like that. She stretched. The cool evening air on her naked skin made her smile. The grumbling belly got her attention.

Hawke dressed heading down the stairs. Fenris stood with a Chantry sister talking to Orana. Everyone wore the the black tie of death on their fore arm. Aveline walked up to her hugging her.

"Who died Aveline?" The guard captain pulled away. "Come on can't be that bad."

"Hawke the wake for your mother is tonight. The funeral is in the morning." Varric said.

"No. That was just a nightmare. Mother is up in her room." Gamlen walked with his daughter, both dressed in black head to toe. Hawke backed away into the arms of Fenris. His eyes watered. That was the face that broke Hawke.