The reason I haven't been updating my story a lot (more like at all) is bcuz it's a sad story. Depressing. I wrote it when I was depressed. Now I'm happy and my life is amazingly great and the last thing I want to do is type up a story that reminds me of my emo past life. It makes me depressed again and my boyfriend (-- reason for happiness) has a hard time making me happy again. lol But bcuz a special fan wants to see this story finished, I'm doing it for them. And besides my boyfriend is gone for the weekend so I'll try to finish this story by the time he comes back. ^_^ read it and weep.

"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew."

"I've said that before?" He asked, concerned at my reaction.

I stared at him confused. I know I didn't say that out loud.

"Your sheild flickered for a second," he explained quickly not wanting to get off the subject.

"Nothing, forget about it. I have to go." I turned around ready to leave.

He grabbed my wrist before I could run. "Isabella, please speak to me."

I looked up into his worried...red eyes. Reality crashed around me in those red eyes. "It's nothing. Just memories."

Edward still hadn't released me yet. "You and I seem to share the same memories so start sharing." His commanding voice brought my defensive side out.

I leveled my glare at him. "They're my memories to keep." His hand tightened around my wrist. "Ow! Let me go!" I started panicking. I couldn't afford to die yet.

Suddenly, he stepped back as if I had electrocuted him. "I wasn't going to kill you," he said darkly.

"You have a temper, Edward Cullen. Especially now when you have no morals stopping you!"

He hissed at me, anger filling his body and pouring out of his eyes. My eyes widened in fear. He wasn't the vampire I fell in love with. He didn't love me like he used to either. If I angered him enough, nothing was stopping him from killing me. It wasn't the lion and lamb anymore; it was the monster and weak human.

He must have heard me again and grew sad. I saw hurt in his eyes, almost as much when I told him I didn't love him. "I wasn't going to kill you," he whispered, running away.

I turned to walk the opposite direction of the long dank hallway. I did it again. I hurt him. I walked the length of the narrow hallway, keeping my head down watching my feet.

"Bella!"

I looked up to see Alec and Alice. "Alice!" I breathed, hugging her. Automatically her arms wrapped around me. "Alice I missed you so much! I was worried they'd erase your memory too!" I cried.

"It's okay Bella. I'm here now," she soothed.

"Thank you Alec." I hugged him too. I turned back to Alice excitedly. "Alice I'm going to save you! I have a plan and I---"

Alice covered my mouth nervously. "Shhh! Don't tell me! Aro sees everything in my mind, remember? There are no secrets like I can with Edward."

I nodded silently in understanding.

"Bella, we have to go. I just wanted you to see Alice even if for only a moment." Alec apologized.

I nodded sadly. "I'll see you soon, Alice." I hugged her again.

She hugged me tightly. "Don't worry about me. It's Jasper that needs you now. I need you to take care of Jasper for me." She whispered. I nodded slightly, giving her my promise.

I watched as she and Alec disappeared into the darkness, leaving me alone. I sat down on the cold floor and curled up. This would be my last moment alone I'd have. Starting tomorrow, I had to save my family.

First, I had to get rid of Demitri. That might be hard considering I've never seen him. Felix, I'd seen more times than I'd like, but I had no idea about Demitri. I needed to provoke him somehow, something to really get his hungry side out. Even though I don't know what he looks like, I know what he is. A vampire. Suddenly Jane's words flashed in my head. "I bet if you simply cut your finger, he'd kill you. You'd be dead before I even had a chance to say 'I told you so'." If I had Edward close enough when I bled, Demitri wouldn't be able to get to me before Edward ripped him apart. But what if Edward attacked me first? Could I trust this new him? After all, he was a traditional vampire now. Edward's eyes showed that he recently ate so there's a good chance he'd be full. But the same could apply to Demitri.

I groaned in frustration, holding my head. I was just going in circles with this.

"Problem?"

I looked up, startled. "Nothing I can share with you."

Edward sat down next to me. "I'm sorry about hurting you earlier," he apologized.

I frowned. "I didn't mean what I said, Edward. I'm sorry."

He ducked his head, smiling. "I decided that I need to have better control of my temper. You're right, it was wrong of me to command you that way."

"I accept your apology."

He gently picked up my hand and examined it. "I didn't hurt you, did I?"

I shook my head, watching his perfect face. "No, you didn't hurt me."

Edward looked relieved. "I was afraid I hurt your wrist again. I didn't know if it would still be fragile after all those months."

I blanched. "All...those...months? H-how long has it been?" I whispered.

Edward watched me with worried eyes. "Isabella, you were in that cell for almost seven months. Today is the 25th of May."

I looked down, shocked. I'd been missing for seven months. Renee must think I'm dead by now. The last time I saw her was when Adam died. She was freaking out because I went crazy. Her last memories of me were nightmares. A single tear fell down my cheek.

Edward caught it before it dropped. "Don't cry, Isabella. Your mother will only remember the good times."

I stared up at him, wiping my eyes. "How---"

"I've discovered that everytime a strong emotion surges through you, your sheild weakens," he explained.

I looked down again, filing that away in my mind. I had to keep my emotions under control.

"But when you're happy, your shield is back up. It must only be emotions."

"Like my depression, my fear, and anger." I half-smiled. "Maybe that's why you never were able to read my mind." His head cocked to the side. "I was always happy with you."

He smiled too. His eyes were soft as he leaned forward. I was frozen, unsure what to do. I didn't want to lead him on, but I'd never love him. My heart was with the old Edward. Closer he came, gaging my reaction. With one last thought, I pulled away.

"Edward, I don't know if that's such a good idea." I closed my eyes.

He sighed sadly. "I understand. I'm sorry." We both sat in silence, a sadness enveloping us. "Isabella, is there no hope for us?"

"What do you mean?" I asked quietly.

He looked into my eyes. "You won't love me," he stated, not as a question but a fact.

"No, I won't," I whispered.

"We had a life....before." I nodded silently to his question. "When you came here, saying you came to save me... Why were we seperated in the first place?"

I looked away immediately. This was the one subject I hoped never to return to. It was all my fault all of this happened.

"It wasn't your fault," Edward comforted me. "I'm sure of it."

I shook my head fiercely. "It is my fault. It's all my fault you came here, it's my fault Adam died, it's my fault your family is suffering.......but I did it for a good reason." Silent tears fell. As much as I hated to admit it, I'd do it all over again. I knew Edward was reading my thoughts the way he stayed silent and listening.

"What was the reason?" He was curious enough to ask.

Finally raising my eyes to meet his, letting all the love and adoration and sacrifice spill into them; I showed him the feelings I kept inside all these months.

"You did all that for me.....and then you find out I don't even remember who you are." I watched as the anger and disgust in himself rose. His eyes growing darker with each passing second.

"Edward, it's definately not your fault. You had no say in the matter."

"But how can all my memories of life, family...and love...be gone? It's not fair that I was stripped of everything that has made me who I am...or at least used to be."

I pressed my shaking hand to his clenched jaw. "I'm sorry, Edward. I should have never left you, but...."

He turned quickly. "You left?"

I recoiled automatically. "Y-yes."

"So you didn't love me."

My mouth dropped. "What? No! Edward, I loved you! I did it out of love!"

He scoffed. "That makes no sense. When you love someone, you stay together."

"But your life was in danger!"

"Then we'd fight together!" We were both facing each other, seething.

I sighed, backing off. "You would have done the same for me."

He was deathly quiet, trying to control his anger. "Goodbye Edward," I walked away, leaving him once again. I love you... I thought back to my old Edward, the way he'd caress my cheek when I blushed, and the look in his eyes when he'd tell me he loved me, or when he played my lullaby... I let the memory of his lullaby sooth me as I walked back to my cell for the night.

Jasper hadn't moved at all. If anything he was worse. He looked as if Alice had died.

"Jasper...." I knelt beside his door, looking down at my hands. "I wanted to apologize." He stayed silent, dead. "I'm sorry for bringing you and Alice into my troubles. When I left.....I did it for love. I did it to save Edward. I had no idea any of this would happen. I didn't mean for Alice and you to suffer."

He finally blinked, looking down at me. There was no anger, hopelessness removed all emotions like it did with me. I knew what he was going through and it pained me.

"Don't punish yourself for my mistakes," I concluded.

He didn't reply, but the look we shared said enough. Quietly I left him and went to my cell to sleep.