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Chapter 10

I stormed out of the room, angry with Kaito and myself. Kaito for making me feel weird and myself for letting him see me weak. After the incident with my sister, I decided the only way to stop getting close to people was put up an invincible barrior. 'People will try tot close to you, only to stab you in the back.' This is what I told myself everyday, when someone got angry at my attitude or I ended up making someone cry. Eventually, I began to just push people away as a reflex action. And it worked. Until Kaito came.

I feel like singing is a way for me to escape reality because of the different stories in songs. The other reason is because when I sing, I feel like I can let down that invincible barrior and just be Luka. But afterwards, I go right back to being Luka Megurine, that blunt, sarcastic, rude bitch.

In the dressing room, I began to get ready for the stupid music video. I put on a black dress and wrap the red bow around my waist. I didn't do anything to my hair. After I was finished, I sat down on a chair and stared into the mirror in front of me. A girl with salmon pink hair stared back at me. She wore a stoic expression but if you looked hard enough, you could see the pain that lied in her eyes.

I stood up angerly, glaring at the girl. She glared back at me but still had that look of hurt in her eyes. I screamed and pushed the dressing table over. Stupid! You don't show emotions! Emotion is another word for weakness! You're not weak! You're not... Gah!

Burying my face in my hands with frustration, I turned and walked out of the room. Of course, as luck would have it, I bumped into someone. Lifting my head up to see who it was, I ended up facing the concerned face of Kaito. I tried to storm past him, tried to seem intimidating but he grabbed my wrist and pulled me back in front of him.

"Luka, are you okay?"

I averted my gaze, looked anywhere but at him. Stupid! The reason he thinks he can talk to you is because he's seen your weaker side!"

"I'm fine," I spat. He grabbed my chin forcefully and made me look at him. He was wearing his outfit for the video.

"Are you really?" Kaito whispered. I closed my eyes, blinking back tears. How did he do it? How did he make me this emotional, this weak?

"I said I'm fine! Go away, I don't need you, or Meiko, or anyone else! You're all just going to betray me in the end anyway!"

I smacked his hand away and tried to run but ended up just collapsing in a little ball. This all seemed to familiar. I could hear Kaito behind me, walking up to my discarded self. He wrapped his arms around me, pulling me to his chest. I struggled but, as usual, it came to no avail.

"I-I don't need you... I can take care of myself..."

Kaito mumbled soothing words as I cried. I couldn't believe it. A few minutes ago, I was lecturing myself on how I appeared weak to him. Now, I was letting him see me weak again! But the tears wouldn't stop flowing. I looked like a five year old.

After awhile, I had stopped crying and was just sniffling like a baby. I had probably destroyed Kaito's shirt. But he wasn't stopping me. He justs soothed me and ran his hands through my hair. Lily used to do that when I was sad.

"We all need someone, Luka."

I looked up at him. He only smiled back. I buried my face into his chest while sobbing. "I don't need anyone... I've been like this for ten years. I don't need anyone..."

"Well, then I need you."

My body froze as I processed what he had said to me. Why did he need me? What did I have to with him? I was rude, mean and sarcastic. I never appreciated anyone's hard work or presence. He was kind, polite and sweet. He always tried to help others and brought a smile wherever he went.

"Luka, why do you push people away? I want to know. I want to be closer to you."

"Why?"

Kaito's eyes found mine. I never noticed but he had very nice eyes. They were a deep blue, almost navy. I winced at my own thoughts and tried to push them away. But it was hard with him staring at me. When did you become such a... sissy?

"You heard me, why?"

Kaito was stumbling over his words. He looked like he finally found an answer and turned to face me. "Because I care Luka. I really, really care about you."

I could my cheeks going red and my eyes widened. He... cared? When was the last time someone told me they cared? That was ten years ago, when all my sorrow started. I felt a hand on my cheek and my face was pulled over to meet his. Kaito wiped the remaining tears away with his thumb and looked at me expectantly. I bit back more tears and began to tell him.

"W-when I was ten, my sister Lily was my whole world. I looked up to her, admired her and aspired to be like her. She was everything to me. B-but... When she turned fifteen, she started dating a boy named Luki. I was generally quite a good judge of character but I couldn't really decipher Luki. Lily, however, was completly and untterly infatuated with him.

"If there was on thing I didn't like about Luki was that he could change people. I remember him yelling at me because he found my laugh irratating. I remember him calling me insufferable. The worst part was that Lily, my hero, always snickered and agreed with him. This caused me much pain and hurt because I was a very shy child. I was often teased at school and Lily would always make them back-off. So when she began to agree with Luki, my heart would clench and I began to believe it.

"On the day of my eleventh birthday, Lily had invited Luki over for the party. It wasn't going to be big, just a cake and one or two presents. While I was opening my presents, Luki excused himself and left the room. Lily stayed with me and watched my face light up with every present I opened. I remember she gave me a huge hug and whispered 'I'll always love you Luka. And I'll always be here.' Five seconds after she told me this, the lights went out.

"Lily, scared and nervous, took my hand and began calling for Luki. I clung to her skirt, scared out of my mind. Lily tried to comfort me and tell me it was only a blackout. We walked out into the hallway and down the corridors. Lily let go of my hand to check something quickly and I turned my back. Then there was a loud gunshot and a blood curling scream. I turned around and couldn't find Lily. But, there in the dark, I did see something. I saw two shining blue eyes.

"I screamed and ran down the hallways, towards the door. The were five loud gunshots behind me, which only made me move faster. I managed to escape the house. I ran for ages and finally collapsed in an alleyway.

"The next day on the news, a young girl of sixteen had been found shot dead. The house were she had been discarded had been burned to a crisp; They needed to do a DNA test to even clarify who she was, she was so badly burnt. Her name? Lily Megurine. She was believed to have been murdered by an assassin who went by the name of Luki. When I found this out, I was crushed. Lily, my sister and only surviving family, had been killed by here boyfriend, whom she loved dearly. I must have cried for days. I began making a living from singing of the side of the streets. The director found me and took me in. Everyone was so anxious to meet the 'new girl'. But I knew better. I knew people were just back-stabbing traitors, getting ready to strike! I became cold and rude, in order to create an invinsible barrior. I pushed away anyone who thought they could get close to me. The only two to ever have gotten near enough were Meiko and you."

I finished my sob story quietly. I waited for him to laugh, tell me he was, just in fact, toying with me. But he did none of these things. He just held me even tighter, more securely. I found that part of me enjoyed being held like this.

"Luka, I won't ever betray you. I won't ever, ever hurt you like that," Kaito whispered into my ear. I smiled. Like, a proper smile. In ten years, I hadn't once smiled properly.

"I know," I breathed.

We stayed in this position for awhile, with him stroking my hair and mumbling kind word, and me, just enjoying his company and warmth.