Chapter 10; The Joker = Hinamori Amu

Amu's POV

As I closed my eyes... I woke up in reality.. "Amu! Amu!" I heard a faint voice scream...

Tear burst through my eyes, as I lay my head into my knees. I had a brother..more than that I had a twin...and it's my fault that he's dead.. gone. It's my fault that he never got a chance to live.

"Amu!" I looked up finally noticing the two charas above me, with Tadase. "Amu are you alright?" A devil chara asked. I just turned away and cried even more. Tadase reached down...he handed me a hankerchief. "Why are you crying?" he asked. "Tadase.. y-you and m-me..." I drifted into more tears. Tadase bend down on his knees, "What's wrong?" he asked with a worried expression. "W-We w-were f-friends" I cried more.

Tadase.. he and the other guardians were all my friends from the past.. and to just forget them like that...

"What?" he looked confused. I wiped my tears away breathing more slowly.

"I don't remember exactly, I still don't remember anything. But... I now believe everything Ikuto said was true about losing memories. I lost memories of my friends.. my loved ones.. the ones I held dearest in my heart.. all because I wasn't strong enough to hold on to them. I'm not sure what happened to make my memories be erased.. and last week if you had told me this I wouldn't have believed anything.. but now..." more and more tears burst through my eyes. There was a sudden feeling on my shoulder like something was holding on to it. I looked.. Tadase's hand was on my shoulder..he was comforting me.

Maybe..Maybe Tadase is the one... The one I'm suppose to remember.

As more tears fell I couldn't take it anymore, I quickly, without even thinking about it, wrapped my arms around Tadase, hugging him. I was expecting him to push me off but surprisingly he jusy held me there.

"Don't worry, Amu. Everything will be alright." I finally broke the hug and looked at him. "Thank you Tadase" I smiled. (A/n; for everyone's information that part I did not enjoy writing at all for parts of Tadamu, but i'm just telling you not to expect much more Tadamu as this is an amuto story )

"Huh?" I looked around, "Where did Ikuto go?" I wondered. He looked around, "Hoshina Utau came here to take him away, it was probably just another Easter trick. I wouldn't worry too much about him, Amu." He smiled, I uneasily smiled and finally stood up, seeing both charas infront of me.

"I'm Iru, Nice to meet you, hehe" she laughed. Eru stood beside her. "And you! It wasn't a trick! You really are stupid, little king!" Iru yelled at Tadase. "What happened?" I questioned looking from Iru to Eru then to Tadase.

"Hoshina Utau showed up, Ikuto's sister," Tadase began to explain, "She declared she didn't know who Ikuto was" Tadase was soon interupted, "That's because she doesn't know who Ikuto is!" Eru proclaimed.

"What?" Tadase questioned. What had happened while I was lying there? How long had I been lying there?

"Utau no longer knows Ikuto, she no longer knows any of us. Not even me or Iru" Eru explained. Tadase had shook driping from his face.

"Why not?" he asked, but before anyone could answer sudden noise came from behind.

"Tadase!" A loud voice called from behind. I looked behind and there stood Rima, Nagihiko, Yaya, Kairi and Kukai. "Yo! Tadase, you coming?" Kukai asked as they finally approached. "Where are we going?" he asked them.

"Yaya wants to go to get ice cream!" Yaya declared, draggin kairi away, "C'mon hurry up!" I looked over and saw Rima and Nagihiko looking at me. They smiled as I smiled back. "Why don't we ask Amu if she wants to come?" Nagihiko asked the rest of the group. "Sure, if you want?" Tadase turned towards me. I smiled and nodded, "Sure!"

"Hey! Isn't this the legendary 'cool and spicy' girl from elementary school?" Kukai questioned looking at me. "She's more clumsy than cool" Rima noted. I laughed. Kukai joined in the laughing, "Okay then Hinamori, You can come with us!" He put his thumbs up. I smiled and walked with Nagihiko and Rima along the way.

Normal POV

"What should we do?" Eru asked, sighing. "We're following them!" Iru declared as the moved along in the same direction Amu had just left on with the guardians.

Amu's POV

" What flavour ice cream does everyone want?" Kuaki asked.

"Strawberry" I replied.

"Vanilla" Rima replied.

"Banana" Kairi answered.

"Chocolate" Tadase called.

"Vanilla" Nagihiko added.

"Yaya will have Banana!" she called.

"So Hinamori, what was happening at the park earlier before we interupted?" Kairi asked while Kukai ordered the ice cream.

"Oh that" I look at Tadase. "We were just talking" Tadase answered for me.

I sighed with relief and smiled at Tadase. "Amu-chan seems familliar does Yaya know her from somewhere?" she asked. I smiled, "I'm sure we've just seen each other around school."

"Amu, are you alright?" Nagihiko asked. "Yeah why wouldn't I be?" I faked a smile. "Because your crying" he pointed out. I quickly wiped away the tears, "Oh nothing, I'm fine" but after that I couldn't hold it in, and I broke down in tears.

"Amu!" Nagihiko yelled. "Amu!" everyone else yelled aswell.

"What's wrong?" Tadase called as I kept crying.

But I cut them all out.. I don't desevere to be cared for after what I did...

Amu...

Dia, I can't do this...

Amu-chan.. believe in yourself, believe in your friends.. don't give up. Please Amu... The lonliness will end soon.

What do you mean?

...

...

Dia?

Dia?

...

"Amu!" They all still shouted. I got up from my chair, tears still pouring from my eyes. I just needed to get away. I was all alone... these people don't care about me... I forgot about them, I still have and I will never remember them truly ever... The lonliness will never end...

I tried to run away but someone pulled me back..

I looked around..

"Yaya doesn't want Amu to cry!" she cried too. It didn't stop me, I kept on crying I turned back round and tried to run again but after running nearly three meters I was called back suddenly, "Amu! Wait!"

"What is it?" I got out. Rima looked at me, "Don't dare run away just because your scared to carry on. Don't ever run away because of such a stupid reason." she called. I cried still, "I-I'm not running away because I'm scared, I'm running away because someone like me doesn't deserve this, someone who forgot her best friends in the whole world, someone who forgot her true self, someone who even forgot the person she loves, and then someone who is this reason her brother died after not even getting to live one single day, doesn't deserve to be treated kindly. I don't deserve life... not a single drop of it." I cried more and more. "That's not all true!" Nagihiko called. I looked at him as he explained, "It's us isn't it? We were once your friends?"

I nodded, "I saw a memory, we were at graduation happily together. Even though I don't truly remember anything, I know that it's true." I cried more.

"I believe you" An almost silent voice called. It was Rima. "I believe you too" Nagihiko said after her. "When I see you, Amu, I'm always thinking that there's something familliar about you, like Yaya said" Rima explained. "And everytime I'm with you, I feel like I can trust you" Nagihiko added. I still cried. "So don't say your the only cruel one, because we also forgot you, and for that we must have made you feel so alone, I'm sorry, Amu," Rima smiled.

"Rima, Nagihiko!" I cried with happiness for the first time in ages.

"Yaya believes too!" Yaya announced, smiling. Kairi interupted, "However there is no logical reason behind all of this unless we all have minor amnesia."

"Stop being that way, Kairi! Not everything can be explained scientifically" Kukai protested, giving a thumbs up towards me and saying, "Don't worry, Hinamori, we'll return all of our memories back!" They all laughed, tears were still pouring down me.

I looked up as a sudden hankerchief was handed to me, "Don't worry, Amu. I believe you" I looked up seeing Tadase holding out the hankerchief whilst smiling. For the first time in ages, a smile shot through my dull face. Not a fake smile, but a true one.

"Thank you, to all of you." I smiled. "Let's go to the mall!" Yaya announced. Everyone agreed but I still stood there.

There was something I had to do first...

They walked ahead as I still stood there. After a couple of seconds ticked by they stopped and they all looked back, "Hinamori, Are you coming?" Kukai asked. I smiled, "There's something I need to do, don't worry, go ahead." They all shared a glance, "Everything okay?" they called. I nodded, "Everything's fine, so don't worry. There's something I need to do by myself."

Nagihiko and Rima both understood, "Okay, we'll see you later!" They both called then I saw them share a glance at eachother...

There was definately something going on between the two of them...

But there was no time to think about that right now, I knew what I was going to do next, and I knew where I would need to go to find it...

Ikuto.. just you wait.. I'm going to save you.

Even if I have to risk my life doing so..

Ikuto.. I need to know what you are to me...

So hold on until I get there...

Easter; here I come.

Emma; Well as you can see this chapter was a lot longer, and took me a couple of hours to write (: But it's all finished so I hope you like it, thank you to Chapter 9 reviewers which are; Foxgrl18 and alchemistlover14 (:

Won't review til I get 3 more reviews (: And If you also hate Tadamu like I do, then don't be offended by the hug... I gaged while writing it.. :(