So this chapter is going to be a series of different flashbacks that Lillian is experiencing to get her memories back. There is going to be a lot of time jumps and emotions in this one. I will title when her flashbacks start and end

!Trigger Warning! there is going to be mentions of abuse, self harm, Etc. If you are sensitive to any of these things please read with caution!

I was surrounded by darkness. I couldn't see anything, I was stuck in a void of nothingness. "Draco!" I called out, even though I knew it was useless. I thought that this was a joke, some sick joke until I felt, wind?

~~~~Beginning of flashbacks~~~~

"Dad, where are you?" I called out, dad was supposed to take me to the pond but I couldn't find him. "Lillian, what did I say about interrupting me?" I froze in fear, I didn't want to be punished again.

"That I wasn't supposed to, and if I did I would be punished again." I was afraid of what was going to happen. Mom said that dad had changed and he was nice now, mom was wrong. "And you just interrupted me, Lillian do you know what is going to happen?"

"Dad please don't." I begged him. I was nine at the time, I couldn't handle being hurt again. "Lillian this will help you get stronger." Before I knew what was happening dad threw me across the floor and then picked me up and threw me against the wall.

There were tears running down my face, I couldn't hold them back anymore. "Dad please stop!" I shouted and begged but he wouldn't listen.

~~~End of Flashback~~~

When I regained my consciousness I was crying and I couldn't see I could only hear. "What will happen to her?" I heard someone ask, it was Draco. "She will lose consciousness and regain it throughout her flashbacks until they are over, she will be confused when she wakes up each time, you must resist the urge to tell her about her past." I heard someone order.

~~~Flashback~~~

"Mom, I can't do this anymore. I have to leave, dad is abusive and I'm ten years old, my body can't take it anymore." Mom had tears in her eyes that she was pushing back. "Lillian, you can't go alone..."

"Mom-"

"You can't go alone, so we will leave tonight." I was shocked by what she had said. I started crying and I hugged my mother. "Oh thank you mom." She didn't say anything but she did hug me back.

~~~time skip to the night~~~

"Lillian lets go, get up we have to go now." I woke up with a start, I grabbed my moms hand and her wand. "Where are you two going?" I heard dad shout down the hall. "We are just going for a walk, we will be back by morning." Mom said, trying to sound innocent.

"I don't believe you, I heard you two talking earlier. Now go back to sleep and reconsider what you are planning before you both regret it." I stepped in front of my mom. "No dad, you can't keep abusing us, we are leaving whether you want us to or not."

"Oh really, are you leaving?" Dad took out his wand and I knew what he was going to do. I turned around quickly. "Mom you have to leave, don't get the same fate as me." Mom shook her head. "No, Lilly you are young you deserve a life, but promise me you will get out of here, run as fast as you can."

"Mom I don't understand."

"Promise me Lillian."

"I promise. But mom-" I was cut short of what I was saying because I heard dad yell "Avada Kedavra." Mom pushed me behind her and out the door then jumped in front of the spell.

"MOM!" I yelled as I saw her collapse to the floor, her lifeless body just laying there. "You killed her Lillian, you could've died in her place but no, she saved you." I wasn't going to let her death be in vane, so I ran. I ran out the door and as fast as I could into the forest and away from the man I once called a father and away from the woman I called Mom.

~~~Flashback End~~~

I woke up with a start, my vision took a second to clear. I was crying and sobbing loudly.

I was in my room, and someone was here with me, it was Draco. "Lillian, oh my god, what happened what did you see?" Draco asked, concern in his voice. "He killed her, he killed her Draco."

"Who did?" Draco looked confused and worried. "My father killed my mother. In cold blood, she sacrificed herself so I could live." He held me and didn't let go. "How many times do I have to go through this?" I asked, Draco just shook his head. "I don't know Lillian. They said you will relive the main points up until you lost your memories, those main points will reveal everything that happened before and after that."

I didn't get to respond because everything went black after he said that.

~~~Flashback~~~

I was so cold, it was snowing now and I had no more food, water, or shelter. I never left the woods, so I can't ask for help, and I don't have enough energy to do an accio spell. I didn't want to die, I promised mom that I would survived. I felt like I was about to collapse until I felt a pair of hands on my shoulders holding me up.

I panicked and grabbed my mothers wand, turned around and pointed it at them. "W-w who are y-y you?" I asked, I could barely form a sentence because I was so cold. "I'm Draco, Draco Malfoy." He had his hands up in surrender, he walked towards me slowly. "Can you put your wand down, I just want to talk?"

I felt like I could trust him, I put my wand down beside me and he put his hands down. "Who are you?" He asked me, I didn't know if I should tell him the truth but I felt like I was going to die soon so I thought why the hell not just tell him. "I'm Lillian..." I didn't want to use my father's name so I chose my mothers, "Lillian Riddle."

Draco was shocked. "I have a house, you can come with me, I will get you food, shelter. Please come with me." Draco outstretched his hand, I went to take his hand but when I stepped forward, I fell and he caught me. With my strength gone, I black out in his arms.

~~~End of Flashback~~~

I will continue her flashbacks into the next chapter, this one was becoming to long with a total of 1145 words. I will upload it by tonight or tomorrow, Bye.