Bella's Pov:
That was a change for once. I had my way, all i could think while being in the bathroom was that he was going to bust the door open any minute, and he surprised me. Once again when he didnt.
He walked away mad alright, but he let me have my way after all.
I sighed, unfortunately it wasnt enough for me, i was put through so much pain, all pain he caused.
I missed my home, missed my family, missed my dad.
My sisters need me right now. Oh i'd like to tell to myself.
I wished to tell myself they were not fine and they couldn't live on their own, but after all my absent i found they could, and they did.
Just fine.
I was the one needing them.
Then there was Edward, i knew he much needed me more than wanted me. I just could tell. He had been trying to get to me in the nicest ways he 'thought' we're good, and i surrended, its so crazy how i put myself to his will. I didnt struggle anymore and that…unnerved me.
There was one time where i was more confident and free.
Of body, soul and mind.
I didnt trust either one of them now.
Especially my body.
After i put on a dark purple dress on i went downstairs surprised to find the door unlocked for once. There was nobody around and then i heard it.
That slow and powerful at the same time rhythm.
It came from the other side of those big dark oak doors.
My curiosity got the best of me once again.
I pushed my body in and was not surprised to see him playing those keys like there was no tomorrow.
I heard every little bit of what he would give and didnt look away when his gaze found mine.
But he kept playing instead, wich let me know it was safe.
So i stepped in.
No glared, no grunts.
I sat beside him.
The music got an awful tune then, almost like it missed one piece, or all the chords went missing.
I laughed.
"Do i make you nervous?" i looked down to the keys. He grunted something under his breath and then gaze up at me with that intensive gaze of his that let me know he wasnt mad but was passionate about something he was thinking in his head.
"Its what happens when you're around"
I furrowed my eyebrows in question. I couldnt get a hold of this dude. He confused the hell out of me.
He looked my expression and in exchange, he furrowed his eyebrows as well, now that's the look i've known since i've been here.
I wasnt gonna let this pass though.
I was going to take my chances.
He looked away from me trying to disguise what just happened.
"You're nervous around me?"
"Forget it"
"I dont know if you have the concept of nervous very well defined in your head" i teased.
"I said…forget it!" he snapped harshly but not really mad, more like if he was embarrassed.
It wasnt enough to stop me, i was on a roll.
"Our conceptions are really different..-" he cut me off.
"That's enough Isabella" he glared at me.
I stare back at him just as strong. Confident.
"Are you going to give me supper?" i was mocking his words, putting emphasis in 'supper', my voice was challenging.
He laughed. Maybe thinking 'the nerve of this girl'
"We already had this conversation!" he said smirking, i rolled my eyes.
"If you're going to be a pain in the..-" he cut me off harshly.
"Watch your language Isabella i will not tolarate it"
Baby steps Bella, baby steps.
"It's Bella" i mumbled innocently.
He ignored me.
"Just because i'd let you out of the room and allowed you to walk freely around the house, hell i even let you have your stupid child tantrums doesn't mean i'll have to stand for it any time you please" he sneered, i was getting every word, i remembered to myself : 'baby steps'
Should be glad he didnt have my head on a silver plate after all the fights i put up today.
But then i thought about it once again, once i didnt need to feel glad i could get out freely of a room.
So i decided to speak my mind.
What's the worst he could do?
"There was one time where i shouldn'thave been grateful to get out of a room"
His eyes sent daggers to me and i heard his potential growl.
He took me by my upper arm and i cringed at the strong iron grip he had on me.
Then i knew the answer to my question, Edward was capable of killing me for my insolence.
"Im sorry" i apologized as quickly as i could, moaning from the hold of his hand on mya rm.
"I wouldnt hesitate in killing you Bella, dont ever think you have a hold on me for once" he growled on my ear addamant.
"Why dont you then?" i groaned, he was silent for a minute so i decided to speak up "Maybe it would be for the best of us"
Maybe it was.
Thinking about it, death could be easy for me, it would only hurt a matter of seconds, but the pain would stop for all eternity.
Instead of staying with him, where i was slowly and painfully dying but never closing my eyes for good.
I was not afraid of dying anymore.
Thinking about it...i guess that was my only way out of this.
Death.
How didnt i thought about it before? Maybe i did one or two times but never gave it much thought how i was on.
In this moment.
So he needed to give me a hell of a good reason for me to stay.
Because i didnt believe he was putting so much pain in me just because of what happened years ago, he had his revenge, he stripped me away from my home, had killed one of my bestfriends, had used me at his advantaged and had make me his for good, that was all he wanted to do to me, so what now? I dont believe he wanted me to be his private toy for eternity.
I would die from old age at some point, why dont make my pain shorter?
He looked at me weird, he was confused about my sudden change, he was defiant still but had a worried look on his face, like if he was contemplating something, or worrying about something.
"I have better plans for you" he smirked before i could give his look another meaning.
"Which are?" i snapped, he growled tired with my insolence "I wont stop provoking you anymore" i said with water in my eyes, he gripped my arm strongly like warning me "mayb e I'll get myself kill but i wont stop speaking my mind!"
It was the only thing i had to remind me i was still alive i wouldnt let him shout it down completely like he had done one time.
"Maybe i'll kill myself with anything i could get my hands on and finish this awful
"Maybe i'll kill myself with anything i could get my hands on and finish this awful
"Maybe i'll kill myself with anything i could get my hands on and finish this awful situation"
Suddenly he laughed letting go of me and standing up i followed his trail, interested in what he had to say right now.
"Before you could get away that easily from me Isabella..," he started to say, i was listening alright "I would firstly kill you myself so at least i'll have the sweet pleasure to engross myself in your delicious blood.." he said darkly looking at me all the time while i shuddered in fear "Then i would turn you myself into a monster like me, to have you as my mate for all eternity" he groaned at the thought in ecstacy.
So that were his plans?
He frowned and felt like my whole world was falling apart.
You would think that by now my world was far down from all the suffering he put me through, but i guess that i always knew there was an end to it.
But now…hearing from his mouth what he intended to do frightened me.
I heard the word 'eternity' over and over in my head and i almost cried.
I was afraid alright.
"Why me?" i asked with a trembling voice.
Realization hit me once again.
Why this cold monster would choose me to be around him forever?
Why me?
He stopped laughing and turned to me once again.
"There is something aboutyou, you're like a drug to me…" he insisted, i listened careful while he positioned himself behind me pushing my hair from my shoulders, exposing my neck to him "you're like own personal brand of heroine" he whispered hotly while leaving a hot kiss on my throat.
I didnt dare to move away, or i didnt have the strength.
"I just figured to keep you human a while longer, you're more fun to toy around when you're human" he laughed silently.
One tear left my eye.
His arm wrapped around my waist protectively, holding me close to his strong chest while his finger traced up and down my throat which was still freely exposed to him.
"It was already in your plans?" i whispered.
He kissed my throat once again and i could feel his smile on his lips.
He was very sadistic about it.
He was becoming the Edward i knew, not the one i could stood up to.
Not the one i could close the bathroom door on.
Or the one i could mock.
It was the one that was holding me for life and the one he would get his way at the end.
Like he always did.
"I cant compete with that"
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So like you guys know i decided to finish this one.
Hopefully i would get to it.
I know i knoooww Edward is even more sadistic than i would want to. xD it just comes out of nowhere, it has a life of its own i know!
Hey guys….so the original plot i had for the ending isnt exactly the same now…give me some ideas to inspire me will you?