Ch10: Broken

Kessi was 10.
And something in her had been broken, shattered, torn, eradicted.
It had never been fixed. Shattered over and over again, she got worse.
Still broken, but also strong.
And she still could stand on her own.

"Kessi? Are you OK?" Kassi went over to her sad younger twin.
Kessi shook her head.
"What's wrong?"
"He used me. He just used me and threw me aside!" Kessi hissed.
Her pain leaked out in sorrowful anger.

~Kassi POV~

I watched Kessi go over and talk to Cedric with her usual banter. She still didn't know how to break up with him.
I knew she also saw how much it hurt Hikaru to see her and Cedric together. She was desperatly trying to come up with ideas.
It wasn't working.
Kessi really, really didn't want to hurt Cedric. She really cared for him even though she didn't love him.

"You OK Kassi?" Kaoru asked me.
I nodded. "Just thinkin' about Kes."
Kessi and Cedric walked off and I saw Hikaru, upset.
"Buck up Hikaru. It won't be like this forever." I hugged his arm.
"I know." Hikaru mumbled and smiled at my small hug.
"Kes will find a way out and soon!" I let go of his arm and ran a few feet ahead before turn towards the boys and smiling.
I played Kessis part for once, and smiled when I felt as though I couldn't.

When we got to the classroom, Kessi wasn't there and Cedric was. This made me wonder.
"Hey, Cedric." I walked over to him. "Where's Kessi?"
"I don't know. She randomly left. I was wondering where she went myself." Cedric frowned.
"Ah. OK." I sat in my seat next to Kaoru.
"You OK?" Kaoru asked.
I nodded. Something doesn't feel right.
Kessi walked in and immediatly sat in her seat.

~Kessi POV~

Class dragged on, as always.
I decided this morning that I would break up with Cedric at lunch... But where does he eat lunch? I can always find out from his friends.
I sighed as I stared at my math worksheet, perplexed. I hadn't paid attention.
I let my head lightly fall onto the desk.
I'm so tired.
I closed my eyes.

I felt a hand take hold of my hand that was on my thigh.
I opened one eye to see my leg, only to figure out that it was Hikarus hand.
My heart fluttered.
At least Cedric can't see this.
I knew how jealous guys could get, and I didn't want to deal with that again.
"You doin' alright?" Hikaru asked me in a whisper. He wasn't the only one talking, so no one heard.
I lifted my head and nodded slightly.
"OK." Hikaru let go of my hand

I stretched, putting my hands in the air to stretch my arms and straightened out my legs.
A whole new batch of whispers broke out as I stretched.
Probably because my clothing now seem to outline my shape.
I heard Cedric cough from his seat. I rolled my eyes.
He didn't like me stretching.

I was looked for Cedric at lunch.
I asked Cedrics friends where to find him.
They hit on me first, but told me after a while.
They said he should be around here somewhere.
I turned a corner and froze.

How could he?

Cedric was around the corner.
But he wasn't alone.
There was a girl there. They were kissing. And that wasn't the worst of it.
The girl was pushed up against the wall and both she and Cedric were shirtless. In the middle of school too!
My anger and hurt boiled over the brim and fell like a waterfall to the floor.
Tears were stinging my eyes and, even though I had made no conscious descision, I moved foreward. I advance on them and Cedric looked up.

Just in time to get slapped.

"How could you!?" I yelled.
He scoffed. "I guess you could just call this an eye for an eye." Cedrics tone was icy.
"W-what?"
The girl was giving me a disgusted look, but I had already decided that I would beat her later.
"An eye for an eye. You cheated on me."
"Wh-"
"Back in the UK! When you went around and slept with all my friends! And I heard that while you were here you were sleeping around as well! I knew I shouldn't have trusted you! You're nothing but a whore."
For some reason I smiled and laughed. Cedric looked at me as if I had lost my mind.
"Cedric. When will you ever learn? Not everything you hear is true and that an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind!"

Cedric scoffed. "I actually trusted you-"
"And I you, but now I really understand why people put locks on their hearts. It's over and we both know that. It's been over since we came here. I'm sorry Cedric. I'm sorry for you. I never thought you would stoop this low." I turned and walked away, the tears I held in my eyes fell and I lowerd my head to hide it.
I didn't look at anyone.
They all do it. They use me then throw me away.
"Kessi!" My name was called, but I ignored it. I moved deeper into the crowd, disappearing within it.
I left the school and didn't go home. I just wandered.
Without purpose and without a word.

~Kassi POV~

"And you didn't see where she went or where she had come from or what was wrong?" I asked Hikaru desparetly.
"I don't know anything other than what I've told you. She disappeared into the crowd, I'm sorry." Hikaru shook his head.
Where is she gonna go this time.
Cedric walked into the room with another girl under his arm.
"Cedric." I walked over to him. "Where's Kessi?"
"Don't ask me. We broke up and she just walked off." Cedric shrugged. "See you around." He walked off.
"When did you turn into such a jackass!?" I yelled, angry.
Kessi was just so insistant on making me worry.

"I'm going to look for her." I informed the boys and left, leaving no room for talk.

~Kessi POV~

I walked into the appartment right as my cell phone rang.
"Hello?" I answered the phone quickly.
"Kessi! Where the hell are you!?" Kassi demanded.
"Home." I sat on the couch. "I'm fine."
"Why did you leave?"
"Cedric cheated on me. And, even though I was gonna break up with him, it still hurt." I stretched.
"Oh, Kessi. Why does this keep happening to you?"

"Dunno. But it does and it sucks."
Kassi sighed. "At least it's over between you two."
"Yeah. Are you coming home now?"
"Mhm. I'm almost there right now."
"Alright. see you in a few." I hung up.

Kassi came home a few minutes later.
"Hey." I smiled at her.
"Hey. You gonna be OK?" Kassi sat down next to me and wrapped an arm around me.
I nodded. "I'll be fine."
"OK."

"Are the boys coming over later?"
"I don't know. I didn't ask. If they want to, they know they can."
I nodded. "I'm gonna go take a nap." I stood.
"OK. Later."
I got up and went to my room, but I didn't lay down, I went to my window and sat on my window seat.
It's all for the best, I guess.
I hope.
I sighed and, leaning my head against the wall behind me, closed my eyes.

"Cedric, you do trust me, right?" I asked.
"Of course I trust you. Why wouldn't I?" He looked at me.
"I know that rumors fly about me. Saying I'm a whore and such." I sighed. "Even though none of it is real." I wrapped my arms around my knees.
"I don't listen to rumors. They're mainly made up. I tend to ignore them." Cedric shrugged. "I'll always trust you." He smiled at me.

Tears were stinging my eyes and, even though I had made no conscious descision, I moved foreward. I advance on them and Cedric looked up. Just in time to get slapped.
"How could you!?" I yelled.
He scoffed. "I guess you could just call this an eye for an eye." Cedrics tone was icy.
"W-what?"
The girl was giving me a disgusted look, but I had already decided that I would beat her later.
"An eye for an eye. You cheated on me."
"Wh-"
"Back in the UK! When you went around and slept with all my friends! And I heard that while you were here you were sleeping around as well! I knew I shouldn't have trusted you! You're nothing but a whore."

I opened my eyes to the rain slapping the window in a quick tempo, begging to be let in.
I opened my window and let the rain fall on my face, let it was away my pain and sorrow.
"This is the newest chapter." I said quietly to the rain, which had calmed down. "And here it shall begin. Let's hope it ends well."
I closed my window, hoping for the best and preparing for the worst.